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Was this a feeling of pain?
Lu Xin couldn’t even explain himself. He didn’t even know why he was crying, but tears kept flowing down his face.
It was probably because he saw himself clearly for the first ti.
Lu Xin’s life had always been a muddled one.
Even his mories were always gray. It was intermittent, and he didn’t even want to recall it in detail. This was because every ti he tried to recall those things, he would recall sothing that made him feel especially depressed.
However, the old principal’s report card had suddenly made the stages of his life extrely clear.
He didn’t try to discuss it with his family, but that result slip and the few trials on it
Because he was especially clear.
When he saw the trial of life, he recalled the initial stage of his vague mories.
He recalled that he seed to have woken up from an abstract nightmare, and was in a state of ignorance about everything in the world.
He clearly rembered that nightmare, but he could not describe the scene in the dream to others.
It was because everything in the dream was abstract and could not be explained in human language.
All his senses in the dream were telling him clearly that the world had no aning.
If he were to say that the trial was the first and most aningless trial, but in the end, he had his own aning.
His own arrival and his perception of this world were trials.
However, after that trial, he was still muddleheaded.
He just looked at the people and everything around him curiously. He felt that everything was fresh and interesting, but it didn’t matter.
Even now, Lu Xin could still rember the ti when he was in the orphanage. He used an unusually calm gaze to look at everything around him, but he couldn’t understand why people would cry and laugh, and why they had such rich emotions.
At that ti, she felt like she was trapped in a thick shell.
Seeing other people’s pain and anger, he didn’t care. He didn’t understand it either. He only felt that it was pretentious.
Teacher Lu was actually a very stupid girl.
She treated him as a friend and stubbornly thought that he was kind, even though she didn’t understand him at all.
Actually, from the looks of it, number seven was the one who understood him the most.
Perhaps, it was because she was the type that was closest to a monster?
All of his perceptions had begun on that rainy night.
That night of betrayal and blood, gunshots and fire, the death of lives and the destruction of hope, woke him up.
The thick shell was finally broken, and he felt pain.
That was the first ti he clearly felt pain.
And after that
Lu Xin still rembered that his mory had been in a state of chaos for at least two to three years. He had no idea how he had made it through, but judging from the ti, he should have been wandering on the streets for a long ti. He was taken in by his family and began to live a normal and healthy life. It was only one night that he returned ho from working overti and t teacher Lu.
Her leg was already broken.
He started to work hard, earn money, take care of them, and help them.
It was also during that period of ti that her mories of the orphanage began to have color.
When he first went through the orphanage, he only felt indifferent. But from that mont on, when he recalled these things, he found them more and more interesting. Sotis, he even couldn’t help but smile.
Did this an that he only started to realize the good in it after losing it?
It was very tiring, but it seed that the most fulfilling years were those few years.
Lu Xin had thought that he would be satisfied if this continued.
However, life still went on.
After joining the special Investigation Departnt, he t the ntal monsters, learned about the ntal corruption, and also learned about the so-called ability users.
He realized that his family mbers were all very capable people who could help him a lot.
However, they seed to have their own secrets. They were deliberately hiding it from him, but he was subconsciously careful and cooperated with them to hide so secrets. This was like a silent ga that they had a tacit understanding of.
The ga could get tired.
It wasn’t the first ti that he felt a fire burning in his heart, and he began to question the world.
He would often find so things ridiculous, absurd, and childish.
However, it seed that everyone else was like this, and she was not soone who liked to be in the lilight, so
It was only at certain special monts that the ball of fire would suddenly burn.
Anger without reason, all kinds of impulsive indifference, all of which often appeared in his mind without any pattern.
Every ti this ball of fire started to burn, he would understand and understand so things.
It was like a person on a 100-ter race track who found that he could accelerate endlessly and keep accelerating.
When he accelerated, he felt a sense of freedom and comfort.
But when he accelerated, he would hurt the others
Lu Xin had always known that there was no such thing as divinity, only himself.
The self that teacher Lu was looking forward to did not exist.
She had misunderstood herself when she was very young and even treated that as her real self.
Whether it was indifference or impulsiveness, whether it was showing the smile that he should have to others, or subconsciously feeling the disregard, Lu Xin did not know what he looked like in the eyes of others, but he felt that he was himself
Everything was just his own feeling.
Sotis, he really wished that soone could understand him, but he couldn’t explain it clearly.
No one else could understand his current state.
If there was anyone who truly understood him, it would probably be the old principal.
This report card had already explained everything.
However, why must it be him?
Lu Xin had no idea what the old principal was doing, but he really did not like it!
It was as if all the interesting and happy things had happened in the past.
The future was not worth looking forward to at all.
Lu Xin hit his head lightly. He could only feel a deep sense of despair.
