Chapter 204: Let
help you
Gyles.
"You are the most selfish person I have ever seen. I tell you everything and you still bla
for killing him,’’ the man shouts—my supposed father. The person that locked
up in a basent. Has been keeping
prisoner for God knows how long. I am weak, I feel like a corpse and he is talking to
like I have the energy to pity his story.
"I don’t care about you,’’ I tell him honestly.
He runs his hands through his hair in disbelief. He expects
to just welco him with open arms. Yeah, he said I am his son and that might be true but all my life, I was told that my father abandoned
and I just can’t take his word for anything. I knew the wolves were going to attack. We were prepared for it. father always told us that if the ti ca, we had to all fight together, as a family. That is why I had to let Roger go. I made a promise that I had to keep and now, this man that is claiming to be my father just wants
to believe him and forget everything I have always known.
I can’t just forgive him for killing the only father I have ever known. I don’t want to know about his past. I don’t want to know about being a wolf.
"You will never leave this basent. At least until you co back to your senses,’’ he walks closer to .
"I will never be a wolf. I will never be one of you,’’ I seethe out those words and they are from the bottom of my heart. I won’t just accept them this way. They could have taken
without killing anyone. They fought fire with fire and I am not even saying I believe him. I don’t even know what I believe anymore.
"I will show you everything. I will feed you with the mories I took from your godfather. My best friend betrayed
with your father. I will show you everything since you choose to be blind to my honesty." He grabs my head and I close my eyes because I don’t want to see what he has to show .
It is too late because I already challenged him and there is no going back. the mories flood my mind. The killings, the conversations, the plans. Everything that he said he would show
and no matter how hard I try to push him out, he just goes deeper. He pushes into my mind and evades my privacy.
I open my eyes again. This is the second night in a row that I have been unable to sleep. This ti is worse because I wasn’t with Blue and Gyles. I was in a world that I don’t even want to rember. I don’t know all the things that happened to
in that basent. I only rember the bits and pieces but as each day goes by, I get another mory. My heart thuds against my chest as I take deep breaths to try and forget it all but no matter how hard I try, they are engraved in my mind.
"Fuck,’’ I run my hands through my hair as I stand up from the bed. It is late at night. Everyone is probably asleep. Beau and his people kinda sleep early in the community. So if I have to leave my room, I have to tiptoe around the house. Right now, I am thirsty. I haven’t been drinking a lot of blood ever since Rex. in fact, I haven’t had any. Maybe that is what woke my wolf up. I an when I stopped drinking blood, he started talking a lot. It is weird that I keep saying my wolf.
Cause I am yours.
My wolf pipes up for the first ti today. He has been awfully quiet all day.
I miss them.
I miss them too.
Admitting that to myself doesn’t hurt. I miss Rex and surprisingly, I miss Blue too—even though I don’t know the guy. That dream has been haunting . I have been craving his touch. Wanting sothing from him—anything.
I walk out of my room quietly and go into the kitchen. I grab a bottle of water from the fridge and walk out of the house. I need fresh air right now to clear my thoughts. I have been wanting to rember what happened in that basent but now I am not so sure anymore. It feels like the mories will just bring pain. I don’t know how I feel about that anymore. I walk all the way to the field and then I gulp down the whole bottle of water and lie down on the grass. The crescent moon is out. It looks like it is about to be full. A full moon.
My wolf screams to co out. I can feel him trying to but I don’t know how to do this. I don’t know how to give him what he wants.
I hear footsteps that make
get up imdiately. I look at the person and my heart calms down a bit.
"It is just ,’’ he raises his hands up in surrender.
No matter what he says, he crept up on . what are the odds that Blue would be outside late at night at the sa ti as ? I don’t know how I feel about that "I swear I didn’t co out here because I knew you were here,’’ he says.
"Are you reading my mind?’’ I ask him because I have to. I did it with Rex, so he could be doing the sa thing.
He smiles, it warms my heart "Sadly, I don’t have that ability but I can sense things. I sense a lot from you right now,’’ he confesses and I like his honesty.
I sit back down on the grass and he walks even closer "Do you mind if I sit down next to you?’’ I look at him with a raised brow. I don’t know what he is doing or why he wants to sit down next to
but I actually don’t mind. My wolf is already excited, so why not give him what he wants.
"Sure,’’
He obeys and I watch him as he sits a couple of inches away from . I can see him make a conscious effort not to touch . if I move slightly, our shoulders would touch. Would I mind that?
No, you won’t.
"What do you sense?’’ I ask nervously. Maybe this is just
striking up a conversation, or actually wanting to talk to him because it is him. I don’t know but this is a good distraction.
"I sense your wolf. He is crying to co out,’’ he tells .
I already know that.
Then let
out.
My wolf pleads.
"I don’t know how to. I don’t know what to do,’’ I confess because I might as well tell soone. This is not about Blue is easy to confide in. this is not about the fact that he is my mate. This is not about any of that. He is here and that is why I am telling him.
"Do you want
to help?’’ he asks. I sense the eagerness in his tone. He wants to do this with
or should I say—for .
"I don’t think that is a good idea,’’ I pipe in knowing that Rex might not like this. I don’t even know if things are cool with them. I just wish he would talk to
but I have also been avoiding him.
"Rex told
everything,’’ he looks at
with a guilty expression on his face. I was thinking about rex and he brought him up.
"Are you sure you are not reading my mind?’’ I have to ask because now that it is happening to , it doesn’t feel nice.
He laughs "I swear I am not,’’ the smile remains on his face "I just feel a lot from you.’’ He adds. I don’t know how I feel about that. His words are doing things to . things that I don’t want to like but like a lot.
"Okay,’’ I give him a one-word answer.
He nods "So, can I be of service?’’ he repeats.
"Will rex be okay with that?’’ I ask because I need to make sure he wouldn’t be pissed.
"Do you know what is happening between us?’’
I furrow my brows.
"You had that dream last night, didn’t you?’’
I open my eyes wide. I don’t know what to say. if he was in that dream, then he rembered all the things we did. He knows how I really feel about him.
Fuck.
"Don’t overthink this. there is no pressure G." He reaches for
but I move away so fast that he retracts his hand away imdiately.
"G?’’ I manage.
He smiles but doesn’t try to touch
again. "You don’t have to panic. There is no pressure here. I just wanted you to know that Rex wouldn’t be upset about this. in fact, he would want this."
I don’t know what to say.
’’Just say yes,’’ he reads my mind—senses my mind.
I have no option.
I need soone to help
and I like being around Blue. He makes
feel alive. He makes
feel happy.
My mate.
"Okay,’’ I agree because that is the only answer.
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