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Cesar showed no signs of backing down.
If he truly lost the letter, then theres no longer any physical evidence left.
Lil chewed her dry lower lip nervously.
Im convinced that Ed wouldnt have hard . However, its no good to speak out about sothing thats only based on my feelings, for Cesar will easily refute
But why do I have to choose? Ed and Cesar are incomparable.
Why should I pick between the two of you? This isnt a matter of choice. I just need an answer.
Youre only questioning , so if its not a matter of choice, what else can it be? Does your heart lean towards him?
What kind of nonsense is that? I said I wanted to know the truth!
Cesar grabbed Lils shoulder. As it had been a few days before, his tight grip lifted her heels off the floor. The closer the flas in his eye ca, the hotter the heat rose. But this ti, Lil didnt lose and continued to face Cesar.
Liloa, you know this, dont you know? Faith takes precedence over material evidence.
Anyone can give and receive trust based on proof. But in fact, that kind of relationship isnt equal to a trustworthy one. The reason why trust is valuable is it stands even when theres no physical evidence. Its simply given despite the lack of tangible proof. Thats why trust is a privilege to those who share a close relationship.
I no longer have the proof of the doctors betrayal, so have you, perhaps, decided to believe in the doctor instead of ?
I said I only believe in the truth! You want
to give you a pass over the questionable circumstances regarding the disappearance of the letter and the pigeon, all in the na of trusting you? Is that how you expect
to act? I didnt even give Ed a chance to defend himself because I was only looking at you! I didnt even try to listen to him! In the end, I was the one in the wrong. Its like I destroyed the system Ive built with my own hands over the years in an instant But now that Ed is dead, you want to move on as you please?
You didnt co here to simply see the ssage. You ca here because you started to doubt what I had read. You dont believe it anymore, and now its nowhere to be found. Thats how things turned out to be. Now the ssages disappearance isnt what really matters, but your suspicions.
Think about it. The doctor was an impurity with no credibility. Im the only one who stood by your side until this day. The difference between the doctor and
is as clear as the sky and the earth. Therefore, your trust in him isnt based on reason but on emotions. Do you really want to know the truth? Or are you just harshly taking it out on
because you were deceived by him?
When Cesar hit the nail on the head, it made Lil confess the trigger that moved her to do this.
He told Alain that he was innocent. I deeply regret not even hearing his explanation. Thats why I wanted to look into everything again. Even if it appears as if Im doubting you, I cant help it even if youre upset. I wont repeat the sa mistake again.
Cesar gave a rare sneer.
Is that all? How can you be sure that his claims of innocence are false or not?
I dont care if his claims were true or not. Im going to do what I should have done back then. So, tell , why did you lose the letter
Why are you so concerned about the doctor?
What?
Do you find it a pity that hes no longer by your side? Dont you know what to do, now that his body is wandering the sea?
What are you getting at?
Lil shook her arms violently. When Cesar released her, her heels hit the floor with a thud. She quickly regained her balance and snapped.
Do you even know what Im doing here on the Bell Rock?!
I do.
No, you clearly dont. Because to you, its all childs play. Do you think Ill get sick of it if you wait a little longer? Like so ga?!
Do you still not understand what I want to protect?
Lils heart felt like it was going to burst from frustration.
Cesar knows absolutely nothing. Its cruel of him to assert that he knows, despite the fact that he doesnt. Although he never imposed on
that what he believed was the truth, he also never showed any interest or asked
if what he thought was correct or not Cesar is completely ignorant of the Bell Rock.
I understand. However, you never reprimanded
when I broke the rules and rescued you. I know you felt sorry for the sailors you cared for the mont they were killed for the sake of rescuing you, but I guessed you let it go because you knew how I felt. Im no fool. I know you were sad and mourned for them. And I know how much you care for the Bell Rock and how hard its for you to decide to end this life and be with
Then why dont you respect ? Why do you always ignore whats important to
and trample the Bell Rocks significance to ?
Was my offence to you that grave that you had to resort to using the word trample? To , Liloa, the Bell Rock is nothing compared to you. I only do what I think is right for you. So whenever my affection is belittled like this it breaks my heart.
Do you really think youre doing that for ? What you claim to do for
is limited to my safety, it has nothing to do with my happiness In addition, Im not soone you have to protect. I want to do sothing on my own and I want to make it happen. If there is a problem, I want to be the one to solve it. I want to experience that feeling of achieving it Im a person with a lot of different needs Im not soone who can be satisfied with only staying comfortable in your arms. So, if you really care for , dont ignore the various things that I want to do.
Do you think I dont know that? If I were truly overprotective of you, do you think we would still even be on the Bell Rock? You know how much I respect you, and I also know what you want to protect.
What puzzles
is why you, who have always understood , are pushing
on this matter now. Even if there are so doubts, dont you have a monts certainty that I did it for you?
Cesar didnt give Lil any room to intervene, so she had to hear every word he said, motionless.
You seem more worked up about this than you were the ti when you lost half of your crew. Dont you think thats enough grounds for
to be suspicious about the way youre acting?
Liloa. Do you know the reason behind that?
Of course, Lil knew the reason. It was a reason that was most painful to Cesar, but he couldnt help to confirm it.
It doesnt matter what you did in the past or present as Im the one who made the mistake. Its different from then. Im condemning myself for disobeying the code I created, because I acted as your woman, not as the captain of this ship. I was always proud of being fairer than anyone else, but in the end, I wasnt any better than the rest. I made an irrevocable mistake
Do you an that if your two roles collide, you will choose to be the Captain?
Why should I have to choose between one of my many roles? Cesar, have you ever done that? Have you ever been made to choose between the you whos the son of a Count, the you from the navy, and the you whos soones lover?
I chose to be with you
Cesar didnt have to say more as Lil could fill in the blanks in her head.
Because Cesar chose , he can no longer stay in the Counts house nor beco a Navy officer again.
She had no way to refute it. Due to the circumstances surrounding their unusual relationship, everything Lil would say now would only turn her into a shaless woman. There was no other option but to be subject to Cesars choice because Cesar saved her from hell. Lil, who beca this ungrateful, selfish woman in re seconds, had to shut her mouth and be obedient.
Im sorry. I was wrong. Its not that I dont want to be your woman, it just pains
that I acted so unfairly. I really cant let go of a fault as big as this one
Is that really all there is to it?
Then what more is there
Arent you hiding another reason?
What are you trying to say?
His red eyes were so intense as if they were trying to penetrate sothing intangible. Cesar walked up to her. Lils resolve to keep the fragnts of her soon-to-be-revealed feelings hidden tightened. She looked up at him while holding her breath.
What the hell are you on about?
Do you love him?
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