Chapter 439: Lose control
Alanis
I am watching him as he watches
and his eyes are wide open. For the first ti in my life, I don’t know what he is thinking. I can’t read his mind. Right now, he can either make or break
at this mont. I am naked in front of him, the most vulnerable I have ever been and he is just watching
with wide unreadable eyes.
"Say sothing,’’ I plead with him after a couple of silent seconds. I know I am being extra sensitive but I need him to respond to this.
"Uh...Lanis,’’ he calls my na without moving his eyes. I look at his hands and they are squeezing the sheets of the bed.
"Say sothing,’’ I say again, "anything.’’
He looks at
and then down "I don’t think this is a good idea right now, you being this beautiful in front of . Please put your clothes back on,’’ he tells
calmly, even though I can hear the anxiety in his voice.
"I don’t want to,’’ I move closer to him and he jolts up from the bed so fast "Please put your clothes back on,’’ he begs
again still watching .
I have no clue on what is happening right now, I don’t know if he is grossed out or if it is sothing else. This is my way of telling him that I want him to have . Even with the pain, the pregnancy, I want to feel him and he is telling
to put my clothes back on.
I watch him as he runs his fingers through his hair and his eyes are dazed but he hasn’t stopped watching . He is still staring even though he doesn’t want
to touch him.
"Do you think I am gross right now?’’ I ask him in a low voice because I am terrified of the answer, he is going to give .
His eyes widen in a different view "What? Hell no, Why would I think you are gross? You are fucking beautiful.’’ he shouts so loud that his voice catches
off guard. His words are assuring but I don’t just want words right now.
I want to be irresistible in his eyes, I want him to take
on this bed right now and all he is doing is running away from .
"You’re not acting like you think I am. Why won’t you touch ?’’ I ask him, slowly standing up from the bed and walking to him. He doesn’t run away this ti as I stop in front of him.
He looks at
with his eyes glassy and I can see that he is scared. I just don’t know what he is afraid of right now.
"Touch , Beau, please,’’ I beg him with a desperation that I didn’t even know I had in . His eyes look at
from head to toe, I see the sparkle in them.
"I don’t want to hurt you. You are in so much pain right now. It doesn’t seem like a good idea and I have been controlling myself for a fucking week. You don’t know how hard it has been,’’ he covers his face with his hands as he whispers those words.
I move closer to him, ignoring the pain that I am feeling right now and I put my hands on his hands. "I don’t want you to control yourself anymore. I am strong enough to handle this. I know you won’t hurt ,’’ I tell him.
He looks at
with eyes that look like they are begging
to back away but I don’t. "You know my wolf is not as gentle as I would want him to be, he has been starved. I don’t want to lose control and hurt you,’’ he confesses.
I smile because this is the most adorable, I have ever seen Beau. The macho Alpha werewolf. Biggest of all, he is afraid that he will hurt
when I know that he cannot hurt . Beau would always think of my safety before his, he can’t hurt .
I lean closer to his face and my lips rest on his softly "Help
feel sothing,’’ I whisper into his lips softly.
He closes and I hear a sigh, trapped inside his mouth. His hands are still beside him but his lips move to mine as I slide my tongue into his mouth. A smile sprawls to my face as my tongue dances to a rhythm that I have missed. I deepen the kiss as I move even closer to him. He is still trying to have self-control but I want to break him and I know I will. I grab his hands in mine and he squeezes them gently.
I can feel that he is holding back as I move my hand to his hair and I touch it softly. He is still trying to stay in control but I can feel that he is rapidly losing it. He slowly let go of my hands and moves them to my waist. I pull away from him and his eyes are wide and dark.
Yes, this is what I wanted from him.
more.
"Fuck Lanis,’’ he groans in a low voice "Why do you have to be so beautiful? I don’t know if I can control myself with you.’’
"Please Beau,’’ I beg him, "I need you right now.’’
"I don’t know if I can stop once I start Lanis,’’ he growls lowly.
"I trust you,’’ I tell him as I put my hand over his shorts. He is hard, he wants . Yes!
"Lanis,’’ he growls in a low tone "please.’’
He kisses
this ti, a lot more passionately than before. His hands are still on my waist but I feel like he is slowly letting go of his control. I want him to let go; I want him to lose control.
I want him to take .
"You have to tell
if anything hurts. even pleasurable pain,’’ he growls watching .
I nod as he pushes into
again.
Yes.
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