Chapter 225: The call
Blue.
I open my eyes and I look around. The sun is out, the room is bright. I know where I am instantly but I don’t rember how I got here. I sit up on the bed and look around. The room is empty. Last night cos surging in and my heart pounds terribly. I didn’t want to rember everything but how can I forget the betrayal?
How can I forget all the words we shared amongst ourselves? The look on his face as I said those words. I have regrets but I can’t go back.
He hurt
so much and I don’t know how to go back from that.
He didn’t even think about
at all. He used
for his selfish reasons and now I am supposed to just accept him.
The door opens suddenly and I jump off the bed "Oh, you’re awake,’’ Rex walks into the room with a worried expression on his face. I don’t know if he knows everything that happened and frankly I don’t even know how I am supposed to tell him of this betrayal. Having sex with Gyles ruined everything and my decisions will always affect him. No matter how I see it. This thing is between three people, so we all have to make our own separate decisions. I want to ask him to choose
but I don’t know if his answer will go in my favour.
You can’t choose.
My wolf informs
of the one thing I already know. I don’t know how this thing work and I don’t know if I can handle everything because this is more than I even know. He said there will be consequences of having sex before the ritual, I want to know what those consequences are. I thought I had vast knowledge and I could sense things but my powers are useless when it cos to . I can’t do anything to help myself.
"How are you feeling now?’’ he walks over to
and places his palm on my forehead. "Your fever is gone,’’ he manages a faint smile. I look up at him. I am fishing for information silently because he must know already.
Right?
"You can just ask,’’ he states finally.
I sigh because I don’t know what to ask. He doesn’t seem angry with
and if the roles were reversed, I would be upset. What we did, we excluded him and that is not fair. Now that everything has happened, it feels even more like cheating. The fact that I have ruined the chances of all three of us together making it hurt even more.
"I am sorry,’’ I go for an apology because I feel like that is what he needs right now. I also need him to forgive . I shouldn’t have been as rash as I was yesterday.
"For what exactly. You have to be specific because I think you have a lot of things to be sorry for.’’ He breathes out coldly.
I don’t like the way he is right now but I can’t bla him. This is all my fault. At the end of this all, I am the one that caused the most damage. I shouldn’t have given in to Gyles. I shouldn’t have brought him into my room, knowing how I was around him. It was a mistake but there is nothing I can do now. it has already happened.
"Why did you tell him you rejected him?’’ is that all he can take from this, my rejection?
I sigh "Does that even matter anymore?’’
He nods "You can just go around rejecting your mate,’’ he says defensively.
I raise a brow and move away from him. He is really going to take Gyles’s side on this? I don’t even want to believe that is what is happening. It baffles
that he would think in this way.
"I don’t want to be with him anymore,’’ I tell him blatantly.
"You have no choice. We have no choice.’’
I laugh "He doesn’t want you. You will never accept us, so the sooner you get that into your head, the better.’’
I have been deceiving myself all this while. Thinking I would have a chance to make him mine but after last night, I don’t want to anymore. I don’t want to beg for his love and affection. It shouldn’t be this hard. He is not the first and he will never be the last, so why do I have to suffer for him?
"You had sex with him, he didn’t force you.’’
I knew he was going to say it like that and he is right. I chose to have sex with him—last night, I was excited. I wanted him so badly and the little attention he was giving , made
go crazy and it ended up ssing everything up.
"I didn’t know,’’ I tell him the truth.
He sighs "Deep down, you must have known Blue. You had to know that having sex with him would be wrong. I wasn’t there. So this is on the tow of you. Not just him.’’
He is fucking accusing
right now.
"This is not my fault, please don’t twist things and make
the bad guy," I beg him desperately. I need him more than anything right now. He is the only one I have on my corner. If he chooses to stick to Gyles’s side. I will have no one and I wouldn’t be able to survive it.
"I am not saying it is your fault—okay, maybe I am but I just need you to understand that we need to focus on a solution and not the problem. Can we do that?’’
"I don’t want to be with him again Rex. I am fucking done.’’
My wolf doesn’t agree with
but right now, I need to do this for myself. I have never been taken for a fool by anyone as much as I have with him. I hate that he manipulated
so much to the point where I did sothing that ssed everything up. He will only continue to use the power he has over
for as long as I let him and I am done letting him.
"You are breaking up with .’’
I shake my head "Not you. I don’t want to let you go. We can find a way to make this thing work with just the two of us.’’ I grab his hands in mine and squeeze them gently. I know I am putting him in a tough spot but it needs to be done. I t him first, I knew first. I can sever their bond.
There could be a spell.
"I am not choosing. I will rather die from heartbreak than choose.’’
Rex is the one that would suffer the most out of us. He needs us to survive, so in the end. I have to make him choose. I can’t let anything happen to him. He is too important to . I need him to be okay after everything.
I need to make sure of that.
"I am not going to let that happen,’’ I tell him.
He sighs "Then let us figure out how to appease the gods. I know that there are consequences but there will also be a way to get out of it. Let’s ask Alby and get to the bottom of it and then we can find a way to make it work.’’
He is trying to rationalize.
I can’t anymore.
"I can’t.’’
"Please Blue. Gyles made a mistake and he wants to make things right. You can’t just shut him off now, he needs us.’’
He is sympathizing with him.
Maybe because of all the things that he has been through. He doesn’t even know what he went through. The guy doesn’t even want to rember. What could he have gone through that would make him so fucked up.
I still can’t get over what he did.
It makes
mad.
So mad that I can’t even see myself getting over it anyti soon. I leave Rex, even more, sure that I don’t want Gyles anymore. He tried to convince
but I will not take it. I will not accept him. When I get to the house Jules looks up at
from the couch in the living room.
He is leaving tomorrow.
"Your phone has been blowing off,’’ he tells
"Your mother called ,’’ he says almost in confusion. They don’t have a relationship, so whatever she called him for must be important.
"What did she want?" I ask him as he hands
my phone.
"I took it from your room. You should call her back.’’ He informs
as I collect the phone from him. There is a look of worry on his face. Almost like he knows sothing that I don’t. I walk to my room and dial her number imdiately. Soone else answers.
Her sister Levine.
The minute I hear her voice, I know that sothing.
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