The Alpha's Fated Outcast: Rise Of The Moonsinger. Chapter 116 116: Fated together

Ramsey

The confession hung in the air as she stared at . I felt as if a heavy weight had been lifted off my shoulders. Almost when I thought she wasn't going to respond, she scoffed.

"Love? You? The sa man who rejected countless tis. The sa Ramsey who pushed away, who made feel like I was nothing? Do you even know what you're talking about?'

My face tightened. "You don't understand," I began but she cut off.

"I have all the ti, please enlighten ," she demanded. "What exactly do I not understand? How you've treated ? How you've made feel?"

My hands clenched and unclenched at my sides as I tried to stifle my emotions.

"Everything I did back then was to protect you,"

She laughed, "Protect ? From what? From myself? From your own feelings? From our mate bond?"

"From ," I said softly. "I was scared to love my mate. I an, I was going to settle with a woman but I never had plans to do that with my mate. I've seen first-hand what happens if soone loses their mate. My grandfather… he…" I trailed off taking a deep breath.

"When my grandmother died, he tried to kill himself severally and my parents had just died a few months ago. I spent my years as a preteen looking after him, always being on the edge that one day I'll walk in and see him lying lifeless… dead…" I swiped at the tears that gathered at the corner of my eyes.

"I thought if I pretended that the mate bond didn't exist, that I would forget about you."

"You think pushing away protects ?" she asked. "You think breaking my heart was so noble act or as a result of so childhood trauma?"

I stepped closer. "Every ti I got close to you, every mont I allowed myself to feel, I was reminded of how cruel living as a Lycan was. I didn't want you to suffer. If they knew about us, they would use you against . Being a Lycan leader is a precarious situation."

"So, you decided to hurt first?" her voice cracked. "You decided that your public image in this perfect world of the Lycans was more important than my feelings?"

The tension heightened in the room. I reached out, almost involuntarily, my fingers nearly touching her face before I pulled back.

"I thought I was saying you," I whispered. "I thought the distance was the only way to keep you from their backlash."

Her eyes glistened with unshed tears. "And now?" she asked. "Now that you've decided to love and tell you love ? Because you're still a Lycan Leader, perfection is still important in this world… What changed?"

"Everything changed. You're the Moonsinger, Lyla… no one would object to us being mates, if anything, they'll welco it. We can finally be together."

She stared at for a few seconds and then laughed with tears rolling down her eyes. "I am a fool," she murmured still laughing. "I forgot how good you were at hurting . How every ti we et you always look for a new way to hurt , to give reasons why we should never be together."

"C'mon, Lyla… we can be together. If you accept this gift… you'll complete and I you and the power of the White Moon Throne will be unlocked."

She shook her head. "So, you love because I an sothing now, right? Because although I have other identities like deviant and wolfless but being a Moonsinger outweighs them right?"

"The way you make it sound… that's not what I an…."

"That's exactly what you an, Ramsey," she sniffed. "The day I stop being the Moonsinger you'd discard again, right? So, let's do what we're best at doing…rejecting each other."

"Lyla… you don't understand. That's not what I an," I rushed on. "I an, no one would…"

"I, Lyla Woodland reject you Alpha Ramsey as my mate and accept your rejection…"

I felt so helpless seeing her standing there crying. I didn't know what to do because yet again she misunderstood.

What I ant was, that no one would see reasons to hurt her. That being a Moonsinger would an no one would whisper behind her back, that she can finally walk with her head held high…

"I hope we don't make this a habit, Ramsey because I'm going to keep rejecting you. Excuse ."

She turned to leave and sothing inside snapped…

I reached out for her and grabbed her, wrapping my hands around her form. "Lyla, please…" I begged. "You know damn well what I an and I'm sorry if you think I only want you now because you're a Moonsinger, I've always wanted you… gods! I've wanted you every day for the past four years… I've wanted you since you ca back… I lie in my bed every night, dreaming of this mont, of having you in my arms and sharing my sunrise and sunset with you. Please…"

"Let go, Ramsey," she said coldly. "You're not doing a favour and if you cannot love and accept for who I am first, I'll constantly be forced to keep up your expectations so you don't wake up one morning and regret eting . So, Nah… I'm good."

"Lyla…" I pulled away from her, making her face . "Is this about Nathan? I apologized, I said I was sorry but I was frantic. I needed you…"

"For your gratification, for your Wolf!" she yelled. "Anything to make you feel better to take care of that itch in your pants. You didn't look for because you cared so much about , Ramsey… You didn't do it because you couldn't stand being away from … you did it for yourself… to soothe your heart… my constant presence calms your wolf, keeps you grounded and maybe once in a while... sex... What about ? Have you stopped to think about what I want? What will I stand to gain if agree and be with you?"

I ran my hands through my hair "Lyla… baby… that's not true…"

"When will you put first?!" she cried, her voice carrying throughout the hall. "Why am I in constant competition with laws and traditions made by dead people? When will you do it because it's and it'll make happy? When will I matter?"

Her chest was heaving now, and tears were rolling down her eyes uncontrollably.

"Fine," she threw her hand up in the air "I get it… I have no wolf, I lost my powers because I was careless and maybe I will settle for anyone who shows the slightest attention… I want to be happy. I want to know that soone loves for and not because I can sing and spew silver lights from my fingertips. I want to know that soone loves because I cannot give anything but myself… I deserve to be happy…"

She swiped at her face angrily, closed her eyes and took a deep breath. When she opened them, she t my gaze.

"Fine… I cannot deny that there's still sothing between us but I need you to break off your engagent with Cassidy, tell everyone that we're fated together and I'll be with you."