Chapter 244 – COULD A PERSON LOVE TWO PEOPLE?
After letting Lana rest, Madi pecked her lips for one last ti, she sped out of the room, following him.
He had been avoiding her ever since her proposal to Lana. He had been avoiding to even making eye contact with her for a brief period either.
She saw him in the lobby, walking away, so she strode forward, in determination to get answers out of him for his damning ignorance on her.
"Hey?"
She called out and he tilted his head a bit back to see her. She stopped on her track and so did he, looking at her.
But then he rolled his eyes and resud to walking forward. It annoyed her to no extent and so she ran up to him and held his right wrist.
"What is wrong with you?"
She whispered out, only for him to hear. He still did not turn to look back at her. She tightened her hold against his wrist so that he could not slip out of her.
"What is wrong with ?? Is that what you ask??"
John gritted his teeth, questioning her back a second later when he could see that she was not letting go of him, taking full advantage of the fact that they were outside, in the lobby and he could not inappropriately with her.
"Let's talk sowhere private!"
She proposed and he inhaled sharply. He looked around and snatched his wrist out of her hold.
"Lead the way!"
He said and she was about to walk back in the direction of the sa empty storage room, but he held her back. He was not going to go in there ever again.
"Not there…."
"Then where??"
She asked, irritated that he was behaving like that to her. As if they had no brief history together, which they had shared for a long ti now.
"Follow !"
And after walking for a while, in the direction of going outward. Madi suddenly held his hand and pulled to the side, quickly opening the door and pushing him inside, closing the door.
"What the actual fuck!!"
He snapped at her. She did bring him back to the sa storage room. He could not even wonder that they were going in the sa direction.
"Then where do you suggest we go?"
Madi questioned him back, folding her hands against her chest, challenging him to say it otherwise.
"What do you want??"
John implored, not liking to be alone with her at all. Because every ti they were alone in a place, things were ant to go wrong.
"What do you think I want?? "
Madi retorted him back with the sa tone. She could see that he was having a very hard ti in controlling his anger around her.
"Why does it matter what I think you want?? You have always done and said what you wanted!! You have never cared about or Lana or anyone else but you…that is how much selfish you are, Madison Maria…so so fucking selfish!!"
He roared the last part, out of frustration. He had never at any point in his life felt so vulnerable and helpless in any circumstances so far apart from the ti when his parents were gone…dead and he had to cater for both his younger sister and the company.
Nobody said anything for a few seconds. Silence lood over the room just as the darkness as nobody desired to switch the lights on.
They were the best talking in the dark. The darkness would help them from matching eyes or having to look at each other.
"You are not happy for Lana and ?"
It was what ca out of her mouth, and he closed his eyes as that was really the truth…he was not happy…not happy to see the woman he loved, had fallen for was marrying soone else.
John strode forward and stood before her, towering over her short fra and holding onto her shoulders, he let out.
"No!! I m not!"
And that felt like a major blow to Madison. What she had been thinking for so long, speculating for so long, turned out to be true.
All along, she had been suspecting that. He did confess his love to her and if he did really love her, he ought to get hurt and jealous.
But what she did not know was what to do??
Should she be happy that he felt that way?? Missed her??
Or should she feel miserable that she could no longer turn back ti and comfort him??
"I could never be happy knowing your engagent with soone else…even if it is with my own sister."
John truthfully declared, boring his eyes deep into hers, hoping that she would understand the way he was feeling at that mont.
She raised her hands up and cupped his big face in between her palms. He closed his eyes, her touch always affected him so much…just like his re presence did wonders to her.
It had been a mystery to her as to what she felt for him…how strong was their pull that made her to betray her one true love to be with him?
Yet how strong it had to be for her to feel no guilt and keep running back to him…to feel his warmth and embrace?
Being with Lana and the world, she felt all of them judging her, looking down at her, the guilt would engulf her whole form to the point of strangling her to exhaustion.
She would die if not for him…if not for his presence, coming to save her, pull out from all that judgental stares and guilt of betraying her own lover.
Could she love one person a little less than choosing to be with another?
For her, it was clear that she loved Lana more than anything, and that their love would never fade.
It never did but she ended up cheating with another man even so in love with her.
What did it an?? What did her actions an??
She was not ntally unfit?? Was she?
It felt like that constantly trying to juggle between the wrong one and the right one.
Yet she for this ti, had been unable to make up her mind. She needed to be with Lana, she could not go without her smile but when he would appear, she could not hold herself back from running to his arms.
Where did she go wrong??
What happened to true love never letting off the hook??
Could she be then in love with the two people?
She had tried to ask that to herself so many tis by then. It was a crystal that it was not just lusting what she felt for him…it was more than that.
But if they were all put in the sa room, she would still choose to be with her, Lana…yet turn around and extend her other hand for him to hold onto.
"Is it possible to love two instead of just one?"
It was a re whisper but he heard her in that darkness. It was a question, coming straight out of her vulnerable and scared heart.
It was a side of her, she was letting it out to him, trusting that she would not judge her, hoping to find comfort in his arms even after that.
The dilemma…John could understand but not again at the sa ti. One thing that he could clearly see was the struggle in her eyes…the constant battle she was fighting in her head.
"You chose her…you will always do it."
He replied and she sighed, getting the hurt in his voice. She would hurt too if she saw him with soone who was not her. She would burn in hell if it were to ever happen.
"And I will always co to you too."
She replied. He did not understand how could this work?? Neither does he want to be her second choice…a fucking rebound in the darkness, behind the closed door, locked away from the outside world.
"I do not want to be your rebound…I will not settle for second best, Madison!"
He declared and she imdiately held him tightly, afraid that he would leave her.
He was not a second-best to her…neither a rebound. He was so much more to her that he was failing to understand or she was not being able to depict to him.
"How could I show you what you an to ?"
She questioned and it was for the first ti, she was begging for him to stay in their entire history of hide and seek relationship.
"Be mine!"
It was a straightforward answer. He peeked into her orbs, expecting hopefully that she would give in.
He knew that there would be no one for him but her. He was so duped into her that there was no escape he could see.
"I m yours…behind the closed doors, always yours!"
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