The Werewolf's Chapter 509: Second thoughts

Chapter 509: Second thoughts

Jabi

"You did it all on your own?’’ Rex asks

with shock written on his face.

I shrug my shoulders in response because it is not a big deal but there is this look on his face that tells

he is impressed.

"You know, that night that we were attacked by the vampires, I saw it in you. I knew you could fight your own battles." He smiles at

and I watch him as he rests his back on the couch.

He is here to make sure nothing happens to

but I don’t think there is any need for that.

"Thanks, I guess."

I look away from him and to the door, he has been gone for a couple of hours and I have been the worst host. I don’t actually want to talk about everything that happened with Lenny and the island. I want it to be a thing of the past but sohow, rex’s mission is to keep talking about it and reminding

of all the violating things he did to .

He wants to know how I was able to survive, he wants the nitty-gritty details of everything that happened and it is making

upset.

"What’s in a hybrids blood?" he asks .

I furrow my brows. I know that Rex is mated to a hybrid which just ans that he is probably curious about it because of Gyles.

I get that but I don’t want to talk about it.

"Can we talk about sothing else please?’’ I ask him.

He sits up on the chair and sighs in his usual sarcastic way.

"Fine, we can talk about sothing else. What do you want to talk about?’’ he smiles faintly. I can tell he wants to know more about the situation but I am at least glad that he is letting it go.

"Do you think it is a good idea to move back to the community?’’ I ask him because I am still not sure if it was a good idea to agree to the decision of moving.

He furrows his brows "You’re moving back here?’’

I shrug "I guess, Darrien wants

safe.’’

He nods his head in agreent "I guess he has a point. I an you could have died. I know how he feels.’’

I sigh because this is not what I want to hear. "I don’t want to be here,’’ I confess because it has been eating at

since Darrien brought it up today.

"Do you hate this place that much?’’ he asks

quietly.

I shake my head because hate is such a strong word but when I think about the community. I think about the place where my parents were murdered. I think about the place that abandoned

because of who I was. I don’t think about safety and protection.

I don’t know why he can’t see that.

I know he is scared but he just decided and didn’t even think to ask. I couldn’t say no because he didn’t give

the chance to say no and I didn’t want to upset him. "I’m sorry. I’m not trying to be rude but I don’t feel like this place is ho to . I have never felt that way.’’

He nods in understanding "This is the typical oga feeling. I know how you feel.’’

I scoff because he doesn’t know how I feel. He will never know how I feel because he always had Beau. I was the outcast. The one that Beau had to sneak food too. The one that was condemned to suffering.

"You don’t know how I feel,’’ I roll my eyes and look away from him because I don’t actually want to rehash all the bad things that have happened to . I don’t want to rember all the cold nights, alone, sad because I thought I would never be loved.

Darrien ca into my life and in a couple of etings, he showed

the kind of love I didn’t think I deserved. I don’t need anyone else but him.

"Because I lived with Beau?" he asks

calmly, not even taking any offense to my snapping.

"Yes, you had a family. He took care of you.’’

He smiles "He took care of you too,’’ he points out.

"He had to sneak food to

all the ti, they didn’t let

go hunting with you guys. It wasn’t the sa."

"Do you know all the things I went through? You can’t bla it on the community. Bla it on the older ones, Fallon did a lot of damage when he was in control with Rick. It is not the sa, I think you need to let it go. Things are not the sa anymore."

I shake my head because not only does he not understand but I can’t even explain it to him because I don’t understand it. I cannot and will not rehash all the things that happened because they are all in the past.

"I don’t want to be here; I don’t want to.’’ I finalize and he looks at

and I see the defeat in his eyes.

"Then talk to Darrien, don’t just keep it all inside you because it will co out and when it does, it might not be pretty."

"I know. I know I need to tell him but I font know how to. I just got back to him and I don’t want to ss that up.’’

"I just have one thing to say to you, no matter what you do, Darrien will still love you. So why not ease up on the guilt and be a good mate to him. Just talk to him and maybe you can compromise."

He is right but I know that I am too weak to just listen to him.

I don’t know how long I can stay in the community before he figures it out. I don’t know if I want to co back to the place that turned its back on .