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’... He ntioned marriage...’ — I thought again... after a while had passed since my eyes opened to welco morning as if the ponder in overflowing rejoice did not happen last night. Feeling thrilled as I felt my being as odd yet natural after waking with one soul composed of two. Experiencing the warmth of what awaited once this day allowed the crown prince and myself to et... without a need to conceal happiness in useless caution for a destiny I feared was ultimately avoided by my survival and now all that mattered was to craft different days to those I learned in my past.
’... A speck of wants to say "our survival"... yet I am no longer two...’ — "How odd it is..."
The complexity of my present self had yet to be fully grasped for only a night had traversed in ti. Certainly not being enough for myself to fully understand this sensation running throughout what I am now as if I have yet to develop this new soul I am.
’I was once Marianne... I was also once Elizabeth... the past as both, I clearly recall it and embrace it... however the sensation of being two people is stronger in my consciousness... haha~ how odd yet satisfying... how confusing and yet natural...’ — "I feel as if mixed in myself... ahaha, yet solely one as unique as myself can understand such senseless idea... As expected, being who I am and knowing who I once was is what allows sanity to govern over the weirdness of this present... Although cleverness never lacked in myself, fufu~"
Cuddling to the sheets while still lying in bed I decided to rise, sitting on the edge as the mood within solely strengthened in joy imagining the days to co. I glanced back at the balcony’s door, from which I had tried to catch a glimpse of his departure even if breathless and late to see anything. Relishing in the throb my anticipation invoked knowing that... I was to dress today thinking of him... continuing to feel conflicted at the word marriage as the mix of myself felt delighted by the seriousness in his intentions, naturally so, for that is how this realm’s people continue to believe these matters should be while I also felt pressured as it appeared hast for it to be ntioned so soon.
"Marriage... I feel I am too young yet it is natural... it is proper in my head..." — I mumbled, nervous while ticklish... letting go of the thought as it was not a matter to lose my peace for.
This little troubled sensation was nothing... for it would not stop myself from drowning in the bliss... for concerns were not enough to let these feelings I fully own to be concealed or restrained...
"We are together..." — Smiling as I whispered it, I felt my heart shrink in thrilled joy, throbbing with anticipation. — "That is what matters~...! Goodness, I am blushing...!"
I believe that happiness is at the reach of my hand if I wish for it... and I do... I will craft it myself even though the divine in Izeneya has announced that a war is soon to break as my being ca to be here as one of the opponents and I am willing to fight given the nace the enemy ans to this happiness.
’Sigh... Sooner than later they will take a step forward to harm this montary peace... who it is and its aim... I am who I am now, so I can confront them without fear at the very least.’
Too much I have experienced to fear that one who wants dead after all.
"... Nonetheless... I should rejoice in the good of today instead of the troubles of tomorrow... I should just prepare now, mwahaha~ I might get ready even before Paige arrives today~ and then I’ll et him and have a little date if possible~"
Certainly, I felt myself as soone different, yet in essence, I believe that whitin not much difference inhabited sohow... I feel comfortable because the condition my body once had, felt far in the past. And now my attitude, my behaviour, was to simply start to be let out freely.
Although not to everyone, for I need should use this change to my advantage.
Therefore, I paced to open one of the many curtains so more light could let the colours of my chamber shine, delighted even as I saw how autumn, the season I love, had started to gain its colours while imprisoned... yet happy to be able to still witness for it appeared to be in its splendour.
"I wonder what day it is... I did not keep track and I was apparently asleep for a ti I ignore... is the month still Epz...? Or is it already Ovh..." — I pondered as I went back to look at my wardrobe, wondering slightly concerned about the date while other wants ca over myself without much worry. — "... Sigh... sohow, I now want sweets for breakfast... I haven’t had any in a while..."
I sighed, while lazily looking through my many dresses, aware that it was because I refused the sweets Paul brought to as a manner to manifest my dislike to his person...
"... Oh, this dress... I have not worn it enough..." — Imdiately distracted as I had the wish to not think about sad mories, I said, fond of the shades of it for it had a hue similar to his unique violet eyes with hints of dangerous red, letting myself smile in illusion to our eting. — "I wonder if he will notice what I do when he sees wearing it... He might not even notice it, haha~. As far as I know, n are oblivious when it cos to these little details..."
Nevertheless, delight did not abandon to this knowledge. Letting decide in a small thought that I would wear it, taking it from the wardrobe allowing the silence of my chambers to let my ear notice that soone had co to my chamber’s door.
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