(From Blue's Perspective)
"So, how many tis do you go at it at a ti?" she asked.
I was mortified. I had no idea she could talk about these kinds of things so freely. Now, I could see that she was definitely Detrius's sister.
"Are you shy? There is no need to be shy," she grinned. "It's a very natural thing. Sex is sothing very normal for couples. So, why don't we stop being shy about it? I actually don't see what's there to be shy about.
I an, yes, we have sex and it's a very intimate task. So what? It's not sothing to be shy about, right?"
"Well... I am actually a bit reserved about these kinds of things," I said.
"Oh my, you are just like rrick!" she exclaid. "He is very shy about these kinds of things as well."
She did not need to tell that. It was pretty obvious. And I did not even need to see or hear to know that she talked very shalessly to her husband just like Detrius did to .
"Do you want to know when we first t?"
"Hm? Yes, I would like to know," I said.
"We t while traveling. We t near a waterfall actually. Since I have Alpha blood inside , I could choose my own mate. I was eighteen. I actually never thought of marrying since if I got married, I would have to settle down. At that ti, I thought it would be impossible for to travel as much as I would like to if I married or dated anyone.
But I was a bit wild type of woman, you know. I an, I used to play around, but no strings attached. rrick was the exact opposite. When we t, I suggested that we travel together for a while since we were planning to travel to the sa places."
"I was the one who suggested that we have sex since both of us were single. But he refused imdiately and told that he only wants to do it with his mate. He was a commoner. So, he would eventually find his mate. But it was not the sa for . I did not feel much for him at that ti.
After he rejected , I did not push him anymore since I am not that type of person. Then one night, there was a party where we joined. It was available for everyone. I hid my identity, so no one knew that I was a Royal, not even rrick. There, one woman was flirting with him and ended up kissing him. He did not give consent though.
I was so angry that I ended up leaving the party imdiately. When he followed , I cried and confessed to him. I had never felt that pathetic and hurt before."
"He did not believe completely and asked again and again if I was truly in love with him or I was just playing with him. It was not a lie obviously. It was the first ti I told soone I loved him. He also confessed that he fell in love with him. I also said that I could take him as my mate since I had Alpha blood in . Then we got married.
We had sex for the first ti after we got married. It was his first ti."
"It sounds amazing actually. eting your loved one like this- it's quite fantastic," I said.
"Yeah... I know. By the way, have you heard about my father?" she asked suddenly. "I an, what kind of person he was? And the fact that Mother has ntal illness regarding her past?"
"Yes, I know about it," I nodded. "Detrius told everything."
"Then you also might know that my father was soone who liked to play around with won... I was like that too. I played around with n. But he cheated on Mother after getting married. That was so fucked up! That's the point where I am different than him.
I an, I did that before marriage and I was not cheating on anyone or had sex with soone who was married or had a lover. After marriage, I never even thought of anyone other than my husband. Actually, there isn't anyone to think about since I never loved anyone before."
"It's different for Detrius and you, right? He is not like or Father. He literally hated physical contact with anyone. You know, when we were little, he never let anyone touch him. I think I only saw Luc punching him. He was the only person who could touch him.
It's perhaps because they were best friends. Since Detrius just hated everyone, he did not date anyone nor had any won. Of course, he made sure that others knew that he had mistresses. It was just a pretend and all of the mbers of the palace knew about it. It was mainly to fool Uncle. He knew that Detrius was lying, but he did not have any proof.
I think Detrius's first ti was with you, right?"
"Yeah," I nodded shyly.
"And yours?"
"It was with him," I said. "Both of our first tis were on our wedding night."
"That's great. I think it is one of the reasons the bond between you two is greater than most couples. Actually, I know a bit about my brother's personality. We don't have much of a good relationship, but I still know so things about him. He is very... brutal...
He kills soone without blinking an eye. Well, I can do that too, so it's not much of a thing, I guess. But it's not the sa for you. I heard, in your world, things don't happen like this."
"That's true. It's a lot different there," I said.
"And he can be very extre about certain things... Let be frank- he is obsessed with you, isn't he?"
'Eh? How...? How does she know that? Dem said he was not close with his sister...'
"It's not healthy obviously and he surely tries to restrict you from doing a lot of things. Even if he has not gone too far, he will soon. I know you are not going to admit it. But I know it's true regardless of what you are going to say. I am not in the sa boat with him about it. It's not alright.
But he is soone you can't get rid of no matter what if you get tangled with him once. It's impossible for you to be apart from him. You also love him. But all I want to tell you is that you can talk to if you need soone to lend you an ear. No, I will lend you two of my ears and listen to everything you have to say. Think of as your older sister.
I already think of you as my younger sister. So, co to if you have any problems. I will help you no matter what."
Talking to Evelyn made surprised. She was easy to talk to and she actually knew about Detrius's personality more than I thought. But I still could not open up to her. I was scared that she might betray . I barely talked to anyone about Dem's personality, his obsessive and dangerous nature, and his desires. Now that I thought about it, I had never actually told anyone about it.
I decided not to tell her anything now. But if soday I needed any advice, I would surely co to her.
I sent a letter to Detrius through a maid saying that I was going to have lunch with Evelyn. He told to tell him beforehand when I was going to do sothing. His abandonnt issues perhaps started to affect him again.
I had a feeling that sothing happened in his dream last night. He had been acting this way after this morning. He also got an erection out of nowhere, not that I was worried about that.
He had left a note on the bedside table this morning. On that note, he reminded to tell him before doing sothing. I had been suspecting that he was worried that I would leave him.
It was no surprise anymore when he would hug tightly and tell not to leave him again and again in his sleep. I always tried to reassure him again and again, but it did not help. He always believed that I would leave him soday.
'What do I have to do to make you believe that I won't leave you?'
It made sad every ti he behaved like that. It was like his mind was ruined and he was holding onto only. It made want to embrace him and love him so much that he would never think that I would leave him.
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