"Phew..." Arabella sighed in relief as her heartbeat cald down.
The sensation that soone was eavesdropping or watching them also stopped.
Even Alwin sighed in relief as well when it felt like the presence was gone.
[It was faint, but it must have been him. How was he able to see or hear from so far away?]
Alwin was sure it was Elrond since he had felt his presence before.
From Alwin’s thoughts, Arabella learned that Elrond was likely able to hear and see them because they talked about him and kept ntioning his na and title.
Alwin thought that it must have been because they kept talking about him ti and again, so he got curious and peeked at who it was.
It was quite scary to be easily spied on because they rely said his na and title.
They did not dare talk about Elrond again and continued with their topic instead.
"It’s because older souls have higher mana capacities.
They have lived several lives and experienced a lot more things over ti.
Thus, regardless of whether the previous reincarnations used magic or not, their experiences and mories, the ti they spent living, contributed to empowering their soul and raising its mana capacity," Alwin explained.
"I see..." Arabella said as she thought about it.
"This ans that given enough ti, your capacity might even surpass Uncle’s or even mine," Alwin said.
"That’s a bit too much. I’m sure both of you will keep growing as well," Arabella was, overwheld.
She recalled that she had t Ferdinand when he was still young.
Then, this ant her soul was probably only a few millennia younger than his.
She had also reincarnated several tis and ca across Ferdinand several tis, but they never got together as husband and wife.
Reflecting on what she knew, Ferdinand said the Dragon God forgot to make it possible for the primordials to have a mate. Thus, it was only when the problem was fixed that Ferdinand and Arabella finally got married because the possibility opened up.
Since Arabella was the nth reincarnation of Ellie, whom Ferdinand t a long ti in the past when he was still young, her soul was indeed very old.
Ferdinand did explain to her when they talked about forr reincarnations that the soul remains the sa and unchanged, only improved due to more experiences and ti added to it.
anwhile, it was the body that changed in every reincarnation and the known "self," since a new reincarnation usually does not possess mories from its past self.
Ferdinand explained that the Dragon God said it was a system made so people won’t live their lives grieving what they had lost and not living their lives for the future, but for the past instead.
Arabella and Alwin were perfect examples of this, even though their situation was a bit different.
As a "regressor," as Alwin called them, Arabella could attest to this statent.
She and Alwin were proof of it. Even now, what drives them is their fear of the life they once lived and the tragedy of how it ended.
Thus, they are doing everything they can now to change it instead of simply living their life to the fullest in whatever way they please to enjoy their second chance at life in this sa lifeti.
Arabella and Alwin both believed they were doing what was best for the future.
But if they reflect on it, they are slaves to their past who keep doing everything they can to run away from it or prevent it.
Yet, despite already knowing this, both of them are still set on continuing what they had been doing so far.
Truly, slaves to their past due to the mories they had.
But they are grateful for it anyway since they had the chance not to repeat the sa mistakes again.
They both believe that this was the right thing to do, and it was why they were given this second chance in this sa lifeti instead of simply letting them move forward to the next reincarnation.
If they needed assurance that they were right, they could at least tell themselves that by doing this, at least, they were not only protecting what they cherish, but also saving lives and improving the living conditions of a lot of people.
At least, this could not be a sin, right?
Just the mory of one life they once lived made them this kind of person.
How much more if they recall all the past reincarnations they had?
Then they would be a bundle of regrets, sadness, loneliness, and longing for the people they once knew.
It was indeed reasonable for the system to be made, ensuring that mories were wiped clean for the next reincarnation.
Arabella wouldn’t mind forgetting about this life as well, but only after doing their best to change what they could change in this one.
And she was grateful that they were given the chance to change this life before they moved on to the next reincarnation, if ever they still had one.
Arabella was also grateful that even though she had lived several lives before the one she knew, she could not rember any of her mories from previous reincarnations because the mory starts clean with the new body or vessel of the soul.
However, Ferdinand said that the soul rembers everything. That it had everything recorded. It simply remains dormant and hidden from the known "self."
It must be why Arabella suddenly recalled past mories when she stayed in Estrella with Ferdinand as they consummated their marriage.
Perhaps it was due to the long-held fervent wish, longing, hurt, and hatred all her past reincarnations who fell for Ferdinand had that she suddenly rembered so of it.
Even the pain and frustration they felt.
Arabella was rather relieved she did not get any more of those mories since even just the small peek she had was already too heavy to carry.
It made her angry and frustrated with Ferdinand, even if it was sothing that had already long passed.
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