(From Blue's Perspective)
"You belong to . So don't even try to run away. It's pointless, darling."
I wanted it to stop. It was not real. I was telling myself, but slowly, I could not even hear my own voice. It was as if the dream was pulling in, dulling all my senses.
"You're supposed to be mine, my wife. I don't want to hurt you. So, be a good girl and stay with ."
"It's not you," I said. "Please stop it. Co to your senses. It's not you."
"Ugh, I hate this. What sense? I don't understand the senses of people in this world. This world was never ant for . But you understand , don't you? I know you do, my wife.
Please be mine, darling. You can only be mine."
I did not know what happened next. When I opened my eyes again, I was on my bed and Ezekiel was sitting beside in a chair while Ruby was standing beside him.
"You're awake!" Ezekiel exclaid.
"... Did I faint?" I asked.
"Yes. It... It has been three hours," Ruby said. "We were really scared. The doctor ca and checked Your Highness up as well. We're so glad you're okay..."
She looked like she had even cried and Ezekiel looked pretty drained out. They must have got a big scare.
But what about ? How was I feeling? I had no idea... I did not know what that dream was about. It was as if those words were sucking in. More than his words, I was scared of that smile.
I did not want to see it again.
"What happened that ti? You were screaming and shaking," Ezekiel asked.
"I... It's nothing. I just had a weird dream," I smiled, though it was forced. "It's nothing, really. Ah, you haven't gone to the festival, have you?"
"How could we? Your Highness was sick," Ruby said.
"Where is Mother?" I asked. "She wanted to go..."
"Your Highness, your life is more important than the festival. Her Highness checked up on Your Highness a while ago. She told to take good care of Your Highness," Ruby said. "Your Highness should rest now. You look very pale."
"Yeah, my head hurts as well," I said. "I guess I will rest..."
"Do you want to be..."
"No," I said. "I would like to be alone. Please leave alone."
After they left, I sat on the bed and put my palms on my face. Yes, I just wanted to cry. And tears did not stop either, as if they were waiting for the mont I would let it all out.
It was hard to breathe. The air stuck in my throat did not want to get out at all and it was as if I was being suffocated. I did not like this feeling at all. I did not like the fact that I was scared of him rely because of a dream. But in truth, I was and I could not help but get even more scared.
That dream kept crawling inside my head. Every word was like a needle, his smile was like poison. I hated it. I wanted to escape it.
But what if it was a lie? What if it was just a dream? I knew that his love was excessive, but it did not go to this point, or I would have noticed. But why would I have a dream like this? He had never been like this to in real life.
I was confused. It was as if I was trying to convince myself of sothing I knew was a lie. And the more I thought about it, the more confusing it got. I just wanted it to stop. And for the first ti in all this ti I was here, I was kind of scared to et Detrius.
It was all because of the dream. We were okay. We were doing alright. I was happy with my husband. And just when I was having a good ti, that dream had to invade my mind.
"I just want to be happy. Is it too much to ask for?"
Perhaps happiness was not ant for . Just when I thought I was having a good ti, sothing had to happen. For the first ti in my life, I felt good being sowhere and I felt like I belonged there. Since childhood, I was like a burden. I was not welcod. At ho, my family did not want .
My father hated for being born. My mother hated as well for unknown reasons. My brother Draven hated as well. Only Maxen cared about . But even he could not stop them from hitting as they pleased. At school, I got good grades, but I did not have any friends.
People would talk to there, but I was not close with anyone.
Loneliness was sothing I had experienced since the mont I was born. I always stood alone. No one truly cheered on or helped move forward. I was just surviving, not living. No one cared if sothing happened to . And I was sure that if I was found dead soday, no one would care as well.
After I ca here, first I thought my life was finished for sure. I thought Detrius would make his slave. In that case, perhaps I would not even fear killing myself. But he married instead and spoiled like a princess. I did not know happiness was this sweet. He loved more than anything else and cared for .
Even when his love was excessive, I accepted him because I was not a normal woman either. I was greedy. I always wanted more. And nothing would ever be enough for .
Was it happening because I was greedy? Because I was never satisfied? But what could I do? I had never felt this way before. Perhaps that was why even the slightest touch of care made my heart flutter.
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