Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl) Chapter 264: Yeon’s story: 05 helpless

C/W: brief discussion of abortion.

Jisung’s POV

My hyung. My best friend...the love of my life is crying helplessly in front of and there is nothing I can do about it but cry.

I hate being seventeen and younger, I hate not being able to pick up a gun and shoot all of them down, I hate being the way I am right now.

Little Jisung with the glasses and the weak arms.

"Hyung..." I whisper and he drops his head on my shoulder, his scent is faint but deeply bitter, I haven’t even presented yet and I can sll him like this...how bad will it be for others?

"Hyung we’ll figure it out" I say and he shakes his head on my shoulder.

"There’s nothing to figure out, Jisung" he sobs against my shoulder, he sounds exhausted and drained, like there’s nothing else in him.

I have never seen him like this.

Yeon hyung has always been a loud man, cocky, playful and he knows how to joke about everything...I will hurt everyone that hurt him.

"Where are you going?" Yeon asks when I try to get up and I turn my head away to avoid his eyes, I’m so angry right now, I wish I had presented earlier, maybe I would have been able to help him.

"Jisung" he calls my na firmly and I look up, eyes watering again, it’s pathetic that my best friend is breaking into a million pieces like this and all I can do is cry.

"I’m going to kill all of them" I blurt and he grabs my shirt, "you are so stupid" he says, "hyung let go!" I say weakly and he pulls closer to himself.

"Shut up okay, you’re going to kill who?" he asks with a sigh, and I can only hyperventilate in his face, breathing in and breathing out through my nose and mouth, while struggling to keep myself upright.

"All those people..." I say and hyung hugs again, crushing to his body, and he doesn’t let go even when I squirm.

"And then what? They already stole from already, will you offer them my best friend too?" he asks in my ear and I weaken against him, giving up the fight that I never even had the chance to win.

"Just stay with " he says softly, body still shuddering from crying for so long.

And after so minutes, we climb into his bed and lay as we used to. Two teenage boys on their backs, staring at the ceiling, talking nonsense and laughing.

But things have changed, we are now one weak teenage boy and a boy forced to be an adult too quickly, not talking or laughing.

We stay silent, listening to the sound of Yeon’s mom moving around downstairs, she’s cooking and making so much noise.

"I’m going to get rid of it" Yeon says and I wince.

Yeon has always helped many oga deliver their kids with his special talent, he is our very own healer, the boy with the magical hands...now he’s thinking of killing his own.

I press my lips together to stop myself from crying again.

"I’m too young to have one" he says and places his hand on his stomach, he lets it rest there before saying more, "I’m not- I’m not fit to raise a pup now and I don’t want to do that...here" he says.

Yeon isn’t soone that comfortably talks about himself, he would rather talk about an animal he saved, a bird on his window, a new plant he found, so I listen closely with my mouth shut

.

"And then, I’ll leave here, I’ll go sowhere different and new" he says and leans in closer to .

This close, I can sll the milk on him, and I hate the pup more than anything in the world, I hate that his body is forced to do what he doesn’t want.

"I’ll make it right for you, I promise" I say and instead of calling stupid as always, he buries his fingers in my hair and leaves them there.

We both fall asleep on his bed and when I wake, it’s to soone patting my leg, it’s Yeon’s mom.

"Jisung, it’s ti to go ho" she says quietly and I hum, still half asleep and not wanting to leave Yeon’s side, "your mom is waiting" she says and I swing my legs on the other side.

I fix my glasses as I follow the woman with my back hunched.

It’s when I get into the waiting taxi that I realized...mom isn’t going to be ho tonight, she’s working at the clan hospital to assist in cleaning up the ss the Hwangs and Kangs made.

"Ma’am, my mom won’t be ho" I say with my tongue still heavy from sleep.

"Go ho Jisung, things have changed around here, Yeon is now a grown man and an oga" she says with a cold tone that wakes up a bit.

"He’s still my best friend" I say and she sighs.

"You will present soon and grow out of puppy love" she says.

"I will always love hyung" I defend my affection before I can even think and his mom gives a flat look, "present first of all, and then you’ll see that he’s not what you want. You’re just infatuated" the woman says and steps away.

Infatuated?

?

"Good night" she says and the car drives out of their driveway, the night breeze blows over my face and takes right back to sleep, but I don’t dream of nice things.

I dream of growing up big and strong, of being able to protect Yeon, of being an alpha that is reliable and of being soone that Yeon will love back.

"Get out kid" the taxi driver wakes up and I stumble out from his car, up the dark stairs of my house and into the soft mattress of in my room..

When I wake up in the morning to go look for Yeon, they told to leave.

"Seriously Jisung, get a life, Yeon has gone to be where he deserves to be" his mom says and I don’t leave till she finally tells ...

"He has joined the oga factory, happy?" she asks before she slams the door in my face.

What?