I also wasn’t sure what Prince Leonard’s reaction would be if I were to make such a selfish request even though I had nothing to offer him in return. Even the one thing that I thought that I could offer him, I couldn’t achieve no matter how hard I tried.
“What are you thinking about? You’re suddenly so quiet,” the prince asked while his large manly hands continued to stroke my back.
“It’s nothing,” I murmured softly in reply.
“It’s clearly not nothing, right?” The prince asked knowingly.
He was right that there were so many things going on in my head, but it was just so hard for to put them into words in fear that my words might be used against or that they may lead to so kind of misunderstanding between us.
“You know, you can trust , Mila. Just go ahead and tell what you’re thinking,” the prince suggested.
I sucked in a deep breath as I told myself to remain calm while I made up my mind to be honest with the prince.
“I’m scared,” I confessed very softly.
“What are you scared of?” The prince asked .
“I’m scared of losing you...” I replied in the most simplest of terms that I could use to summarize what it was that I was feeling.
To my surprise, it wasn’t so hard to break down my fears into a few words. That was truly what I was scared of, I was scared of losing the prince.
“How could you possibly lose ?” The prince asked as if he had no idea what I was talking about.
“If I can’t get pregnant, I think I will lose you sooner or later,” I replied as a wave of sadness washed over .
“Is that honestly what you think?” The prince asked challengingly.
I so badly wanted to tell him how I wished that things could be different.
“I don’t know. I feel like if I can’t have your child then soone else will have to do the job,” I replied with what I had in mind.
If the result and the outco needed to be the sa and I couldn’t deliver, then it was obvious that soone else would have to deliver that particular outco. It seed like there was simply no other way out.
“I think you’re overthinking things, Mila. As I’ve always told you, there is no need for to produce an heir. Now that both my brothers are closer to the goal, I feel that the pressure on has lessened incredibly if anything,” the prince explained to patiently.
“But this isn’t just about what you think. Your father and the committee mbers and everyone else who is waiting for you to produce an heir as well,” I replied as I began feeling even more frustrated than before.
“Then they will just have to wait until we are ready,” the prince replied.
“I just feel so pressured. Now both of your brothers have children of their own on the way, so I just feel...” I said before trailing off.
“Don’t let the pressure get to you. It doesn’t matter what happens for other people, we can go at our own pace. I’ve told you many tis before, I am not in a rush at all about this,” the prince continued to reassure .
“But I know that the king is very impatient about this. Also, if they manage to produce an ultimate alpha first, then you won’t get to be the next king,” I pointed it out.
“That should be the least of your concern, to be honest. Firstly, it is extrely difficult to produce an ultimate alpha. I wouldn’t be surprised at all if both Regina and Selena fail to produce an ultimate alpha. If I were you, I would be praying for the safe delivery of their child rather than worrying about anything else. Secondly, I’ve told you before that I’m not exactly interested in taking over the position as king. Darius will definitely do a better job, not to talk about the fact that he was born before . If you ask , the throne should be rightfully his,” Prince Leonard replied with reasons of his own.
“I just feel that nothing will ever be enough for the king. As long as an ultimate alpha hasn’t been born, he would do everything to increase the chances and that would an...” I shared with him my thoughts before I couldn’t bring myself to complete my own sentence.
“Is that what you’re so worried about?” Prince Leonard asked as he seed to finally grasped the true aning behind my worries.
I nodded my head slightly as I started to feel embarrassed of my own selfishness. Even though I knew that I wasn’t good enough, I was still too selfish to share the prince with anyone else. It seed that I had gotten used to getting my way from all the tis that the prince had spoiled rotten, and now I couldn’t seem to let go of my greed.
“I know that this is wrong...” I murmured as I kept my eyes casted downwards.
I could feel the prince’s gaze resting on my downturned face but I didn’t dare et his eyes. I felt very ashad and now that the prince had finally found out about my selfish desires, I was certain that he must be repelled by it.
“There’s nothing wrong with what you’re feeling, Mila. You don’t have to look so depressed and worried, if anything, I quite enjoy seeing you acting this way,” the prince said with a slightly teasing tone in his voice.
I couldn’t stop the sudden wave of confusion that entered my mind because I couldn’t quite understand what the prince was saying.
How could he possibly find this shaless and selfish feeling of mine to be amusing?
“ I know that I shouldn’t feel this way, but I can’t seem to stop myself and for that I feel so guilty...” I confessed in a small voice.
“There’s nothing for you to feel guilty about because what you’re feeling isn’t sothing wrong. Even I feel the sa way about you,” the prince said before grinning my way.
“What do you an?” I asked as my voice quivered with emotions.
A warm sensation sprung up in my chest and I realized that I suddenly felt hopeful that the prince might share my feelings.
–To be continued...
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