"How dare you try to make my mom scared?" Ayla spoke while I was still massaging my forehead.
"But shewww ishh mwaii aunntt", that little boy spoke in such a cute voice making all explode.
"She is my mom", Ayla argued again.
"Mwaii aunttt", he too went with it.
Both kept on pulling holding my legs which made stumble.
"Ayla, if you keep fighting I will fall", I said while trying to control my footsteps.
"No, mom you won’t fall", she said but I kept on feeling as if my leg was weakened making fall.
I don’t know how long I can hold but it sure is making feel the sa way I feel in my dream which makes my head spin as well.
I kept on trying to control myself but I sohow fell to the floor.
"Ahh", I tried to get up but my vision was still blurry.
I know this is not normal but after her birth, my body has beco so weak as if I have zero strength. It feels so light as if I just stood where the wind kept on flowing. I will feel like fall.
"Ayla"
"Ayla"
"Are you ok?" dad asked.
"Ayla, you ok?"
"I know I should have kept Josh in control but I didn’t, it’s all my fault", Keeny kept on saying, making feel even more guilty.
"Ah no I myself am like this so it’s not your fault", I said and walked toward my room. I didn’t see Ayla’s face. It’s not like I’m angry but I don’t want to see as weak as she always likes strong people like Kylie, Jenny, dad now Jace.
I know I shouldn’t feel like this but I kept on having the sa inferiority complex again. What if she won’t like anymore seeing how weak I am? What if she says, "Mom, why are you so weak? Look how other people are so strong. I don’t want to be like you. You are so useless."
It kept on eating inside but how should I say when I ran away from ho everything went into a ss.
Flashback
"Dad, I know when you see this letter you won’t be able to find here but I will be careful to keep in touch with you."
"Don’t tell anyone we will be in touch and please take care of yourself", I wrote my letter to dad and walked out of my room with my luggage where I don’t even have many clothes to take.
Just how long are these clothes going to fit ? 1 month? or 2 months? Or 3 months? I’m not sure because I’m already 3 months pregnant now and I have zero ideas about how pregnant won take care of themselves when they are having a baby. I really had no idea.
There was a ti when I found out I was pregnant. My feet were not even touching the floor with overwhelming happiness of mine but I was even happier because I wanted to share this news with the love of my life but he abandoned because the contract started with this.
I shouldn’t have listened to him when he ca back again.
I shouldn’t have listened to him when he cried and told to take him back.
I shouldn’t have listened to him when he kissed , making weak all over.
I should have pushed him away from the mont then why the hell do I have to be so weak then?
Even though I don’t regret having this baby.
I thought and walked out of the house when I got a call from Kylie.
"Yeah Kylie, did you reach your ho?" I asked.
"We did but when are you coming?"
"Didn’t you say you will be here in a week then why you didn’t till now?" they kept on asking while I couldn’t reply.
"I will be there tomorrow", I said and get a cab going toward the airport.
***
"Ayla!!!" Kylie called out to when she saw coming out of the airport.
"Gosh you ca so freaking late", she said while picking up my luggage.
I was still trying to figure it out when she touched my stomach, gasping.
"Woah our little baby is growing well", her eyes were sparkling.
"You know?"
"Of course, we know", she replied but kept on touching, reminding the baby bump started showing already.
"Jennifer too?"
"Yeah", she said while I sat in the cab.
I realised why they didn’t ask when I left. I don’t know why they are asking now too but my head is being a burden thinking all this.
Screech...
"What happened?" I asked.
We are still in the middle of reaching.
"You need to have breakfast now that is why", she said and pulled out of the cab as if she knew how hungry I was without my stomach being grumbling or without telling.
While she brought food for I stalled on the roadside but suddenly sothing happened to make my heart beat faster. It’s not a good feeling but a scary feeling I left behind.
"What’s happening?"
"Why are my fingertips trembling as if they are already aware of the fear?"
"Why?"
I was still thinking about walking toward my cab. Soone pushed to the other side of the road which has nothing but spread down. It looks as if soone fell from there and there won’t be any bones left while they search.
Am I going to die in the sa way?
I closed my way but soone held my hand and tried to pull up but the girl who pushed was still standing there while she had a crazy expression just like a psychopath. But why did she push ?
Why does she want to die?
Why?
"Die, Ayla!!"
"Die!!!"
"You destroyed my whole life."
"If it weren’t for you I would have never gone to the child detention centre."
"It’s all your fault to co where I ruled."
"It’s all your fault Jace left ."
"It’s all your fault I beca a laughing stock in front of everyone."
"It is all your fault."
"So die now."
"So that I can revive myself."
"Go die so that no one can even find your bones", she kept on sprouting while I had no idea what she was saying.
I wanted to ask who you are. Why are you trying to kill but before I could she herself said, "can’t you recognise , Ayla?"
"Or you are acting so that you will be the victim just like usual."
"I have been following you for years now but never find the right ti but now when you are dead I will revive myself so that I can be the old Freya. The Freya who was loved by all and beca a beauty bee among all."
"So die
As she said so glimpse again ran in front of making my fingers weak. I don’t have any idea who is holding my hand but I’m sure today I will die. After today there will be no Ayla so there will be no sorrow for Ayla as well.
But those glimpses again pulled to the past.
When I was standing in the middle of class and the sa girl who pushed from the cliff slapped in front of all and no one was defending them. I can feel their giggle while I was being slapped but there was a point when her nails pierce into my cheeks when my eye fell on Aaron who looked at the other side.
"So is this the real you?"
"Is this why all my classmates are telling that you have to suffer because of ?"
"So you too hold a grudge against right?"
My mory kept on running back to even though it’s been years I can’t believe I finally got my mory back.
I kept on rembering what little Ayla wrote in the diary.
"I saw a boy who made my heart skip a beat. It never happened before but he is not my laugh but a beautiful shell without any qualities."
I kept hearing the quotes in repeated mode.
"So I really am not the person you fell for."
"So I was just a substitute all alone?"
I started laughing seeing my real self sitting on the floor while everyone kept on leaving the place when the bell rang. Her cheeks, and lips were bleeding but she didn’t utter a single word. Not a single person ca to help her.
So this is how it feels to be left behind.
I was such a fool all along.
Ayla, you are such an idiot every ti you put your trust they broke just like once Jas did and now Aaron did.
Such a useless human being on earth.
***
"Ayla"
"Ayla"
"Ayla"
"Ayla"
"You ok?"
"Ayla, wake up!!"
I opened my eyes when soone called so loud and it was none other than my friends and the place where I’m lying in the hospital.
"Thank God you are ok." they sighed in relief.
"How’s my baby?"
"Baby is ok."
"Maybe she was worried for you too."
I smiled.
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