Selene POV
There is sothing no one tells you about revenge – it turns you into a loner.
I fought the angry tears at the corner of my eyes as I marched towards Noah’s room. I hated that I was doing this but if I had another way to save my children, I would choose it. Why do won have to be silent about cheating mates? Be the first one to reach out or ignore for peace to reign? If it was in Noah’s shoes, everyone would be acting as if I killed soone.
What is more, this thing feels like a natural order of things around here. But not for long...sothing needs to be changed and I know that if I can change more than a century-old curse, I could do this too. When I got to his door, I took a deep breath, trying to control my emotions as I stood there. As I was about to knock on the door, I felt soone’s presence beside .
Startled, I turned and saw it was Brooke. She had a satisfied smile as she turned to face too.
"I must thank you for the little stunt you pulled today... it was so satisfying to see you show the people how unstable and emotional you are and it benefits in the end, Selene. Do you think you can be a Luna... if you don’t have a lid over your emotions? Nobody wants a weakling to rule over them. The people always want to be bossed around, commanded... you... forceful things... I don’t know if it’s a thing with werewolves but Lycans are not the sa,".
She was trying to rile ... even though she was right in everything she was saying but I was going to starve her of the attention she was seeking. Ignoring her, I raised my hand and knocked firmly on the door. So seconds later, Noah appeared. He tensed when he saw both of us together as his eyes travelled from one person to another.
"Can we talk?" I asked, my voice above a whisper.
"There’s sothing I need to tell you about too, Noah," Brooke said also sounding less like the vicious woman she was a while ago. More than anything, she sounded as if I had just beaten her. "It’s about the other thing that day and..." she paused as her eyes trailed to as if she was worried that I wasn’t supposed to hear sothing.
"Let’s talk about that, later. Let see Selene first," Noah replied and stood to one side of the door, ushering in.
"It cannot wait!" Brooke said with agitation "I must tell you everything now... do you want everyone to find out that I am carrying your baby and..." she trailed off again. From the corner of my eyes, I saw her looking at triumphantly, expecting a reaction but not even a glance towards her. "I’m sorry, I know I am not supposed to say a word about it," she continued to Noah "But this is important,".
"Not now, Brooke!" Noah sighed "I’ll call for you when I’m done talking to my Luna, okay?" Without waiting for a response, he turned and closed the door behind us.
I moved past him to the couch in the sitting area and dropped on it, waiting for him to settle too. I was trying to rehearse everything I wanted to say to him.
"Do you want anything? Tea, coffee...".
"I’m fine, Noah," I said quietly "Can you co sit for a few minutes, this won’t take ti,".
He nodded and dropped into the space beside . We spent another minute without saying anything before I finally cleared my throat and he looked up.
"When you first cheated on with Brooke, I made up my mind that I was going to try and work it out with you. I was willing to forgive those weak monts but you’ve been with her more than once now and I seriously don’t know what has co over you or if you’re the man I married and now a baby..."
"I’m sorry, Selene," he sighed "I have no idea what has co over and...".
"That’s enough, Noah," I interrupted him "I didn’t co here to listen to your countless excuses. I realized that I let my emotions get the best of today. I should have considered your position and your place in my life before selling you cheap before the people and it’s because..." tears welled up in my eyes. I was already a nervous wreck, so the tears ca easily. "I don’t want to lose you, Noah... with each passing day, it seems you’re leaving my grasp and I’m afraid that I may not be able to keep up one day and you’ll finally leave,".
I pressed a hand on my chest, as sobs racked my fra. I could see guilt on Noah’s face as he drew closer and gathered into his hands, trying to rock to calm. As he murmured and crooned sweet words to , I sobbed harder. I wasn’t crying because of him; I was crying because of everything I’ve had to pass through all these years.
No friend to talk to, not even a confidante... how I have struggled all these years trying not to compare myself with other won and question why n always cheated. Right now, it was all I could think of. If Noah so loves as he claims..., why does he have to be with Brooke? Love is a unilateral thing... when you love soone, they beco your world.
"You won’t lose , Selene, I promise," he murmured in my hair "I’m so sorry for every pain I’ve caused up until now and I am willing to do anything you tell regarding, Brooke,".
That was my cue.
I raised my head, looking at him with soulful eyes. "I can’t tell you what to do, Noah. Brooke is ... you’re involved with her; you should know how best to deal with the whole thing and now that she’s with child. I’m sure...".
"She’s not going to birth that child," Noah stopped mid-sentence. "I don’t even believe that the child is mine or that she’s pregnant to start with but I can’t ruin my family and cause strife amongst my children when I’m not here. So... until I confirm that the child, she’s carrying is mine... I cannot accept her and I think it’s a good idea for Brooke to leave the pack at least for a while,".
"That won’t be necessary, Noah," I sighed and rested my head on his shoulder.
"That won’t be necessary?" he repeated staring at with surprise "What are you talking about?"
"Well..." I traced a finger from the base of his neck down to his chest, with my eyes fixed on his "I think I’ve caused enough problem already and the people are growing weary... the pack officials, the elders; and you’re always in the spotlight for taking sides with ...".
"That’s because I love you, Selene. You’re my wife and my mate... if you say the sky is blue... then the sky is fucking blue. C’mon, I told you that I will always be in your corner no matter what and sohow, it’s my fault that everything is going like this, I should have taken care of these tiny matters before our wedding. I’m sorry,".
"It’s fine, Noah!" I sighed giving him a sweet smile "Let Brooke still be my Beta. I’ll release a public statent apologizing to her and...".
"You won’t do that, darling," he shook his head pressing a kiss on the tip of my nose "For the fact that you’re willing to work with her again is enough. But are you sure about that? I won’t get mad if you want to ask her to leave,".
"No!" I sighed and combed his hair with my hand "At the end of the day, Noah...you know where your heart lies. I think I will stop bothering you if you want to keep sleeping with her or not. Right now, I am going to try to live in the mont, be happy... be healthy and thank goddess, there’s more than enough distraction already, that cos with the office. So, I should channel my energy there and make the most of it,".
His eyes searched my eyes before he sighed and dropped another kiss on my forehead. "I think there’s a way to solve this issue because Rio... My wolf goes berserk when he sees her ... he’s still very much attracted to her and I know it sounds like an excuse but I am very disciplined okay... it’s just different with Brooke,".
"I understand," I nodded running a hand on his jaw "So, what you were going to suggest a solution. Go ahead dear, I am all ears,".
"We should always be together. Well..." he shrugged "Not at every ti in the day but during the nights... we could stay in one bedroom together until the next day. She wouldn’t dare it with you beside , I am so sure of that,".
"Wonderful idea," I chuckled sadly knowing I was wasting my ti. Noah was just saying anything he could think of to make happy. He wasn’t ready to let Brooke go and that was okay...
"Next, can you schedule a eting with and the Grand Lycan... I need to et with him and apologize for my behaviour the other day and also the pack elders and officials?"
"My dad?" his eyes widened with surprise "Really? Are you sure Selene? You know you’re not obligated to make these apologies. They’re grown n, ti will heal them all,".
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