Chapter 1044: Afraid (5)
Translator: Paperplane Editor: Caron_
“After Hanhan ca ho from the hospital, Muqing hired a midwife to take care of Hanhan.”
“At the ti, I was still sick. There was one really serious ti when I swallowed a whole bottle of sleeping pills.”
“After I woke up, I was really unwell and in the hospital because I was throwing up my stomach.”
“Muqing’s eyes were red as she called ‘foolish’ from the sidelines. She yelled at for not thinking things through and asked what was going to happen to Hanhan if I left.”
“Actually, Muqing said a lot at the ti, but I didn’t listen. It was the sound of Hanhan’s endless crying that let know that I had given birth to a child. The baby who I fought tooth and nail to protect was born...”
“And it was from then on that I started to slowly co out of it and slowly shifted all my focus on Hanhan. I gradually got better little by little as Hanhan grew up.”
“When I used to work as a screenwriter, I might not have earned a lot, but I spent a lot of my savings on an apartnt. The more ti I spent with Hanhan in my belly, the less savings I had. I knew I should work and make money, so when I was eight months pregnant with Hanhan, I raised my pen and started writing stories again.”
“I didn’t dare use the pen na of Cheng Weiwan in fear that people would find out I had Hanhan. Although I put Hanhan under Muqing’s na, all I could do was start writing with a new pen na. Writing books was really tiring and I didn’t earn a lot. My days were a little tough, but I never let Hanhan suffer because I knew that without him, I’d be nothing. It was Hanhan who kept alive...”
Han Zhifan’s hand couldn’t help but ball into fists.
His back started to gently tremble.
“Later, the nanny found a better working environnt, so she quit. All I could do was find a new nanny to take care of Hanhan.”
“Sotis, I didn’t notice many things when I was fully concentrated on writing scripts. Later, I realized that the new nanny would often lecture Hanhan, and she would secretly feed Hanhan sleeping pills just to let work in peace.”
“When I found out, I couldn’t trust anyone anymore. I took over taking care of Hanhan completely. During the day, there simply wasn’t ti to write, so I would have to wait till Hanhan slept to write in the evening. I pulled all-nighters every day. Huge chunks of hair fell out and my state of mind was also awful. My mory started to get worse and for so ti, I got headaches every day.”
“How should I put it... Although those days were hard, I was really happy.”
“Hanhan slowly learned to crawl then swayed as he walked then called ‘mummy’ and learned simple words.”
“I felt a special sense of accomplishnt. It gave a stronger sense of accomplishnt than my first script that was made into a television series.”
“But as Hanhan got older, he learned more and more about so things. For example, when he was over a year old, he suddenly asked, ‘Mummy, what is a dad? How co everyone has a dad? Why don’t I have a dad?’”
“He asked several questions in succession. I didn’t know how to reply to him.”
“I couldn’t tell Hanhan that ‘your father doesn’t want you.’ In the end, I chose to lie to him. I picked up your photo and told him that: ‘This is daddy. When you grow up, daddy will co back to see you.’”
“He was really happy and cried ‘Daddy’ endlessly. Eventually, he would even start recording all the happy things that happened to him in the day. He told that when daddy ca back, he was going to give these for daddy to watch.”
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