Chapter 225: Chapter 225: The Past of Song Xiner Chapter 225: Chapter 225: The Past of Song Xiner The next morning, Fang Lanlan followed Feng Zhekai to the hospital, while Cheng Yang went off to work.
Gu Pan and Lu Ruisheng headed to the comrcial district to check out the sales of blackout curtains.
Gu Pan brought her cara; she still had the habit of docunting these things. She believed that the photos she took and these records might beco precious historical images in the years to co.
Lu Ruisheng felt the sa; he had also grown fond of recording everything about the apocalypse. Perhaps years later, when everything returned to normal, these experiences would remain indelible.
By the ti they arrived at the mall, a long line had already ford, stretching far from the entrance.
Many people, after arriving at the base, had let their guard down and preferred to follow the directions from the base authorities.
Of course, that wasn’t necessarily a bad thing; after all, following the commands of higher-ups hardly ever led to serious mistakes.
So people, with foresight, had already bought these items.
At the entrance, they ran into Yang Jia and Chen Fengzhou who were there to buy candles. They believed what Gu Pan had said; thus, they prepared in advance, taking advantage of the continuous daylight to buy candles at a cheaper price and without any purchase limits.
After exchanging greetings with Gu Pan and Lu Ruisheng, the two quickly entered the mall.
Gu Pan looked at Lu Ruisheng with a smile, “They really trust us a lot.”
Lu Ruisheng smiled as well, “Indeed.”
They didn’t push their way into the crowded mall since they didn’t need to buy anything. They had simply co to look around and take so photos.
Gu Pan’s photography skills had improved markedly, or in her words, the angles were more like those of a photojournalist capturing the essence of the era.
Looking at the people before them, perhaps history wouldn’t record their nas, but they each left a mark in the stream of history.
After taking so photographs, they left the mall and headed back.
Crossing the road to the residential area, there were far fewer people around because of the perpetual daylight. Apart from those going to work or out to buy blackout fabric, most people spent these days at ho figuring out how to make their nights darker and their bodies feel better.
Approaching a bulletin board, a voice from behind caught their attention. Song Xiner’s overbearing tone was easily recognizable. If not for her distinctive voice, Gu Pan and Lu Ruisheng wouldn’t have felt so compelled to listen in on soone else’s argunt. However, since it was Song Xiner, they were curious to hear what was happening—it wasn’t eavesdropping if it was in public.
Song Xiner’s voice was incredibly shrill, “Song Maner, why? Why do I have to live in misery because of you while you act so innocent and sensible? Do you even know how sick that makes feel?” Her voice was laced with screaming, occasionally breaking.
The girl called Song Maner replied with a tone full of helplessness, “Why do you insist it was my fault? We were being robbed; mom and dad went to draw those people away and told us to et at the school entrance, but you wanted to go to the mall to look for supplies halfway there. I warned you it was dangerous, but you didn’t listen. I didn’t follow you but went to wait for mom and dad at the school entrance instead. Is that really betraying you? Later, we also went to the mall to look for you but couldn’t find you. What else could we do?”
“If at that ti you had dragged away and didn’t let go, would I have been violated by those people, sold off, and suffered through all that filth?”
“How could I have dragged you away when you were running so fast? By the ti I reacted, you had already gone into the mall.”
“Then after I entered the mall, why didn’t you co after ? Didn’t I go there to find supplies for all of us to use?”
“I’m not a deity; I get scared too. I just wanted to quickly find mom and dad. Is that wrong? They told us to wait at the school, and I just wanted to obey them so they wouldn’t arrive and not find us there.”
“Look at you, playing the victim again. You always act obedient to win our parents’ affection, but can any of you understand ? Seeing you just reminds of all that’s happened. You can’t understand my pain at all. Back then, I felt worse than dead. Every day different n would… I’ve lost my honor, my purity, my dignity. Do you understand?” Inside, Song Xiner felt as if she was cut by a knife every day. Initially, she kept silent, but eventually, she wanted to inflict her pain on her family to make them suffer as she did.
Taking a deep breath, Song Maner responded, “So we brought you back and we’ve been compensating you ever since. A lifeti of integrity and now dad has been demoted because of you. You said you didn’t like my long hair, so I cut it. You said you didn’t appreciate mom and dad’s concern for , so now we three are like strangers at ho. All the money goes to you, anything you want, as long as we can provide it, we do our best to satisfy you. What more do you want? Do you want us all dead?” She understood her sister’s pain, so they were all trying to make ands.
“Haha, you three, in your hearts, the three of you are a family, right? Tiring yourselves out with this act in front of , it must be exhausting. You must all feel so sorry for each other, don’t you? You must wish I, Song Xiner, had died at the hands of those n. You really hoped I was already dead, didn’t you?”
“I didn’t wish that. I truly want you to get better, to forget those unpleasant mories and start a new life.”
“Unpleasant? Is that what you call it? Why don’t you experience that ‘unpleasantness’ yourself? Being dirtied by all those disgusting, filthy n, you call that a bit of discomfort? To you, it’s as trivial as skipping a al, isn’t it? Do you have any idea what that ans to ? Do you know how many tis I wanted to die?”
“Xinxin, I know, I understand that those experiences hurt you deeply, but we must always look ahead…”
“Shut up! I hate it when you talk about looking ahead. You have no idea how much those events hurt . Every ti I close my eyes, I see those n… I spend sleepless nights, while you? You casually suggest looking ahead, forgetting the past. I detest those words. If I could forget, do you think I would choose to rember? Ah, I really want to kill you all. If anyone tells to look ahead again, I will kill them.” Song Xiner was growing more and more deranged, her eyes reddening, fists clenched as she stared at Song Maner.
Song Maner stepped forward to calm her down, “I won’t say it anymore, none of us will. Just calm down, we will change. Whatever you don’t want to hear, we won’t say.”
Song Xiner grabbed Song Maner’s arm, “I don’t want to hear it,” she said before biting down hard.
Song Maner shrieked in pain, “It hurts!”
Song Xiner burst into laughter, “That hurts? Do you know what pain is, the pain of being torn apart? They were all perverts. If this little bite is what you call pain, then what should we call my pain?”
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