It made her angry and frustrated with Ferdinand, even if it was sothing that had already long passed.
"Even if we keep growing, your growth will be different.
It’s simply how it is with mates.
Especially once my lord gives you half of his lifespan.
Your capacity will soar even more to complent him, so you can live together as long as his lifespan permits.
This is how it is with mates.
You can beco a very powerful existence before you even know it.
Thus, in the past, facts like this had been hidden since there may be people who will get blinded by this much power," Alwin continued.
Arabella understood that simply by telling her all this, it ant Alwin trusted her enough and actually believed that she would not repeat her past mistakes.
’I should also tell him more of what I have learned so far,’ Arabella thought as Alwin continued explaining.
There were still things she hadn’t had the chance to tell him, or she was unsure if it was alright to tell him, so she did not.
But since Alwin is being more open to her now, she should respond in turn.
They are allies who had agreed to carry this burden together, after all.
"Moreover, I heard from the Elders that the primordials’ mates were people they had likely already t a long ti ago.
But they were not yet fated to be together at that ti, so they must have only encountered each other by chance for a short while.
Or they could even be past acquaintances who were reincarnated now.
For primordial dragons, I heard their ti to be with their mates was accidentally delayed.
Thus, they are only getting together with their partners now.
Rember that you told Uncle Alvis thought that your soul felt ancient and much older than his?
This ans you have already t my lord in the past.
You must have already lived several different lives, but you cannot rember them.
And His Majesty had lived for too long to rember all his past mories," Alwin said.
"He rembers so of it," Arabella said, and Alwin was wide-eyed.
"He does?!"
"Yes. We talked about it so ti after he marked .
We both had dreams of the past when we were staying in Estrella.
He recalled mories of my previous reincarnations, but he could not recall their nas and faces.
But I saw them together in my dream.
We t quite a lot of tis in my past life.
I repeatedly fell for him, but Ferdinand had no interest in romantic feelings back then, or rather, he did not understand it at all."
Arabella heaved a deep sigh after recalling it.
"Is this true?! Are you sure?!" Alwin gulped.
"Yes. I felt the pain of my previous reincarnations and even felt angry and frustrated at Ferdinand when he could not at all recall their faces and nas, and the fact that all of them looked exactly alike, except with different hair colors and eyes of different races.
There are so many of my previous reincarnations whom he unconsciously led on repeatedly, only to leave them with a heartbreak.
My chest hurt so much as if I were the one who was left alone, and I wanted to berate him for it.
And when Ferdinand apologized, such imnse relief washed over ," Arabella recollected what happened several months ago.
"Wait! Then could this be the reason?!!"
Alwin looked like he had just recalled sothing.
"Reason for what?" Arabella was alard at Alwin’s expression.
"Rember that I told you His Majesty held a revival ritual for you?"
"Yes."
"It was about to succeed, but several gods were against it.
They said His Majesty did not deserve you, so he must prove he was worthy of another chance...
And when His Majesty returned after the trial, looking like he had aged so much, one of the things he said was that he didn’t deserve you at all.
That he repeatedly hurt you in the past.
They must have let him see mories he had forgotten about you and him!
Now I finally understand why he looked so sorrowful and regretful, as if he had committed the greatest cri when he decided to revive you and passed the trials despite what he was shown.
They must have shown how you suffered, and later on, also showed how you got wed to soone else because he didn’t marry you.
He kept saying ’It was all my fault...’
Yes, this must be it.
They must have made him watch all your previous reincarnations who waited for him.
And also did the sa for the ones who married soone else.
This was why he was so torn after returning.
And the regret I felt from him was too great..."
Alwin thought out loud as he organized his thoughts.
Arabella gulped with a lump in her throat.
If what Alwin surmised was true, then it must also be why Ferdinand said, ’She was happy with him,’ when he returned after the trials.
Alwin was also the one who told her about it since it was the part he rembered at the ti.
And now, after Arabella told him about the past lives she recalled in a dream, he rembered more of what Ferdinand said when he just returned from the trials.
It seems that for whatever reason, the gods decided to let Ferdinand know about her past reincarnations, whom he had unknowingly broken their hearts.
And if Alwin was right, then they also showed her past reincarnations getting married.
’Then Ferdinand learned that Icarus was once my husband?!!’
"Uhm, Alwin... I think you need to know sothing," Arabella said in a serious voice.
She hadn’t had the chance to tell Alwin about it since he was missing when she first t Alvis. But now, she must tell him.
"What is it?" Alwin gulped nervously when he noticed the look in her eyes.
"I t your Uncle for the first ti when you went missing..." Arabella began, treading carefully due to how Alwin might react.
"And?" Alwin frowned at her.
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