"Just because I do not fuck you?" The way he says it with that tone of his has freeze in my path to the main door. He knows. He knows what he is doing wrong and yet he continues to do so.
I spin around to et him my discontentnt with his male advancing with each second. "Yes. But also because of many other reasons."
"And what other reasons are they that you have suddenly felt that I am your male no more?"
"You do not love anymore." My heart clenches painfully at what I utter, never in my life would I have thought that I would be made to feel and say such a thing.
Phobos scoffs as though he finds my words to be ridiculous and laughable. "I do not love you? Love is not always about sex and passion. Sotis it is the little things that matter and you know this. I have shown you, my love in nurous ways. I was prepared to give up my life if it ant I could find you and you could return safely back ho.
I take care and provide for Tadeas and you."
"For ...love is you calling by all the pet nas you created that portray to you. For , love is you sleeping with on our bed. For , love is cooking together and spending ti with one another. For , love is a cabin filled with warmth and laughter a place I want Tadeas to grow up in. For , love is having you close to at all tis and of course having sex with you.
For , love is what we once had but have lost along the way."
Phobos's breath hitches to my truth and I shake my head peering up at the ceiling with bleary eyes willing myself to not spare a single tear for the heartless male of mine. "Everything we once had, everything we have beco...I despise comparing them but I seem to harbour no choice. You leave with no choice. I have had enough of this, Phobos. I just want to be...happy. Are you not sick of this?
This endless push and pull between us? Do you not seek for peace between us?"
"I am at peace and I am happy and will be as long as I have Tadeas and you. You both are the reason I stand in front of you at this mont. The reason I am alive and well."
"But I am not! I have neither and you as my male are denying this."
"What do you want from ?"
"You! I do not want anything else but just you." I yell loud enough so he can not simply hear but also feel .
"You have , Theia. You will always have for I am yours. My life is yours. My soul is yours, everything I possess belongs to you." He cradles my face his eyes softening but I move away from him.
"No. You do not know it but I have lost you. Ever since I returned you have had this look in your eyes. This...fake distrusting look and it hurts ." I bang my fist against my chest and allow a sole tear to slip out. "It kills , Phobos. You kill ."
"Drahá." I gasp studying him with shock and he smiles warmly taking another step forward towards my dying heart.
"What is this? Are you simulating your affection for ? Why would you choose to call that right when I am breaking apart? So you can build up strengthen just so you can single-handedly ruin again?"
"No, of course not. You have once more mistaken and I shall-" This male is truly malicious. This ti I will not be weak, this ti I will not submit to his charms. This ti I will be what I was born to be. A queen.
"I had always thought that my entire happiness was you was having you to myself but I was wrong. What I failed to see was that I needed to learn to be happy by myself. I needed to love myself foremost to put myself first above everything else most of all above the one who has my soul. Above you. You do not complete you do not make whole, Phobos. I, Theia am whole with or without you."
"What does this an? What are you saying? I do not understand. I will never let you leave again if this is what you are implying. You belong to !" He bellows stepping towards at full speed and I continue to stand there observing his fear of losing once more surfacing from behind barriers to shackle him.
"Do not worry I will never flee this land again, I will never abandon my duties or my wolves ever again but know this when it cos to you. I can leave you and our matebond even while being in the sa cabin together. I do not want to hurt you again but more than that I do not want to be weak and allow myself to get wounded by your inhumane actions."
"Theia." He hooks onto my jaw forcing to et his terrified eyes as he endeavours to read . He is scared, very scared and though it does not fully reveal itself I witness it clearly.
"I will give you a choice Phobos and while I spend my ti outside you will sit in here and carefully choose one. I can give you ti but I do not wish to for I have given you plenty over the past months."
"What choice do you wish for to make?"
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