What? Alexs jaw dropped. You cant do that!
I need to. She looked Alex directly in the eye, her gaze not wavering. Fire is a part of , just like its a part of Khaliks mom. If I dont do this now, then Ill never do it. Please, Alex. Just let do this.
Her brother watched her closely for a mont, his expression drifting between concern and fear.
Selina, he started. Maybe we can save this for another ti. Maybe we should think about all of this and discuss it then maybe
Please, Alex, she begged. Youll be right here, you can watch and check to see if Im doing anything wrong. You can stop whenever you want, just let try. Ive been doing well in school and with all my lessons, right?
She ant the forceball lessons he was giving her in secret, bringing them up seed to strike a chord in him. His broad shoulders liftedas though he was preparing to brace himself against an invisible weightthen he looked at the queen.
I dont like this he began to say.
Selina took a step toward him. Alex, please!
Now, hold on. He held up a hand. Let finish. Lady Behr-drI dont like thisbut Id be willing to let her try, if youre willing to do this with her. If you dont, Id understand: you ca to see Khalik and relax, you didnt co here for this. But, um
The young man paused, searching for his words. Look, Ill speak plain: people with fire affinity arent commonand I think youre the only person with one that I know of among our group of friends and family. And, likeUgh, Im rambling.
He drew up his chest, and hardened his jaw, then lowered his head. I dont have a fire affinity: I can teach Selina all the wizardry I know, but Im never going to really understand fire the way you do and the way she will. Its not in . So, I think youd be a better person to teach her her first fire spell. Andfor sothing as delicate as this, I dont think I want to trust sothing so important to a stranger. I trust Khalik, and you raised him, and you raised him with honour, so I trust you. More importantly, Selina trusts youSoplease.
His head dropped even lower. If you do this, Ill make it up to you.
Yes, mother. Prince Khalik rose from his chair, bowing his head to her. I think you want to do this, but I will still ask that you do it as a favour to . You taught many things as I grew up; I can think of no one better to do this. You would be good for her
Stop, stop, by the gods, stop! The queens hands rose to her cheeks. All this begging is unbecoming of both of you, though I understand the sentint. I was going to do it from the mont young Selina asked ; guiding fire to its proper place is sothing that brings joy. I will be happy to guide her fire.
She turned to Selina. But, are you sure you feel ready for this, my child? It is a big step. You can stop at any tibut I tell you this from experience; fire is a part of you and once you begin, you will not want to stop anymore than you would want to stop walking once youve tasted the freedom of taking your first steps. So, are you sure?
And for a mont, Selina was not so sure.
Regret played inside her, dulling the spark in her mana pool. She began wishing shed never brought any of this up, she considered dropping it, pretending it never happened. She could apologise to everyone shed dragged into this room and then go back to lunch.
She could force herself to smile and laugh, tears could co later, when she was alone tonight. Then tomorrow, she would make sure her smile and laughter was real.
The thought was tempting, growing in her mind, and as it grew, the spark dulled as she ca closer to turning away from the fiery precipice that lay before her.
Then, her eyes fell on Claygon.
The golems head was cocked slightly to the side. His hands were raised, and he was staring at his fire-gems. Then, he reached up and touched the gem sitting in his forehead.
And she knew.
If she ran away now, not only would she be running away from a part of herselfbut she might be putting her own fears and guilt onto Claygon.
Im not a baby, and I shouldnt act like one, she thought, both hands forming fists. If I do that to and him, then that makes as bad as that fire. She caught herself, suddenly rembering what Queen Ishtar had said. No, Id actually be worse. She was right: fire just is. Mom and dad died because that fire was just being fire. Just like wind is wind and water is water. If Generasi had a big flood and people died, I wouldnt bla water for being water. So, if I run away, it wont help or Claygonit'll be because Im just being scared. And Im not going to do that either of us.
Selina looked up at her brother, her jaw tightening. Alex, could you go get Theresa? Ishouldve asked her to co. I want her to be here for this. She turned to Queen Ishtar. I want to do this, she said. Im ready.
I will not teach you the sa spell that I started with, Queen Ishtar said, sitting across the table from Selina. As she spoke, a pair of Wizards Hands floated beside hereach burning in a bright orange radianceeach one drawing a spell array onto a piece of parchnt. Lets begin with the spell that I wish I had started with: Create Fla.
Nearby, Khalik sat beside Shiani. Alex hadnt returned with Theresa yet, and Selina fought the urge to keep looking at the closed door.
She couldnt wait for them to get there; she knewif she stopped nowshe might still lose her nerve.
And she couldnt let that happen.
Thats a good spell to start with, Shiani said with approval, keeping her voice low.
What does it do? Selina asked.
Just what its na says, the queen explained. It creates a floating fla in your palm, and you can control it. You can hold it and use it for light, like a torch. You can use it as a weapon and throw it at anyone coming to attack you. Or you can simply use it to start a fire in your fireplace. Which is what well be doing.
She nodded to the hearth, Claygon was putting kindling and foot-long logs inside.
Selina swallowed, then breathed deeply.
She didnt know what she was more afraid of: the fact that she was about to literally handle fireor just how excited that thought made her.
ShouId I be worried about setting the room on fire? she asked nervously.
The queen reached across the table and squeezed her hand, her smile reassuring. I have already cast Control Fire, it allows to regulate the intensity or movents of a fire source. Ill make sure your fla doesnt get away from us.
Im glad youre here, Selina said softly, her eyes falling on the parchnt.
