"If you were to say that I shouldn't have been there at that ti, that I shouldn't have been a burden dragging you down, I admit it, I even hate myself."
"So, this ti, I really tried to work hard."
"I awakened my Magic Armor."
"I also... although not alone, eventually defeated that enemy."
"You can say I'm boasting if you like, but this ti, the battle, it should have... made a difference, right?"
She slowly looked up, gazing at Erald Sparrow with uncertainty, "This , this ti, I shouldn't be a burden, right?"
Erald Sparrow locked eyes with her for a long while, slowly nodded, "You are not a burden. You don't need to ask about that, everything you did tonight in defeating the enemy was very important."
"Then why..."
"Because I am really worried about your safety, especially yours, Bai i."
Erald Sparrow took a deep breath, "You should know, your mother, Ying, died while on a Magical Girl mission, and she was very strong, stronger than at that ti. Even a Magical Girl as powerful as her t with an accident during a mission, which caused panic among nearly half of the Magical Girl squads in the Material Realm."
"And I, as her... teammate, I am definitely one of those who cannot accept this happening the most. I really regret that I wasn't there beside her then. That's why now, I really can't bear to let you undertake such dangerous missions, if sothing were to happen to you also, I really..."
At this point, she paused, then closed her eyes tightly and shook her head, as if to drive out a certain thought from her mind, "I can't accept that happening."
"What about ?" Lin Xiaolu asked.
"What?"
"What about my feelings?"
Lin Xiaolu widened her eyes, her voice rising slightly, "Have you ever considered that I feel the sa way? I'm also very worried about you! You lost a teammate, I lost my mother! My mother died while on a mission! How could I possibly want to experience that pain, that despair again!"
"Am I not sad? Am I not scared? Exactly because I'm also worried about such things, I also think, 'if I'm not there and sothing happens to Erald Sparrow,' I really don't even want to think about such things!"
"You always say you're worried about , not wanting anything to happen to , but have you ever considered that I feel the sa, I'm worried about you so much I can't sit still. You make stay back at the base, then every second I'm thinking if sothing might go wrong, how could I possibly bear it!"
"Last Full Moon Festival you were severely injured by that woman, and for so reason, you even destroyed your own Magic Armor; in this battle, you were still injured by the Clawmarks people, and it almost reached your core! Do you know how I felt standing by? I was really worried you were going to die! I couldn't even speak!"
"Do you think I'm very afraid of death? Yes, I am, I fear death, I fear pain, I even fear thunderstorms, there are too many things I'm afraid of, I'm just a coward. But what I fear the most has never been these, what I fear the most is losing the people I care about, the ones I love, from my life!"
"My mother is already dead and will never co back, it took two years, and to this day I'm still having a hard ti accepting it. If you were to die, how many more years would you want to take to accept it?"
"If that really happened, it would be better to let die instead, since you saved my life anyways, facing any real deadly danger, if my life could be exchanged for yours—"
Lin Xiaolu stopped speaking.
At her most emotionally charged mont, Erald Sparrow raised her hand, clasping her shoulders tightly and fiercely, her piercing blue eyes intensifying each word she uttered:
"Absolutely, not, allowed."
Lin Xiaolu had never seen Erald Sparrow like this before.
Although her face bore no exaggerated expression, her widened eyes seed to brew so chaotic, heavy emotions, even giving a slight oppressive feeling, overwhelming her breath.
It was like so kind of stress response, when she ntioned "dying for Erald Sparrow," it seed to awaken a slumbering beast, shifting Erald Sparrow from her usual calm contemplation directly into this state.
"...I absolutely won't accept this, you should think carefully, your friends, your father, and I, how would we feel?"
After a while, Erald Sparrow recovered from that state and released her grip on Lin Xiaolu's shoulders, "Sorry, I hurt you, but you need to be clear that many people would grieve for you, feel it's not worth it, believe , nobody wants to see that happen."
"But if it could save you, I would be willing to do it."
But Lin Xiaolu didn't back down, "Perhaps I would feel sorry for my dad, but that's the only thing that would make feel guilty."
Erald Sparrow stared at her for a long while.
Soon, as if she was eting Lin Xiaolu for the first ti, she nodded expressionlessly, "Okay, I understand."
She stepped back two steps, leaning against the wall, arms crossed:
"But since you really bear such determination, I'll also tell you my true thoughts, if you really risk your life for such a thing, I would kill the person who killed you and then kill myself."
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