Darrien.
As the dawn breaks and all arrangent are made. Eligio tells we are going to have to stay here. Help the wolves. I already know that I am on their side. Fuck, my link is one of them. I know they haven’t treated him like he matters but they are still his family and I have to do everything I can to protect them.
’’We have to stay here?’’ El informs .
’’I got the kid in my apartnt. This is not the ti to leave him alone.’’
’’I’m bringing El, do the sa. I an this is his ho after all.’’
I shake my head ’’Not anymore. He belongs with ,’’ I interject already getting defensive.
Eligio raises his hands up in surrender, obviously aning no harm ’’You get what I am saying. I brought my baby here, even though she has no reason to be here. Jabi is already used to this place. Explain the situation to him and bring him back—for his own safety.’’
He has a point but I am not going to let him know that I think so. I release a sigh of frustration not liking all that is happening. that motherfucker needs to die and he needs to die now.
Eligio leaves to my thoughts. I don’t even have a way of calling Jabi. He doesn’t have a phone; I don’t even know why I didn’t think of that. I just told him to stay put and wait for . I know he is obedient but I can’t be out here without him, worrying like hell.
I get to the apartnt in a couple of minutes and he opens the door imdiately. I manage a smile because he is dressed in my clothes. You have to imagine Jabi to picture this. the shirt is oversized on him, reaching his knees. His hair is ssy on his head, his cheeks are red. There is so much colour on his face. I love this look on him. almost like he is screaming Mine.
’’Hey,’’ I reach for him and he shivers against my touch. I press my palm to his face and he closes his eyes, enjoying my touch.
There is this silent shift in our relationship, we haven’t talked about it but we both know it. We can feel it, even though we haven’t taken things to the next level. I don’t plan on doing anything about it yet. I am going to wait but while I do, I want to take care of him. show him that this love I feel for him is genuine. Jabi doesn’t think he deserves , he has been poisoned for so long with the notion that just because he is an oga, he wouldn’t be accepted. Well, I fucking accept him, in all his glory, beauty and amazingness.
’’You’re back,’’ I drop my hand from his face and he shifts to grant access into the house.
The tv in the living room is on but all the lights are off. There is a blanket on the couch and a bag of potato chips on the table with a bottle of coke. It seems like he has been in the living room all night, just from the look of things. ’’Have you eaten?’’ I ask him.
He nods ’’What did you eat?’’
He points to the chips on the table, I glare at him in shock ’’The pantry is full, why didn’t you eat real food.’’ It has been hours since I left him.
’’I was waiting for you,’’ he mutters.
I stop in front of him and grab his hands in mine with a gentle squeeze. He is walking on eggshells in this place but I need to let him know that he owns this apartnt as much as I do. it is our place. He is bound to for life. no backing down now.
’’Co on,’’ I lead him into the kitchen ’’What do you want to eat?’’ I ask him as I open the fridge that is fully stocked.
I have a maid that cos to clean and stock up the pantry. So I’m surprised that he didn’t explore the house, find out what it entails and make so food. I need my baby to eat, even if there is a slight discomfort in his tummy.
’’I am not hungry,’’ he dismisses.
I frown ’’I am hungry, will you eat with ?’’
His lips tilt upwards as I grab a packet of sausages and eggs from the fridge. He has to know that I am not actually hungry. I don’t need this food but my baby does, so I must feed him even if I have to eat too.
’’Can I help?’’ he walks over to .
I grab him by his waist and the shirt ride up to his thighs. My eyes waver to them and I can’t help but stare. His legs are the palest part of his body. So soft and pale against my touch. His cheeks redden as I put him on the counter table with a nervous cough.
’’Stay pretty and watch , baby.’’
I freeze at my words because I didn’t intend to call him baby. That term of endearnt shouldn’t be used when I am trying to control myself. I don’t want to push him, I don’t want to make him think things are more than they are until they can.
He watches and I thank the deities that he doesn’t point out on it. Going back to the food. I end up frying eggs and the sausages. Jabi watches with so much admiration. He is looking at like I am the king of his world. I love that I am way high up on the pedestal with him. the fact that he looks up to is so exciting to .
I will never let him down.
I serve the plates on the dining table and he jumps up the counter to walk ’’I was going to carry you,’’ I whine.
He giggles ’’I can walk.’’
I smile ’’I don’t mind carrying you.’’
He stops walking and stretches his hands out in the air ’’Alright, lift up, my knight in shining armour.’’
I walk over to him with the most stupid grin plastered on my face. I have totally forgotten why I even ca here in the first place. I am supposed to be bringing him back. I am getting lost in all that he is. Fuck, he is a very good distraction. My arms wrap around him as I lift him off his feet. He squeaks as my arms engulf him till he is on the chair.
’’There we go,’’ I tell him proudly which gets a chuckle from him.
I sit down opposite him and he looks at and then at the plate in front of him. this is just a simple al; it is not a big deal but the expression on his face tells that it is to him. I want to get rid of that, I want him to expect these things. I don’t want them to be big deals anymore. He doesn’t have to owe for a fucking al. He should expect these things from now on.
’’Thank you for this,’’ he mouths as he shoves a piece of sausage down his throat.
I watch him, completely in awe of him. This little pup, so much stronger than every single person I know. He is a survivor. I’m glad he stuck it out, glad he didn’t give up. Now I can thank him for surviving.
’’I have to tell you sothing,’’ I manage not wanting to disrupt his al.
’’Is everything okay?’’ concern takes over his expression.
’’Yeah, I need to take you back ho?’’
His eyes open wide from shock and I realise that I didn’t phrase that properly. Shit.
’’Did I do sothing wrong, are you upset with ?’’ he rambles, trying to find a reason to my statent.
I jolt up from the chair because he is already panicking. I take his hands in mine to get him to focus on ’’Baby, just breathe. I said that wrong. Fuck, I am so stupid.’’
He stops panicking and watches with confusion ’’I am going to be staying in the community for a while. At least until everything is resolved. I want you with . I can’t leave you here alone.’’
’’Oh...’’
’’I am not sending you back there. That is not why I asked you. I just need to make sure you are close to all the ti. Does that even make sense?’’
He nods.
I cup his face in my palm ’’Don’t ever worry about that. Don’t even let it cross your mind. I ant everything I said. YOU ARE MINE.’’
I can’t stress those words enough. I want it to stick into his head. there shouldn’t be any wavering in his mind. all the worries and fear need to leave. I am here to stay.
I fucking love him.
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