Queen Ishtars Wizards Hands finished jotting down the spell array, then put their pens aside and slid the parchnt across the table to Selina.
Her hands shook as she examined the spell array and the incantation above it. There were areas of the magic circuitry she recognised from forceball: certain parts responsible for calling and controlling mana were similar.
There was also another section that was familiar to her: it was the part responsible for the spells mana manipulation.
Can I control fire like I could a forceball? Selina asked.
Not quite, the queen said. But you can control your flas intensity with mana manipulation. Are you good at that? Its a difficult skill that I, even at my age and experience, still struggle with.
too, Shiani admitted.
It is not as easy as Alex makes it look, Khalik said. It is alright if you have not developed that skill quite yet, Selina.
No, no, I can do so mana manipulationbut, Alex is a lot better at it, Selinas eyes were fixed on the sections of the spell array that she didnt recognise.
Her inner spark flared when she spotted them, letting her know that they had to be related to fire.
Suddenly, fear gripped her, making her flinch, screaming she should give up and do sothing else. Screaming she should stop.
But, she didnt stop, instead, she looked back at Queen Ishtar. Will you teach the words of the spell?
Of course, the queen said. That is why we are here together.
In slow, patient tones, Khaliks mother sounded out the words, making sure that every syllable was clear. She had Selina repeat each word after her, correcting her pronunciation as they went.
But, there were very few corrections for her to make; the words rolled off Selinas tongue as smooth as cream, as though shed been saying them her whole life.
Within seconds, Queen Ishtar was nodding. Now you know the words of the spell, take your ti and review the array.
I Selina said slowly. I think I already know it.
Oh? Ishtar raised an eyebrow.
Her affinity is very strong, Shiani reminded her.
Ah, of course, that would make sense then. the queen nodded. Perhaps you would learn it so easily since the fire in you is so bright. Well then, are you ready? Ill be here to help you.
Selina swallowed, looking at the door.
No sign of Alex or Theresa.
Ibelieve you arereadySelina, Claygon said, you are ready.
thanks, Claygon. She took a deep breath and picked up the parchnt.
She exhaled then took another deep breath, focusing her mind as Alex had taught her over those many nights training in his lab.
Andfor the very first tiSelina Roth began speaking the words of a fire spell.
Her inner spark blood, seeming to rejoice as it burst into a bright, blazing fla.
Her spirit sang as sothing missing from her soul finally united, andbefore she knew itthe words of the spell were flowing unbroken from her lips as though shed always known them.
Across the room, the door swung open.
Alex and Theresa rushed in, stopping dead in their tracks re inches beyond the threshold.
By the Traveller! Alex gasped.
Within Selina, her mana sped onward, filling the magic circuit as it assembled itself. Magic blazed, coming to life, eager to do what it was ant to.
And in that mont, all of the young girl's fears were forgotten.
All the trepidation. The reluctance. The sha.
In that one breath, they all burned away as wonder ignited within her.
She almost missed the mont she completed the spell and the magic circuit flared.
Suddenly, in the palm of her hand, a small point of orange light sat.
Andwith a triumphant roarfire erupted, coming to life.
By the gods! the queen gasped.
A towering blaze hovered above Selinas hand, rising into the air to nearly half her height. Yet, this was no unruly, spitting fire.
It was bright and obedient, like a loyal pet simply waiting for her.
And, it was the most beautiful thing the young girl had ever seen. All the wonders of Generasi paled compared to that cheery fire created by her own mana and her own hand.
She felt like she could watch it forever.
But, so of her elation began to crack.
She rembered what this was, it all ca rushing back: the thing that killed her parents. That ruined her and her brothers lives.
Sha rose in her, but the queens words silenced it.
Fire doesnt do, she thought.It just is. I do.
She carefully rose from her chair, watching the fla closely. Im going to the fireplace.
I will help you keep control, if you need , the queen said, though her words sounded like they were coming from a dozen miles away.
Are you helping control it now? Selina asked, thoughdeep downshe already knew the answer.
No, I am not. Your control is extraordinaryI cannot believe this is your first ti casting fire. Go. Bring the fla to the hearth.
You can do it, Selina, her brothers voice ca to her. Im proud of you.
too, Theresa said. You can do this.
You were ant for this, fire-kissed, Shianis voice was filled with pride.
Itsbeautiful Claygon said.
Wonders upon wonders, Khalik murmured.
Their words hardened Selinas resolve.
The young girl strode across the room, her steps asured and even. Standing before the fireplace, she turned her hand toward it, then pressed the fla to the wood.
Instantly, the kindling caught, a dazzling blaze roared to life around the logs. Selina stepped back, watching the fire dance in the once-cold hearth.
There.
Fire created by her.
Not runaway fire that burned and killed.
Her fire.
And in that mont, she knew she had a choice.
She could step away from the fla, and just learn the fire magic she needed to resolve her dream of moving heat. Oror she could embrace the fla, using it as it was ant to be used.
Selina paused, looking at Alexs right shoulder.
And she smiled.
Was fear why she hadn't seen it before?
Alex was given the Mark of the Fool, he couldve run away and lived his own life with his family, or he could have served Thalands needs and fought alongside the Heroes to defeat the Ravener.
But, he hadnt really chosen either, had he?
Hed left Thaland for Generasi, but hed also gone back, stronger and better prepared.
Hed done both.
And she could do the sa.
I did it, everyone! she cried.
Tears ran down her face, both happy and sad.
They could be both.
I did it!
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