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Lil was rendered speechless.
Why is everyone talking about love? It was already absurd when Ed inquired about love. But now that Cesar is talking about it too, it feels even stranger. Their reactions even appear as if theyre in so kind of competition. I got a similar impression from Ed before
mories of sothing Ed had said floated into Lils mind.
{ His retaliation is pretty quick. But, of course Youve been here all night, so theres no way hed stay still }
Its like theyre fighting over
Anyone who hears this will think theres so kind of love triangle going on. But does that an Ed knew who had his oils?
The almost extinguished flas of Lils suspicion were being revived again.
When Ed was caught, I had briefly doubted the ssage. However, at that ti, I was so sure that Cesar had nothing to do with it
Lil suddenly realised she found another clue.
Lured by the oil How many n on this ship know how the Navys oils work? Ed mustve kept it disguised in one of his cabinets and in his position as a doctor everyone who might have seen it would imdiately assu it was just another bottle used for dical purposes. Then how was it found? Was it by chance? In any case, the person who took it from Ed succeeded in luring the pigeon exactly to Eds cabin. The fact that the pigeon stuck to Ed and not to the person who applied the fragrance ans that Ed was indeed the birds intended destination If so, Cesar mustve been the manipulator
Lil identified Cesars motives relatively quickly.
Jealousy.
So it was jealousy?
Lil gasped, finding it absurd and surprising.
I acted the way I did because I was afraid Cesar would misinterpret my defence of Ed as siding with another man. That was why I was unable to prevent his execution. I was afraid he would think that I wanted to overrule the sentence out of self-interest. Even back then I already took his jealousy into consideration. I could understand his shock to see his lover, whom he had been looking for all night, with another man However, the nature of jealousy as a motive is a different one than I expected. Was it really for that reason For that reason alone?
Cesar.
There was an indescribable disdain attached to her voice.
I never thought Cesar was soone who could kill others out of re jealousy.
Were you jealous of Ed?
Cesar stood there without denying it and only stared at Lil resentfully. With the confirmation she received from his silence, Lil collapsed. Her staggering body eventually found support when it slumped against the chair.
So its true? How
How can you stay so calm about this?
Lil grabbed the chair and let out a scream.
Are you crazy? How could you!
Stop it. I dont know what youre thinking, but I havent affird anything, have I?
However, Lils thoughts were already becoming a reality in her mind. Those sa thoughts had always been overshadowed by the firm belief that this could never be possible. The image of Cesar manipulating the ssage filled her head with a mix of different emotions. Aside from his affection, Lil had always admired Cesars morality.
His integrity, altruism, sincerity, and tenderness were the foundations of his life. Cesar is one of a kind. A person with a just personality, so I never thought that he could be such a slanderer. Because of that, I never suspected that the ssage could be fake in the first place I even felt sorry for doubting the ssage inevitably
Back then, everything was so unrealistic that I wondered if it was all part of so play Courant Cesar I couldnt fathom the extent of the fear and jealousy they felt. Apparently to them, it was enough of a reason for Ed to die But he isnt soone who can be erased by such a aningless death There was only one man like him in this whole world, really, there was only one That admirable spirit it shouldnt have disappeared so quickly It shouldve walked this earth for a very long ti
Lil couldnt believe it.
Was that precious life of his worth only this much? A life that was insignificant enough to be taken away from him just because of the combination of childish anger, sour emotions, and poor judgent?
Its clear that the doctor was dangerous. Dont try to deny it. The fact that a crewmber communicated with the Navy without the Captains knowledge is sufficient reason for his isolation. We dont even know who sent him, right? In addition, we dont know if there were any special motives for him being here, but as in most cases, theres no need to go above and beyond to get to the truth. Dont let this confuse you. Whatever the reason behind the ssage, you only have to focus on the fact that it happened. Theres no need to investigate his circumstances.
But he never stopped insisting on his innocence. He tried to call for
and reach out to
so that he could prove his innocence. Why do you think that is?
Its nothing but love.
Cesar stood his ground. It felt like a warning for her not to lie anymore. Irritation and confinent exploded in an instant, and Lil shouted.
Its not love! Please! Stop this ridiculous misunderstanding!
Before you get so fed up, dont you feel any compassion for
who had no choice but to show such ugly emotions? Do you have any idea what kind of self-loathing Ive been suffering from and how long Ive been tornted by it? Rather than contempt , why dont you comfort
when youre the one responsible for making
feel this way?
Im sorry if I misunderstood you! But I really
You think it will all be okay if you say youre sorry?
What are you talking about?
Cesar approached her. Confused, Lil wanted to take a step back, but her back soon hit the desk. Due to the impact, the scattered paper crumpled with a crisp sound. Cesar, who was now close enough to touch her body, cupped Lils face. Although she twisted her body montarily, she couldnt get out.
Im the only one who can hold you and kiss you.
..!
As if to prove that he ant what he said, his thumb pressed her lips. Lil belatedly tried to turn her head away.
No, dont force
to do this!
However, her cry only reached the top of her throat. Cesar was unwaveringly stubborn. With the hand that covered almost half of her face, he made sure that Lil would face him straight.
So why am I jealous of soone who has never seen you like this or has he?
..!
At so point, the red eyes that had been burning like flas turned wet. Clear tears welled up against the bloodshot white background. Startled, Lil stopped the hand that she had stretched out to shake him off. But despite seeing such a shocked Lil, Cesar didnt back down.
Do you know that when youre surprised, you unintendedly avert your gaze? You always try to hide it, but do you really think I wouldnt be aware of all the tis you are too stunned to speak? Can you truly apologise for all these things youre desperately trying to hide?
Even though his breathing beca faster and faster, Cesar never attempted to control his breath. Lil grew uncomfortable by the sight she saw for the first ti, the rising sadness pushed away the tension that had been in the air and suddenly, it poured down disastrously. A man nad Cesar was on the verge of bursting into tears.
What the hell am I to you? Why do you neglect
like this? Sotis you dont even seem to care what happens to . Is that really true?
Cesar, no ugh, dont cry please dont be like this. Youre wrong.
It was unknown who moved first. Lil, who placed her other hand on Cesars shoulder, or Cesar who removed the hand holding Lils face. Cesar, torn down by Lil, buried his head on her shoulder. But even though she began to feel wetness on her shirt near the nape of her neck, Lil rely stood there, unable to hug him or push him away. Instead, she used this mont to prepare her explanation.
Ed He had a unique understanding of the world. That was new and I sotis wonder about that kind of perspective. I found it all fascinating. Talking to him was like reading a book that I liked for a second ti. How can such a simple motive of mine be love?
Why cant it be love?
Because
Does love easily bloom like that? Then why is my heart still so quiet? Even after so many years
Lil closed her mouth. She couldnt answer because she didnt know.
I only know love as this complicated and grandiose thing
Unable to explain the concept that she didnt even understand properly, Lil bit her lip.
Cesar slipped out of her arms as he pushed Lil away.
You really dont know anything
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