Chapter 474: Design
FIA
The knock at the door pulled us apart. I sat up slowly, scrubbing my face with the heels of my palms. My cheeks were hot and tight from crying. Cian pressed a kiss to my temple before sliding off the bed, padding barefoot across the room to answer.
I watched him move. My breath caught as his shirt stretched across his back when he reached for the door handle. The familiar sight sliced through , causing my chest to tighten and my breath to beco shallow with sudden longing.
He exchanged quiet words with the server, then wheeled in a cart laden with covered dishes. The tal dos concealed whatever the kitchen had prepared, but the scents escaped anyway. Rich butter. Roasted at. Sothing herbed and earthy that should have made my stomach growl.
But the food barely registered. Hunger twisted into sothing sharper, and my nerves humd as my attention snagged on Cian; every detail of him pressed urgently against my mind.
Cian tipped the server and closed the door, turning back to
with that soft, worried expression he’d worn since I hung up with my father. "You should eat sothing."
His voice rolled through , deeper than usual, or maybe I was attuned to it in a new way. The sound resonated in my chest, warmth unfurling low in my belly.
I nodded, scarcely aware of his words, while my gaze fixated on the elegant line of his throat; I could see a pulse flickering there, which caused my own pulse to pound in response and left my cheeks flushed tight.
"Fia?"
I blinked. Forced myself to focus on his face instead of cataloging the lines of his body. "Sorry. Yes. Food."
He studied
for a long mont, then crossed to the cart. Started lifting the dos away to reveal the plates underneath. The motion pulled his shirt tight across his shoulders again. I tracked the movent without aning to.
The scents grew stronger—garlic, rosemary, and golden butter lting around roasted vegetables—yet beneath it all, sothing wilder cut through: pine, earth, and the unmistakable, clean scent that was Cian alone.
I stood, intending to help him, but my legs trembled as heat flushed through my body, my skin prickling with sensitivity; I clung to the footboard as dizziness spiked and panic darted under my ribs.
The room swayed slightly. I put a hand on the footboard to steady myself.
Cian looked up sharply. His nostrils flared. The plates he’d been holding hit the cart with a soft clatter as he set them down very, very carefully. All his movents were suddenly very controlled.
"Fia..."
That was all he said. Just my na, in that rough and questioning tone, and the sound of it sent a shiver down my spine.
I opened my mouth to answer, but the words slipped away. My thoughts scattered like startled birds. The anger from my father’s call, so sharp monts ago, now felt distant and muffled.
Other needs crowded in, demanding my attention and warping my priorities; I wanted both comfort and connection, but couldn’t decide which impulse to follow.
The way Cian’s chest rose and fell. The gold was beginning to bleed into his dark eyes. The tension suddenly thrumd through the bond between us, carrying his awareness, his recognition, his reaction.
Heat raced across my chest and throat, and each heartbeat thundered in my ears while lights sparked at the corners of my vision; my hands shook as I reached for a plate, need surging through my trembling fingers.
I managed two steps toward the cart before my knees turned to liquid.
Cian moved, catching my elbow before I could stumble. His fingers wrapped around my arm, and the contact sent sparks racing up to my shoulder—sothing brighter than pain and far more intense.
He jerked his hand away as if burned, putting three feet of space between us in one smooth, urgent motion.
"I’m fine." The words ca out breathy and not convincing at all.
"You’re not." He stayed exactly where he was, spine rigid—giving
space even though I could see the effort it cost him. His hands had curled into fists at his sides.
My skin felt too tight, too hot, even with the cool air humming through the suite. I wanted to peel my dress away, to press myself against anything cold.
Or maybe sothing even warr than I was now.
I looked at Cian and felt the bond surge, showing
everything—his wolf rising, clawing for the surface, his rational mind scrambling for control. My scent had changed, flooding his senses, triggering sothing primal and imdiate.
My pheromones were going crazy and affecting him.
"It’s too early." I tried to make sense of it. Tried to think through the heat building in my blood. "Heat season doesn’t start until midnight. We planned—"
"You’re pregnant." His voice dropped lower. "I suppose it can happen with hormones and heightened emotions. Early onset."
Oh, the phone call. My father’s voice. The rage, grief, and betrayal that had overwheld
just minutes before. I knew intense emotion and stress could trigger heat in pregnant Ogas, as I had read. However, I never expected it to happen to .
Fear spiked cold and sharp through the warmth flooding my limbs.
Cian’s breathing changed. It beca heavier, more deliberate. Each inhale and exhale was carefully asured, as if he were counting between them to pace himself.
He grabbed the edge of the food cart. His knuckles went white, and the tal fra groaned softly under the pressure of his grip.
The words sounded forced and chanical, as if he had morized rules for handling the situation and was reciting them to himself, insisting, "You need to eat sothing first, before it gets worse."
Neither of us moved toward the food.
Instead, I stepped toward him.
"Don’t." The command cracked halfway through, splitting into sothing desperate. "Don’t co closer. Not yet. I need—"
He didn’t finish because he couldn’t; the bond revealed why. His wolf had ceased clawing and was beginning to win. His human thoughts grew thinner and more scattered, much like mine.
Sweat beaded on his forehead, sliding down his temple despite the chill in the room, while his eyes flickered from human brown to wolf gold and back again. The shift remained incomplete, yet it was relentless.
I watched muscles bunch and release beneath his skin, his body preparing for transformation even as he fought it.
He backed away from . One slow step first, then another. His goal seed to be to put the bed between us, like a barrier.
The growing space twisted my stomach, each inch amplifying longing and rejection, my hands curling into fists and my jaw clenched against the ache of separation as my heat intensified, flooding my system with an urgent response; my body read his retreat as denial and rejection—sothing to be corrected with chemical insistence.
More pheromones were emitted from , each sweeter and more potent, evolved to completely destabilize the Alphas in front of .
I sensed my scent grow stronger, emanating from my skin. Cian’s jaw clenched, his pupils dilated, and his body trembled briefly—desire breaking through his defenses.
"The restraints," he said, his voice was scarcely human anymore, and it sounded like there were hardly any words at all. "Use them. Now!"
Part of
wanted to obey. The healer who understood what happened when Alphas lost control during heat season. Who’d seen the aftermath of the heat gone wrong... Who knew exactly how dangerous this could beco...
That part wanted him safe. Wanted us both safe.
But another part of , which was louder now, cared nothing for safety and only wanted to give in to the overwhelming desire growing between us.
That part wanted to close the space between us, to test his control, to push him past the fraying edge he clung to. To make him surrender, as my body already was.
The Oga in
felt no fear of his wolf. It wanted him... It needed him.
The room felt smaller. The walls felt like they were closing. The red lighting pulsed with my heartbeat, or maybe I was imagining it. Everything had taken on a dreamlike quality. Hyperreal and distant at once.
I could hear his breathing from across the room, along with my own heartbeat. I felt the bond between us pulsing like a live wire, carrying sensations, need, and desperation.
Copper flooded my mouth. I had bitten my lip without noticing and drawn blood without feeling pain.
Cian let out a quiet sound in his throat. It was neither a growl nor words. His composure broke completely.
But I witnessed it... The instant the wolf took hold of him.
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