10,000th Ti
“Stop! Please don’t kill !”
I don’t plug my ears.
I’m going to kill Haruaki Usui.
He’s the one who suggested it, after all.
I kxxx Haruaki Usui.
That’s when I disappear. The who was once Kasumi Mogi is gone. I have no hope of finding the version of myself that was ground to dust by the agony of this place and scattered to the wind. My body keeps reviving, regardless. It always cos back, even though there’s nothing left of inside.
I feel sothing entering the empty space within . Sothing vile born from this Box. Sothing grotesque beyond belief with a putrid sll like that of countless dead bugs covered in feces. I try to keep it out. I try again and again. But I know that even if I do, this thing will still worm its way in through the holes in my defenses. It’ll tear at my weaknesses like a hyena, devouring those portions and dyeing pitch-black. Once they’re finished with , I’ll no longer know who I am. I’ll beco a doppelgänger.
But not even that is enough to make put an end to the Rejecting Classroom.
I still need to greet today with no regrets.
A today where I have no regrets?
“Ah-ha-ha…”
What a fool I am. There’s no such thing. This is my afterlife. No matter what I do here, it’ll never be enough to sever the ties binding to the real world. Even Kazu professing his love to will be aningless. What can I do to satisfy myself in a world that’s completely disconnected, a world with no links to anywhere else? I can’t think of any ideas.
The outco I desired…
I struggled on for so, so long in search of this outco within the overriding stagnation of this world.
But the truth is I didn’t even know what I was looking for.
I fumbled along in ignorance for so ti before eventually reaching the conclusion that the outco I sought didn’t exist.
“I want to live.”
Oh, is that it? I finally understand.
So that was my wish.
That also explains why my wish will remain just that—an unfulfilled desire—for all eternity.
My inability to understand all of this warped the Box.
This distorted wish transford into an obsession that couldn’t be dispelled. It will always be here as long as I’m in the Box.
So the fixation remains, spurring the false into unceasing action. That’s how I know that, even if I were to vanish, the Box will never, ever end.
27,755th Ti
“I’ll never leave you in this place by yourself!”
Kazu’s words were enough to montarily bring back the Kasumi Mogi that had been lost.
“I’m so stupid.”
I once made a decision. When all of this started, I told myself that if I lost sight of my purpose, I had to destroy the Box with my own hands before my shaful actions ca to light.
But the sheer, overwhelming number of loops in this ceaseless world wore my determination down, diluting it to the point of nonexistence.
All hope of ever returning should have faded back when I murdered soone whose na I can no longer even recall.
But then…
“With just a few words, a few simple words, I…”
…I was brought back.
My love saved at the very, very end.
But I know that while I’ve returned for this mont, I’ll lose control again soon.
The Box will consu , both in mind and body.
That’s why I have to kill myself…while I’m still Kasumi Mogi.
“Good-bye, Kazu.”
And that’s how my Box, which couldn’t bring happiness—even though it could have been so easy—cos to an end.
I die lying atop the one I love. This could be a blessing in itself. I’m okay with this. Yes, this is perfectly fine.
I close my eyes, sure that they’ll stay closed forever…
“No one said you could die, you know.”
Surprised, I open them again.
Before stands the mysterious being that gave the Box. Kazu’s eyes must be locked on , because he doesn’t seem aware of the presence.
A calm smile greets as I et the figure’s gaze.
“I’m not through observing that boy there. I can’t have you putting an end to this wonderful opportunity for unlimited study I’ve worked so hard to arrange.”
What? …What are they talking about?
“Hmm, it might not be enough if we keep to the sa routine we have been, though… This goes against my principles, but I’m going to need to borrow that Box of yours for a second. A few adjustnts are necessary. You were trying to break it anyway, so you don’t mind, do you?”
Without waiting for a response, the being places a hand upon my chest.
“Agh! Aaaaah!!! Aaaaaaaaah!!!”
I’m instantly filled with agony beyond anything I could imagine. The pain is unbearable, even though I’ve gotten used to being hit by trucks and didn’t even cry out when I stabbed myself in the chest with a knife. This sensation is an entirely different variety. It’s like having my very soul cut to shreds. It’s the sort of pain nothing can alleviate, as if it’s being applied directly to my nerves.
The being smiles as they pull the palm-sized Box from my chest.
“You most likely already know this, but this Box won’t work without you anymore. I’m going to have to put you inside it.”
With those words out of the way, the being begins to fold up.
I’m doubled over, doubled again, and then put inside the Box.
Kazu. Please, Kazu.
I know what I’m asking is selfish. I know it’s laughable to think I have the right to ask anything of you after all I’ve done. But…I can’t… I can’t take it anymore…
Help , Kazu…
27,756th Ti
I have to put an end to the Rejecting Classroom and return all our lives to normal.
What’s the hardest part of achieving this goal?
Encountering a crazy obstacle, perhaps? Like having to tightrope between two buildings using a piece of kite string? Or repeating the sa day a hundred thousand tis?
Maybe not. All of those are hurdles I can figure out how to clear. No matter how impossible they may seem, with an infinite amount of ti on my hands, I could feasibly acquire the skills needed to overco them.
No, the hardest part is being unable to tell what I’m up against. If I don’t even know where to start, then I’m just stuck. What’s more, ti doesn’t pass within the confines of the Rejecting Classroom. No matter what kind of a jam I’m in, I’ll never be able to rely on ti to solve the problem.
I’m facing the most difficult of situations right now.
“What’s the matter, Hosshi? You seem a bit off today.”
It’s our first period break.Haruaki has an easy smile as he speaks to .
Class has only just ended, so everyone is still in the room.Mogi is in her seat. All thirty-eight of my classmates are here.
I rack my mind for reasons why everyone who was rejected is here again, only to find I have almost no recollection of the previous transfer. I get the feeling I made an important discovery, but for the life of , I can’t rember anything.
That’s fine. I can handle that.
If I did find out sothing of imnse importance last ti, I can always do it again.
I’m a bit mystified by the return of my classmates, but that doesn’t change what I have to do.
That isn’t the problem at all.
“Ugh, I’m so bored today… Nothing ever changes.”
Nothing ever changes.
Kokone’s words spark a dull pain in my chest.
I don’t want to believe it. I can’t accept the situation before .
“Hey, Daiya.”
As if issuing a plea for help, I call out to my friend.
He remains sitting, turning only his head to look at .
“Have you heard anything about a transfer student arriving today?”
Despite my faint hope that he would nod, my question is unfortunately t with the exact frown and retort I expect.
“Huh? What the hell are you talking about?”
I knew it. Aya Otonashi will no longer “transfer.”
I’m totally on my own now.
Sure, I can find the owner of the Box, but what am I supposed to do after that? Take the Box from them? Destroy it? How am I supposed to go about doing either of those things?
Before, I thought I was working alongside Maria to solve this mystery, but that was nothing more than my pride talking. The truth is that I was totally reliant on Maria, and without her here, I have no clue what to do.
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