Trapped In A Novel As The Breeding Mate For Four Powerful Alphas Chapter 164: What would you like me to say, master?

"Hah," Seo-Jun sighed, brushing his hand over his neck. "This is hard."

Wait, wait, wait, don’t do that. Don’t act like you’re putting in so kind of effort, I was still trying to understand his previous words.

He said he’d try? Seriously? Not to hurt ?

After all that he did? He hurt enough with his words to now consider trying not to hurt .

Was this his apology? Well, it was pretty sloppy, and I don’t think I can accept such an apology, no matter how sincere he was.

"Hah," I also sighed, my gaze down and my eyes twirling. "I think I’m going to sit down first." I said and sat down carefully so I wouldn’t graze my back over the hard dining chair.

I looked at the single glass of wine on the table and then the bottle that had just been opened.

Where was the steak that was supposed to go with the wine? I wondered.

Was he planning to simply drink a few glasses and then head up? Was that his dinner?

So, this guy was neglecting his als. Who was to say the others weren’t also neglecting their als?

"Let’s have dinner." I said.

Since I couldn’t easily process his words, I decided to eat sothing first. I an, it’s hard to think on an empty stomach, and at the mont, his words were just so difficult to process that I needed to at least eat till I was half-filled before I started having such random and draining thoughts.

Seo-Jun looked at .

Since he hadn’t gotten a response regarding what he had said to , he felt uneasy. At least, that was what his face said. His breathing was also slightly off.

He was nervous.

Now, this was a sight I never thought I would see. Just what had happened while I was in my room?

Did they fight?

Co to think of it, Min-Cheol punched him before. I hope he didn’t try to hit Min-Cheol later after that.

"Won’t you..." He clenched his fist. "Respond?"

Wow, look at that. Now, isn’t that a desperate snake?

"What would like to say, master?" I asked. "If you want to say ’okay’ I can do that, but is that what you want to hear?"

I watched his fist clench harder but then he released it, sighing as he said,

"No."

"Then, please let think about what you said. You’ve confused with your words, Master, so I need ti to respond. Especially... Since you and I weren’t exactly on good terms so I can only wonder what you’re trying to do." I lowered my gaze and then my eyes traveled to the maids who were arriving with the steak. "I did whatever I could do so you and I wouldn’t stay on bad terms, but it still turned out ’that’ way."

I watched them drop the steak in front of . I had three layered steaks since one didn’t exactly fill up.

"After that, I decided to give up." I said, my voice and expression soft and riddled with regret. "If I can’t make my master like or at least get comfortable around , then what else can I do? I can only live according to their will, right?" I raised my gaze and smiled sadly at him. "So, I don’t understand what you want to think after listening to you. It... Confuses ."

I did not raise my gaze and simply stared at my reflection on the glass of wine that had been poured for .

Whatever expression Seo-Jun had on his face after what I had said, I had no idea. But he was silent.

Seo-Jun stood there, silently, his eyes on . I could feel them. His hands were free, and his heart was racing.

It wasn’t like I could hear his heartbeat from where I was, but with the way his eyes on fluctuated, I felt he might’ve had his heart racing.

I had said all I could to this man. It was up to him if he still wanted to see as nothing but a slave who was an opportunist or if he would see as soone who could be his equal.

Riches and gold, I have none. But I have the knowledge of books he would never find so I believed my worth, in the world of readers, was equivalent to his.

He just needed to see that.

"Jo-Pil," he called and I raised my head, chewing on the tender steak that quickly lted in my mouth.

The chef had outdone himself again.

’You know, I wasn’t allowed to have at for a while because of so reason.’ I thought.

"Jo-Pil," he called again.

’I an, I had my back peeled off so I should at least eat more protein, at especially, to regain my lost flesh, right?’

"Jo-Pil!" Seo-Jun called the third ti, slamming his hand on the table and the glass of wine next to my plate fell, spilling on my plate of steak.

I stared at my steak, which was now swimming in wine.

Just how much strength did Seo-Jun have for him to fall the glass of wine? Well, at least it didn’t spill all over .

I finally raised my gaze and looked at him.

He was trembling, his teeth gritted and a desperate look on his face. He looked like soone who was on the edge of a thin rope that was about to cut.

What pushed him this far?

"I know, I know I’m an asshole." He said.

Yeah, you are. No doubt about it.

"But I said I’ll try.x he cracked his hands on the table and I glanced at them before returning my gaze to his face.

He looked pathetic.

"Why do you want to try?" I asked him, causing him to flinch. "You didn’t lose anything when you looked down on and called out for being a slave. I an, you weren’t wrong. So, why the change of heart now?"

"It’s because I don’t understand you." He said, and I furrowed my eyebrows. "What goes through your mind even when you’re at the end of your road? What did you do to overco your trauma? How did you cope for this long without breaking down? How are you not insane?"

What was he on about?

"I thought about these ridiculous things every day after that day. I thought about it even though it had nothing to do with . It shouldn’t bother , but it haunts . I wake up in the middle of the night, my heart racing and cold sweat dripping down my pores, and a question plays in my mind. ’What would Jo-Pil do?’ but I can’t co up with an answer."

"Master, what is your point?" I asked.

His words confused the more I heard them. If he was going to say sothing then he should just say...

"You’re strong." He said and my heart skipped a beat. "How are you so strong? You’re just... An Oga."