(From Blue's Perspective)
Hey Dem,
It's been just one day, but I miss you so much. I am sorry I cried a bit today. I will try not to anymore. How are you doing now? Is everything good? Give a broad explanation if you have ti, or just keep it short.
If you really have much ti in hand, try to tell as many things as possible. I want to hear everything.
Luc comforted today and invited to hang out with him and Ruby. I refused to go today and said I will go tomorrow. I have too much work in hand today. I will finish my work early tomorrow, or tell Reece that I am taking a break.
Calix was trying to cheer up today because I was in a bad mood. Let apologize again for being so miserable when you have gone for just two months. I am acting too weak, ain't I? I know I am; I hate myself for it.
I invited Perita and Calix to have lunch with . The chef made waterlon juice, broccoli, rib's eye, tortilla soup and many more things. It was like a feast, you know. I could not eat too much, but I tried everything. You see, the chef worked very hard on the dishes. If I did not try all of them, he would feel bad.
Don't worry, I have not forced myself to eat. I skipped breakfast today, so I was pretty hungry.
Perita and Calix ate a lot, so the chef was very happy. He always becos very happy when soone eats his food a lot.
After that, I worked a bit. I practiced swordsmanship in the afternoon as usual. I am at the last step of being a proper swordswoman now. I am excited to finish it, you know. It will be a matter of pride then.
I have had my dinner just now. I ate a lot at lunch, so I was not that hungry. I had so broccoli, chicken salad and lemon water.
You know, I have been thinking lately but could not ntion it to you before… It's been almost two years of our marriage. If my power is awakened, let's have a kid as soon as possible. I an, you said it's okay. Of course, I will hear what you say first. After you co back, let's talk about it.
That said, Perita gave a gift today; so seeds. She said they are a special type of seeds and one plant will grow from all of them. I think one seed will grow one branch and they will kind of swirl around each other. I am just guessing it. She doesn't know the na of it. Anyway, I will plant them now.
I will tell you more about it later.
Goodbye now. I love you, honey. I love you so much. Write to when you get ti. And goodnight.
Yours,
Blue
I kissed the letter before putting it in the envelope. The bird was waiting on the window fra.
I rubbed its feathers affectionately. She liked it when I did that. Then, I tied the envelope to its leg.
"Take it to Dem. Be careful on your way, hm?"
It took off quickly and I waved it goodbye. After it left, I did not have much to do. So, I decided to plant the seeds.
I brought a book from the library about how to plant seeds in a tub. I never did it before, so I did not know. I told the maids to bring a good tub to plant the seeds and so soil. They brought a very big one even though I told them it was not a big tree.
When I sorted everything out and sat on the floor of the balcony, I noticed they had brought everything I needed, including a pair of gloves, water, soil, a tub, and so notes from the gardener.
"Hmm, let's see what I have to do first."
The books said to have my seeds and choose a container first. I had both of them. Then, I needed to add a seed starting mix. I did not notice it before, but then I did. The maids got them for too. They were needed to prevent fungal diseases.
I started by adding water to my starting mix. Thankfully, there was not too much water added when I squeezed a handful of the mixture to check. When I pressed it, there were only a few drops of water that ca out, which was ideal. I filled the tub to within an inch of the top after thoroughly moistening the mix, then squeezed it until it was tightly packed and flat on top.
After that, I buried my seeds. I tamped the soil with the palm of my hand after burying the seeds. I was not sure if I was supposed to bury the seeds or just leave them on the surface. Perita ntioned sothing about burying, so I went with it even though I was not so sure about it.
I enclosed my seeds with a layer of plastic wrap. Perita told to just keep it in my room when I asked if it needed sunlight or complete darkness. She said my bedside table would be fine. Enough sunlight would fall on my bedside table, so this plant probably needed sunlight.
I was required to water them every day. Perita told to care for them myself as it would make feel better. It would not be a big deal. I was not so busy that I could not even take care of a plant.
I was just worried that Sapphire would destroy it. She hated plants, or perhaps she played with them in the form of destroying them.
It took a while to finish planting the seeds. I had to read the instructions, again and again, to make sure I was not ssing it up. I placed the tub on the bedside table carefully. Sapphire was in the room. She had the habit to throw things on the floor from the table. But the tub was too heavy for her to be able to push it with her tiny paw.
I took Sapphire with to the bath. She did not hate water, nor did she like it. She just could not care less about it. I placed her on the stool by the bathtub and sat down in the bath after undressing. Late-night baths were always fun unless I caught a cold.
"I am so lonely now, Sapphire. Don't leave my side, okay? Mommy won't be like before and take you everywhere," I said, touching her fur. She was quite a moody cat. "Don't be mad at anymore, okay?"
She owed as if she understood . Even she owed with an attitude. "What the…?"
Sapphire understood a lot even though she was just a cat. It was because we had a ntal connection between us as I unconsciously transferred so black mana to her. After I suffered a miscarriage, Sapphire helped a lot get better. That ti, I felt like I was lost. There were tis when I did not care even if I died.
Thinking about that ti made recall how much I had grown ntally and how things had changed.
I was still not a very strong person ntally. I broke down just because Dem had left. He would co back after two months, yet I felt very sad. But I had stopped trusting people easily like the way I trusted Dem even though I did not know him. Now that I thought about it, it was pretty stupid of to do so.
Anything could have happened.
I was still forced to get married. It was not like I regretted my marriage with him. I was very happy, on the other hand. But I sotis wished we t under different circumstances where everything would have happened because we wanted it, not because soone else planned everything for us.
Dem's obsession and my trauma- if they did not exist, would our lives have been different? There was no answer to a probable scenario. I was just being silly.
I was feeling quite restless for the last few days. Perhaps that was why I was thinking about these things.
Calix was right. I thought too much for no reason. I should relax and enjoy my everyday life than worry about everything.
'Geez, and my overthinking habit… I hate it!'
Sapphire stayed there the whole ti I was taking a bath. She was more curious about the soap bubbles than my blubbering. I did not mind it. Just having her around gave a sense of calmness.
"Let's go to sleep now, okay, my Sapphire? I will allow you on the bed today."
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