"Where are we, Luca?" I whispered, the strong whiff of blood filled my nostrils again, I felt the urge to vomit, I could feel my throat coming up on and I could barely stare at the place when I rushed out of the room, o walked into the nearest bathroom, throwing my guts out.
When I felt soone hold my hair up, he didn’t even have to touch for to realise that he is close to , for to realise that his wolf is near when his eye t mine again.
"Clean up" he spoke and I did, I wiped off all of the vomit I had all over my body and I covered my mouth with water before taking in so mouthwash to feel better.
"What is that Luca?" I whispered the mont I headed out of the bathroom, I could still see the room, it felt like I could feel the things that had happened inside the room and it only made scared, it made worried and all I could think about was the horrors that could have taken place in that place
"It’s a part of no one has seen, you said I want to have control, you said I have all the control that I need but I need you to realise that I don’t have control over many things."
"What do you an?" I asked, I could feel my heart beating against my chest, I had never felt this scared before, my eyes filled with tears as I stared at him, what did he an? "Do you hurt people in that room Luca?" I asked.
I am not sure I am ready to find out, I am not sure I am ready to figure out what the truth can be, it made scared: what I’d be said yes, I could still sll the blood, the way I saw it painted on the wall like it’s a part of it.
"Would you be scared if I said yes?" He asked moving closer to when I placed my hand in front of him, he didn’t care I moved him as he moved closer to , even closer that I am scared.
"I am not the monster you think I am, I am not the monster you want to be so badly Olivia, that room, that blood does not belong to anyone but , it’s mine." He spoke; I stared at him with disbelief written all over my eyes; it can’t be, it can’t all belong to him.
So were dry, I could still think about it and the sll was heavy, which ant it’s fresh.
"You are bluffing, you are saying it so won’t be scared of you."
"Why would I lie, why would I end up lying to you, what could I gain from that, you are always scared of , you can’t leave even if you want to, I have you trapped already so why would I lie?" He asked and a tear slipped out of my eyes.
"It’s your blood." I finally said and he nodded, I didn’t want to believe it even if I didn’t want yet I did, I believe every word of it. It belonged to him and it even scared more.
"I don’t have all the control I need, not like you think so, you saw a side of I always lock away."
"You harm yourself," I asked, he didn’t co off as soone who would hurt himself; he didn’t co off as soone who would even think about hurting himself; he should be strong; the stories said so, he is ant to be powerful, everyone should be scared of him.
"What do you an Luca, you are starting to scare ."
"Every full moon, I turn into sothing else, into sothing I can’t control, a monster that feeds on others, a monster that hurt itself, when control slips, this is why I keep myself locked inside that room, not because I am scared but because I can’t hurt people anyone, I don’t want to hurt soone I will regret:" he spoke.
He had done it before, his voice, his tone, and even his eyes said so; he had hurt soone he cared about, soone he still regrets hurting and when I stared deep into his eyes, I realized that, that soone any not here anymore.
Luca is not horrible, Luca is damaged, there is sothing inside of him.
"I know what it feels like not to have control of yourself, of your body, of your life, I know what it feels like not to be able for anything but if I control you, it’s because I want to protect you, not because I want to have full control over you. It’s because I know better or protect you than anyone, not because I think you are dumb or stupid or incapable of controlling yourself, but because I know what the world holds and I know that, I am better off protecting you." He spoke.
I stared at him for a second unable to find words for what I had to say, I wanted to ask him who he had hurt, who he had let die, and now he regrets it.
"No one knows about this, this side of you," I whispered.
"I need control to lead Olivia and if they find out I have a weakness, it’s not a weakness, it’s a strength: a wolf that kills without remorse, a wolf that wants to hurt, they would want to use it in another way". He spoke.
I knew he was right, I hated that he was right.
"Even Ares- no one knows about this, not my Beta, not my Wolff’s, not Ares’s, not anyone knows about this, I don’t want control, I need control to be able to survive being an Alpha." He spoke.
"You need the control," I whispered against my breath, I realized what he ant by that, he is the Alpha, he is stronger; he is soone who wants to have control and he is soone who needs to have it. He needs it and I never understood that, no one would want an alpha that didn’t have control.
The more I stared at him, my eyes moved away from him and it fell upon his lips, he swept his tongue softly against his lips and my breath hitches.
"How does it feel, losing control, not being able to control your wolf?" I asked
"It feels unpowerful, no one wants to forget who they are but I do when I lose control, it’s like I am a different person, my veins, the blood that flows faster it’s- scary," I whispered cutting him off, My eyes were still on his lips.
I have an idea what it feels like to lose control of my body, to lose control of every part of , and not be able to have control of who I am. Maybe I can’t fully relate but I can understand what he ant by that.
I didn’t speak, I didn’t even know what to say.
"I want to protect you even when I lose control, Olivia." He breathed out.
When his hand softly touched my body, my eyes were on his for a second when he wrapped his hand around my waist, and for a second, I lost control over my body and my lips found their place on his.
My heart skipped a beat when his lips danced against mine, his eyes closed for a second and I realized how vulnerable he is, I realized how much he didn’t want to show this side of him and I dodged him too, I closed my eyes for a second.
Leaning deeper into the kiss, I didn’t want to think of how I would feel after the kiss; all I wanted to think about was the fact that we are here together, Luca didn’t just kiss .
He gently tucked my lips: he played with my lips and he listened to what I had to say, my words were on my lips and he buried all of it with a kiss, he would bite my softly, trying to leave his mark and I did the sa too, I wanted him to leave his mark on and I wanted to do the sa to him.
"Luca." I breathed out when I pulled away; his eyes filled with lust while it was covered by an unfamiliar feeling and my days t his again. He was about to lean in again when he heard his phone ringing and a curse escaped my lips.
"I hate to take this." Luca breathed out before pulling away from .
He didn’t co back, and after about two minutes I found myself heading toward the balcony to listen in.
"She would never do that to , just find out why he has the eting with Victor." He spoke and I pulled away.
What did he an?
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