"I’m real", I said while hugging him.
"No no, it can’t be-
He pushed away.
"You can’t be real."
"You never let touch you unless it’s a fight."
"You always despise for stealing your place because we were both born at the sa ti."
"You always hated because of how dad treated but not you so you couldn’t be real but my illusion of mine", he kept on blabbering while I hugged him again.
I know I never acted him in a good way. From the mont I know hi. I always walked away whenever I see him so it is natural for him to behave like this. I know I have brought this on myself but I don’t want him to behave like this.
I kept on patting his head while I felt all of sudden his hand slowly wrapping around making flinch.
"Ouch", I reacted.
"What happened?"
"Are you hurt?"
"Let see!!!" he said and removed my shirt making my back turn toward him.
"It is-
He stopped but I instantly wore my shirt and acted as if nothing happened.
"It is what dad.... Did it?" he hesitated.
I stayed silent.
"It all happened because of right?" again with his self-bla.
"I know all of this happened because of . If I would have never ever lost my control while talking with Chloe and fallen on them, nothing would have happened to you."
"It is all my freaking fault this happened with you."
I tried to stop him but kept on blabbering on his own making get any.
"Is it not your fault!!!!" I shouted.
"What-
He stopped.
"I said it is not your freaking fault you god damn!!"
"It was never your fault but I did this on my own."
"If I could have stopped myself that day then I would have never gone near you but I did because I was too scared when I got Chloe’s call. When she was saying you are unconscious for long I panicked and ran to see you."
"I knew that I could never control the situation so I begged grandfather to inform dad and he ca. And it was reasonable too how he blad ."
"It was justified as I always beat you making you bleed so it is not your fault", all this ti I was holding his palms together. And this is the first ti I ever ca so freaking close to him while talking about sothing.
" No, no matter what you say it’s not true."
He said.
He looked like a child like this.
I don’t know how much I rembered about childhood but yeah I rember once he was standing near mom’s room. He was like a little lamb back then. I could see his ears when he was standing at the door. It was so refreshing and cute but still, I refused to go near him.
Because before that I once saw my father hugging another woman in the garden. I didn’t know what was that but all I could see when I saw them in the garden through my mom’s window was standing beside while her tears kept on dripping down her eyes even though she was not bawling her eyes out like nor she complained.
"Mom, why are you crying?" I asked her while pulling her dress but she didn’t speak.
She kept on looking through the window while my eyes followed her as well.
I saw how dad and that woman were arguing. Dad kept on cupping her face but she was pushing him, hitting him, and slapping him which my mother never did. Not that but I never even saw my mother touch my father which was too painful for .
After 3 years of my birth, I decided to talk with all and spend ti slowly but I once heard the maids talking.
"Don’t you think after the birth of the young master the relationship between the master and mistress changed?"
"Yeah, I felt too."
"Before his birth, there were not too many romantic monts but there was a ti when the master got drunk and the mistress used to bring him ho supporting him and we could see them having breakfast and the master did sotis make requests to prepare her favourite dishes as well."
"Yeah, I even once saw the master kissing mistress when I was crossing the room."
"But now those romances are nowhere to be seen."
"Master didn’t even co into the room while the mistress stopped coming out of her room."
"Yeah if the young master was never born....
Yeah, there are tis when I wish to mumble if I was never born then these things would have never happened. If I would have never been born then mom wouldn’t have cried but laughed genuinely but now when I’m here mom doesn’t smile.
"Aaron"
"Aaron"
"Aaron"
Ah
I ca out of my dreams.
"Aaron, what has gotten to you?" Jas asked.
"Ah no I was thinking of sothing", I said but I couldn’t concentrate on what he was saying.
"Do you regret talking with ?" he asked.
"Regret?"
"I won’t say I regret or what but you say what do you and how do you want to behave in this ssed up relationship of ours?"
"I don’t know what you think of and my head mother but you think if your mother were in my mother’s place and I would be in your place what would be your reaction? Would you like ? Would you co to and say brother let’s play?"
I wasn’t saying anything violent but I said it in a calm tone.
"No, I could have never", his answer was instant.
"So yeah I do take ti too. But I don’t bla you for my situation", I said and stayed silent.
"Again!! Could you tell what happened?" he asked, making laugh.
"I couldn’t find Ayla", I said.
He stayed silent when I laughed again.
"I know she is the sa Ayla so you don’t have to think much", I answered while he was still looking at with shocked eyes.
"How did you-
"That’s not the issue but a big misunderstanding happened which made her vanish", my facial expression changed.
"What?"
He asked while I started explaining how Chloe lied to regarding her. How Chloe lied to was an important thing which I needed to know the most. I told him how Chloe misunderstood and grandfather also played a big role in it.
"She was not at her usual place?" he asked.
"No, she wasn’t ."
"It already has been six months and she left the place before six months so I could no longer even think where she went. And I don’t have the guts to lose her again", I said.
"What if she cos to her ho?" as he said I looked at him.
"Ho? Where did she stay?" I asked.
"Yes yes, the place where she was staying when she was a teen", he said.
"She would be there you sure?"
"I’m not sure but I hope she cos here", he said while both of us ran downstairs.
While I was following my eyes fell on dad who looked away from as if he was holding guilt but I don’t care. He doesn’t deserve my forgiveness. I followed him toward the parking place and took the car but he stopped.
"I have a bike", he said while making sit in the back seat.
I have no idea how many years have passed and how long it has been since I ca here. I even forgot her house route but he knows well and he drove there.
My heart was thumping loud.
"She will be there right?" I felt as if soone whispered in my ears.
"Aaron, we reached", he said while I instantly ran and knocked on the door.
I don’t know when I even ended up coming here but I don’t care as long as I can have her. As long as I can love her I don’t care about anything.
I was thinking when the door slowly opened.
"A...
I stopped.
"Jace?" I called.
"Yeah? You?" he asked.
"I...
I was about to say when Jas stopped .
"You know right?" I saw Jace’s angry expression while I ran inside.
"Hey, where are you going?" Jace shouted at but I didn’t stop.
I saw Mr White but I didn’t care but ran toward her room as Jas told .
"Dad, stop him!!!" Jace shouted but Jas and Mr White stopped him.
"Let him be", Mr White said.
"Dad, what are you doing?" Jace struggled.
"Because I know why he ca here so let him be because -
"Because?" Jas said.
"He won’t find what he ca to find", he said, making my feet stop in the middle of the stairs.
"What do you an?" I asked.
"You ca for Ayla right?"
I nodded.
"She is not here anymore."
"You ca so late", as he said I ended up losing hope.
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