ng Renshu snickered darkly. "You finally showed your true color after finding out the truth. I'm amazed you can hide so much hate and anger from all this ti."
"Why, of course. After all, I didn't spend years by your side for nothing. Acting in the opposite of what you feel inside is your speciality. I should be thankful to you for showing the way." Li Caiyi smiled coldly. Her tone was gentle, but her words were laced with poison everywhere.
ng Renshu almost couldn't help but snort in amusent. The sight of Li Caiyi trying to dig her claw and fang at him was interesting for him, who was used to her kindness and indulgence.
Although he knew she was seriously hating him right now, he still found her retort lovely.
"I'm flattered you think so. As a husband, I feel proud that my wife follows my steps closely."
Li Caiyi's countenance turned uglier at the ntion of their past relationship. She clenched her hands tightly under the table. A sickening feeling swam in her gut, seeing him ntioning those things lightly after how he abandoned her rcilessly.
"ng Renshu, are you resorting to this petty trick to reminisce about the past to ? If you have sothing to say, then say it out loud."
ng Renshu's eyes twitched when Li Caiyi suddenly used his full na to address him. But a second later, a layer of frost covered his usually warm gaze.
"What if I said that's exactly what I want to do? There are a lot of things that we have to speak about."
"Seriously? What changes would it bring even if we talked about it? We both have our new lives and future ahead. So let's just pretend we don't know each other from now on and not cross each other anymore in this life."
"I refuse."
Li Caiyi could feel her blood pressure rising while talking with a thick-skinned person like him.
"Is this your way of revenge? Because I ruined everything in our previous life, you want to get back at by ruining my life this ti?"
ng Renshu stared at her without words. His face was rigid and betrayed no emotion. Looking at him like this reminded her a lot of the adult ng Renshu who used to stand by the side, watching her fend for herself as everyone pointed their fingers at her.
She was so agitated and angry before, but now her heart was like a frozen lake in the winter.
"You might not know and care about it, but I also have my fair share of difficulties in my previous life. I will not hold you responsible for anything, so I hope you can let the past go too. Let's just treat it as a horrible nightmare and move on. You don't have to worry because I will never use my previous life knowledge to hinder your way."
"Xiaoyi."
A word from him was enough to stop her from blabbering. Raising her head, she found ng Renshu staring at her intensely. It was the sa stare he gave her when he asked her to tell him everything he knew about Li Junjie's plan the other day.
It was very distant, mixed with traces of regret and a sense of futility. Like he was looking past through her and saw sothing else.
"I never had such a thought about you. And I never blad you for everything that happened in the past. Don't think too much."
"If you aren't blaming , what else do you want to talk to about?"
"Let tell you this first. Although I said I rember the past, my mories are actually very fragnted, and I still haven't regained every piece yet."
Li Caiyi's eyes widened in surprise. "What? So you didn't have a complete mory of it? How much did you rember?"
ng Renshu nodded. "That's why, although I can't understand the complete reason you want to avoid like the plague, I at least know you have driven into the corner because of my distrust."
Li Caiyi averted her eyes, refusing to have eye contact with ng Renshu. "We should just forget it—"
"I can't, and I don't want to forget."
"Why are you so hung up about it?"
ng Renshu closed her eyes slowly. "It was a reminder of my sin that I should never forget. Xiaoyi, I know this is late, but I'm very sorry for everything."
Li Caiyi jerked her head in surprise at his sudden apology, and her mouth gaped even wider when she saw him bowing his head to her. "What are you doing right now?"
"I sincerely wanted to apologize to you. You don't have to forgive , but let say this much. I'm sorry for doubting you and hurting you so much in the past."
At a loss on what to say, Li Caiyi could only blink her eyes in disbelief. She never thought that cold and prideful ng Renshu would ever bow his head to her like this.
It was her first ti seeing him bow his head to anyone in both of her lives.
"Stop that. I don't need you to apologize to ," Li Caiyi rubbed her forearm as a strange feeling filled her chest.
ng Renshu returned to his previous posture before leaning forward to look at her better. "You are still so soft, even though I have prepared myself to receive a few slaps on my face or so hot tea spilt on ."
She would be lying if she said she wasn't tempted, but that wasn't the issue now.
At least with this, she knew that ng Renshu wasn't actually plotting anything against her. He looked calm, almost peaceful even, with no resentnt or grudge toward her.
This eliminated any thought of a horrendous revenge plot he could co up for her. Li Caiyi refused to be his friend, but she certainly didn't want to be on his bad side either. Only loss and suffering would await her if she challenged ng Renshu straight on.
Li Caiyi put her hands together and squeezed them tightly. "I didn't want any apology or redemption, nor did I hope for reconciliation between us. I just want to live happily for myself this ti. My father is not here anymore, so I doubt there will be any engagent between the two families now. Rest assured because there will be nothing that can tie the two of us together this ti."
"I see. You must be happy about that," ng Renshu smiled mirthlessly. "But hearing you say that last sentence makes sad."
"Ah?" Li Caiyi tilted her head in confusion.
"Xiaoyi, I never wanted to go separate ways with you."
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