Chapter 1043: Afraid (4)
Translator: Paperplane Editor: Caron_
Han Zhifan wanted to hear about Hanhan’s past, and moreover, he wanted to hear about things he didn’t know about her...
But he didn’t want to put her in a difficult position. She wasn’t willing to tell him, so he made do with her offer. “Okay.”
Cheng Weiwan wasn’t in a hurry, so she tilted her head as though she was seriously reminiscing about sothing for a while. “After I left you, I didn’t leave Beijing because I had already been here for many years at that point, so I knew it very well. I was afraid that if I suddenly moved to a new place, it might be difficult for to deal with things if I ca across any problems while pregnant.”
“You told to abort the child. Although your secretary helped keep this secret, I was still afraid that you’d find out, so I didn’t dare go to the hospital. I spent a large sum of money to hire a private doctor. Even so, I felt uneasy every day and perhaps that affected Hanhan, because I started to show signs of bleeding at six months.”
“I almost lost Hanhan that ti.”
“Actually, at the ti, my ntal state wasn’t that great. I was really down and after I found out that my pregnancy wasn’t stable, my first thought wasn’t to work hard to protect the baby. Instead, I thought it would be pretty great to die with the baby.”
“Hanhan was stronger than I was. He fought on, so I fought on.”
“Hanhan was born in the middle of a snowy night in Beijing and the ground was very slippery. There were still two months until the expected delivery date when my water suddenly broke. The nanny I hired happened to be off that day, so I was alone. I was in so much pain that I couldn’t even leave the apartnt. In the end, Muqing ca to see and happened to see like that. She sent to the hospital.”
“I didn’t take good care of the baby and my state of mind was always terrible. When we reached the hospital, Hanhan still wouldn’t co out. The doctor was impatient and so was I. In the end, I bled a lot.”
Bled a lot... the sudden image of himself rushing to the hospital and seeing Lili lying in a pool of blood flashed across Han Zhifan’s mind.
Those were the circumstances on the day Hanhan was born?
Han Zhifan didn’t say anything, but he looked very pale.
“That was Hanhan and my second ti almost leaving this world.” In comparison to the tornt Han Zhifan felt in his heart, Cheng Weiwan felt nothing while she thought back to that frightening scene.
“Hanhan was born two months premature. When he was born, he was particularly small and he could’ve died at any ti.”
“Hanhan stayed in the incubator for three whole months before he ca back ho with .”
“I was alone during the three months that Hanhan stayed in the incubator. That was when I got depressed.”
“It was very serious. It was so serious that I didn’t want to live. I walked up to the window more than once, wanting to jump down, and I stood still in the middle of the road more than once.”
“Fortunately, Muqing and Yinan Ge noticed sothing was wrong with at the ti, so they took turns taking care of around the clock.”
Cheng Weiwan spoke very slowly. As she spoke, she stopped and thought to herself every now and then.
She spoke quietly in the sa volu that she usually used to tell Cheng Han’s fairy tales in the evening. However, it caused endless daggers to repeatedly stab his heart.
Han Zhifan was so hurt, but from beginning to end, he didn’t tell Cheng Weiwan to stop.
Before he arrived and decided to listen to her tell all these stories, he already knew he was going to be really hurt. However, he never imagined he would be this hurt.
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