Use Me Like A Drug (omegaverse bl) Chapter 13: broken in soul, broken in body

Jaehyun’s POV

My own words surprises .

In shock, I draw in a large amount of the cold night air into my lungs to calm my Alpha, not to silence but not keep myself in control of my words and action.

Slowly, I release the breath I had been holding and shut my eyes tightly, still trying to ground myself. I opened my eyes to take a good look at Yujun.

The other man is looking at as well, his eyes holds mine and I see speckles of blue in his brown eyes- there but sad and tiny. The blue of his Oga in his iris is the only sign of life and emotions that I can detect in his eyes.

’What have they done to him?’ I wonder to myself. This is not how our wolves are ant to reveal themselves, is he...broken?. The thought makes my heart clench painfully for him.

"Yujun-ah, you shouldn’t be hurt like this" I say softly, the pain I feel for him is heavy in my tone. Within , my alpha is clawing and raging, wanting to kill everyone that hurt him.

Yujun blinks, and as quickly as it had appeared, the blue of his oga disappears from his iris, a sure sign of his oga being surpressed, and his eyes returns to being emotionless, dead and brown.

I whine in my throat at the obvious shut down of his oga, expressing the pain he is choosing to ignore for him- I am hurt for him, knowinh now that whatever they did to him is deeper than the marks they left on his face.

"Why do you care?" Yujun asks firmly, dropping his eyes from mine, "Don’t give hope please" he whispers, his voice almost undetected as the wind blows around us. "Don’t give hope" he repeats and bows his head.

Yujun has always been the master of masking his emotions, knowing when, where and how to laugh or cry on command since we were kids, but this ti...he isn’t wearing a mask. The light in his eyes has been snuffed out and he is not the man he truly is.

"Co with " I say and hold his hand. And reacting as if my own touch scald him, Yujun yanks his hand out of mine, "what exactly do you want Hwang Jaehyun-ssi?" He spat bitterly.

The brief mont of weakness disappearing, giving way to his uncanny strength, "You know my secret, you have made your subject, hell...you have my sister." His voice breaks at the ntion of his sister.

"What more can I give you? My death?" He asks, his eyes are still dead and void even though his tone is full of passion. "Should I die for you?" Yujun asks and I shake my head no.

"No Choi Yujun, I am just asking to to co with " I say calmly and he scoffs, "why? You know I’m an oga now, what do you plan?" He asks, folding his arm across his chest, "Yujun, I was with you all through your heat and I didn’t take advantage of you did I?" I ask and his expression shifts slightly.

"I don’t trust you Hwang Jaehyun" Yujun says and I nod, "you don’t have to trust , I’m not asking you to" I say, watching the way the wind sweeps his white hair. He is a tall man but he looks heartbreakingly fragile to .

"Have dinner with ?" I ask him, tilting my head to look in his eyes. "Fine" He says and I sigh at the monotony of his response, "chicken and beer?" I ask and he shrugs, accepting it.

"Let’s go" I gesture to my car and without arguents, he follows to the parked car. I opened the door for him to slide in before I get in and start the engine to take us to my apartnt.

The street is busy and lively as I drive, the car is silent as Yujun is sitting deathly still and I battle my wolf in my mind all through. Yujun sits wordlessly with his face towards the window, his eyes watching the city lights go as we drive by rapidly.

Yujun is trying his best to act like he is not hurting but I can see the subtle change in his posture and the facial expression that cos with bump the car passes over.

We get to my apartnt and Yujun goes in first, his back straight and his posture elegant, carrying the sa damn air of ’im okay’ with him. Walking closely behind and my Alpha whines, upset that we don’t have a whif of Yujun’s pheromones, I can only sll the blood on him.

"I’ll order chicken right now" I say as soon as we get in. Picking up my phone, I go over to the fridge to make sure I have beer.

Standing at a corner, I watch how uncomfortably Yujun sits, like he is trying to keep his body from falling apart even further.

It is sad that he protects his body from falling apart while his soul is obviously broken in million pieces.

Thinking that he is not being watched, Yujun scowls and doubles over, biting down on his lips to silence himself. "Yah" I say as walk over to him and hold his shoulder, "let see" I say gently to him.

Reluctantly, he looks at with guarded eyes, "my...mom was a nurse, I picked a few things from her" I explain to him and his tensed shoulders drop slightly.

"Let see" I urge him and he pulls off his hood, "everything Yujun, show everything" I say and his cheeks redden before he pulls up his hoodie.

The sight that greets is unpleasant and ugly, his torso is covered in blotches of purples and red, so injuries still fresh and raw, "fuck" I say, putting my head down a bit too late...

my Alpha has surfaced...