Why couldn’t he live like those who were envious of him at the beginning?
Why?
Lu Xin’s eyes were already red with tears.
Anger once again burned in his eyes, and everything in the room trembled.
At this mont, he could feel the muscles on his face twisting.
That piece of paper, under his gaze, was quickly becoming distorted and full of wrinkles.
“Do you really think that you can control my life?”
At the sa ti, a hundred miles Northwest of Black Swamp city, next to a dark swamp.
The huge Crimson Moon had already sunk to the West and was about to disappear.
The Crimson moonlight cut out seven or eight figures riding on motorcycles beside the black Swamp.
It was a group of people in ard suits, carrying supplies on the back of the car and a gun bag in front of the car. Looking at their clothes, they were all standard Knights. They were separated by two or three ters and sandwiched a woman sitting on a motorcycle in the middle.
The woman looked to be in her late twenties and still looked very young.
She was born with a kind of soul-shaking beauty, but there were several hideous scars on her face.
Her legs were long and slender as she leaned on the motorcycle. The lines were strong and beautiful. Her exposed skin was tattooed with large patches of strange tattoos. There were ghosts and monsters of strange shapes, making her look unusually terrifying.
She was wearing a wild, midriff-revealing dress, but there was an ugly scar on her flat and delicate lower abdon.
The scar ford a circle around her waist, and even the tattoo couldn’t cover it. It seed that she had been torn apart by soone.
She lowered her head slightly and her breathing was low and slow.
After an unknown period of ti, he suddenly raised his head, took a deep breath, and swung his right arm.
“Big sister is back?”
When they heard her suddenly gasp for breath, the people around her imdiately stirred and looked over with concern.
So of these people looked to be in their thirties or forties, but they naturally addressed her as “big sister.” One of them had a full beard and looked very mature. He imdiately stepped forward and whispered to her, ” we’ve got the thing in the Will-O-Wisp swamp. Also, we seem to have alerted the negative zero unit. They’re now in the North and approaching us quickly.
“Negative zero unit?”
The ‘big sister’ frowned and sneered, “”You’re looking for death.”
Many people around him laughed out loud. They pulled out their Spears from their gun bags and carried them on their shoulders.”Kill them?”
The eldest sister was about to agree, but she suddenly hesitated. She looked in the direction of Black Swamp city and shook her head.
“I’ll let it go this ti. Retreat.”
The others looked at her curiously.
if you encounter the negative zero team now, at least half of you will die.
“I’m not in a good mood today, so I can’t be bothered to pick soone to fill your vacancy,” the eldest sister said coldly.
The burly n and girls around them imdiately laughed knowingly.
The motorcycle started, and like ghosts, they quickly followed the path beside the swamp, rushing towards the man. The bright lights of the motorcycle rushed into the darkness, forming seven or eight intertwining white lights that were enough to compete with the Crimson Moon.
The big sister rode her bike to the front, and the engine whistled, scaring away countless small beasts and other things.
Her brows seed to be tightly furrowed, as if she was thinking about sothing.
After driving for a few hundred ters, she suddenly understood. Her expression suddenly beca a little bright, and then angry.
“Old man, are you using ?”
“Why are you always so biased towards him?” she cursed in a low voice.
No one answered her. Even the Knights who were hurrying around her were used to her sudden emotional loss and unprovoked curses, so they turned a blind eye to it. But she scolded herself more and more fiercely, as if all the dissatisfaction in her heart had suddenly gushed out. I’m the only one you should care about and invest in, but you only care about that monster
don’t tell that you’ll only pay more attention to those who don’t listen? I have no problem with that at all
I can be more rebellious than him
The more she spoke, the crazier she beca. She even hit her own head in anger.
Because she had caused such a ruckus this ti, even the Knight beside her felt worried and looked over at her.
“I’m fine ”
The woman raised her head and looked at them. Her eyes were bloodshot, but her face was full of tears. She explained fiercely, ” I-I was bitten by a strange dog. It seems to be able to affect my emotions. Right now, I clearly want to laugh out loud
As she spoke, she pointed at her own face.”But I’m crying ”
The surrounding Knights all turned their heads. What she said seed to be very reasonable.
But in the past, she would not have explained this.
After the woman explained, she suddenly stepped on the accelerator and sped forward, as if she wanted to dry her tears with the wind.
detestable, hateful, too hateful
She gritted her teeth and growled in a low voice, “”You’re just bullying for being brainless, aren’t you?”
I have a brain, but I just don’t like to use it
I already have the ability. Why do I still need to use my brain to deal with these things? ”
The more she spoke, the more she hated him. In the end, a cold smile appeared on her face.”Old man, you will definitely fail.”
you always say that divinity can be calculated.
but what he has now is not only divinity. What about human nature? “
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