The fate was playing it ga.
Mo Roulan had thought.
She was reborn but according to her, her rebirth ca with so conditions.
In her past life, she chose He Jian so she lost her family but she didn’t get He Jian as well.
So in this life, she chose her family. But around the way, she sohow tried to get He Jian as well.
Mo Roulan blad herself.
She thought that she lost her mother because she was trying to get more than she deserved.
Her fate could only grant her one thing.
Either her family or her love for He Jian.
She had already chosen the latter in her past life and had faced the consequences so she would never do that again.
Her family was her priority this ti.
But was she really right?
Was He Jian really not ant for her?
Then why would the sa fate brings her close to him every ti? Why would she find herself standing in front of him, regardless of what way she choose to go?
And why was He Jian so different in this life?
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"Lanlan, you can be angry at , hit , you can even kill ...but I can’t let you go. I feel suffocated without your presence. I feel that I will go insane. You are like the drug I need to survive."
She was getting the love she had wanted in her life.
Such deep love from the man she had always love...
Would she be able to deny?
Would she be able to steel her heart when He Jian is adamant in breaking the walls that had surrounded her heart again?
No!
At least that was what Mo Roulan had thought and promised to herself.
Then why did everything still beco so different.
"I want love...but not at the cost of my family."
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"What is my fault?"
He Jian asked holding her arms.
"I am also suffering."
He said looking into her eyes.
"Then why do you always chose to run away as soon as we face difficult circumstances? Why can’t you stand by my side, hold my hand?"
"We can heal each other but you don’t allow to do so. What am I supposed to do?"
He said in frustration.
"Lanlan, stay this ti."
His eyes were filled with pleading when he said these words.
"I know it is difficult...but stay. Our loss is huge but it belongs to both of us, right? I also want you to comfort just like I want to comfort you."
That was the first ti perhaps she saw him crying.
He was crying for her.
But why is it that her heart didn’t move at all?
Was the burden of her grief too much this ti that even her love for him was small in front of it?
Mo Roulan didn’t know.
She just wanted to leave.
She wanted a break from everything.
She wanted to feel peace after the chaos her life had given her.
"You are punishing for sothing I didn’t do at all."
He said again and she could only smile bitterly.
"You know what is your punishnt ....you don’t know what I know. According to you, the loss was only for once but I ..."
’I went through the sa loss twice.’
It was hard for her.
When he didn’t know anything, when he couldn’t understand the extent of her despair, no amount of comfort could help them overco any despair.
"I actually envy you, He Jian."
She said with eyes full of tears.
"I wish that you also knew everything ...just like ."
Ignorance was a bliss.
Mo Roulan understood the aning of these words only that day.
She really wished that she didn’t have the mories of her past life at that mont.
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So she left him.
She thought that she was alone.
She thought that she alone could heal the scars of her past life as well as the one she got from her present life.
But what will she do when He Jian cos back again?
And this ti, he knows everything.
In fact, he knows more than her.
"Lanlan, don’t leave again."
The grief in his eyes left Mo Roulan shocked.
"I won’t be able to live."
"Can you forgive for the sins I have done...for the scars I have given you?"
"Even if you don’t, I will stay. I will heal you with my love. You don’t need to love. I will heal both of us with my love."
Now she was no longer alone.
But would it really be that easy?
Both of them bore the scars.
Both of them needed healing.
Both of them needed each other love.
But could you love when you harbor so many complaints inside your heart?
"Why couldn’t you believe once? If only you had...it would have been so different."
She questioned him but he could only apologize to her again and again.
In the end, theirs was a love story full of tears.
There is love.
But is the fate in their favour?
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So let tell you all, the journey ahead is going to be exciting but tear-jerking as well. Mo Roulan will co to know many things she didn’t know even in her past life.
And He Jian would also get his mories back.
But it won’t be easy.
So those who find the journey long, you can stop reading. Please don’t spread the negativity in comnt section. You can hate a character as much as you want but please don’t extend it to . You have a very good option of not continuing the story instead of spreading hatred.
I can promise that updates would be frequent but I also need readers’ support.
I am trying to finish this book as soon as possible because I also need to pay attention to my studies. This might be my last book on webnovel ...at least from what I am thinking for now.
I hope you will enjoy reading it.
Thanks
Ada:)
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