Please Stop Spreading Rumors About Me — They Keep Coming True Chapter 48: The First Author

I had felt the First Author’s attention before — the cold draft from a door I couldn’t see, the weight of her watching from so sealed dark box. I had never felt her presence, though. And when it ca that night, it was nothing like I’d imagined.

She didn’t arrive with thunder, the way Storm-Marshal Lei had, or with a parting crowd, the way Xue Ningzhi did. The room simply... changed. The lamp-flas stilled. The sound went out of the world. And she was there — standing among us, where a heartbeat before there had been only empty air — a woman who looked neither old nor young, plain and unremarkable in every feature, and yet so heavy with presence that being near her was like standing next to the ocean. The one who writes the sky. The one who erases the nas. The most powerful being alive, and not on the Records at all.

My family froze. Bai Qing’s hand went to her sword and the First Author glanced at it, mildly, and Bai Qing’s hand simply... forgot what it was doing. Not forced. Unwritten, for a mont — the intention gently deleted. That, more than anything else, told what we were dealing with.

"You’re going to try to bring Su Yue back," the First Author said. No greeting. Her voice was quiet and tired and vast. "I felt you say the na. Seven of you, around a table. The first ti it’s been spoken aloud in a thousand years." Sothing crossed her unremarkable face — sothing I did not expect, sothing that looked, impossibly, like pain. "Do you have any idea what that na cost to take out of the sky?"

"Tell ," I said.

And the First Author — the apex, the eraser, the monster of a thousand years — looked at with an expression I will never forget. It was the expression of soone who has been carrying a thing alone for so long that being asked about it is almost unbearable.

"I loved them," she said simply.

The Scroll made a sound on my shoulder. The whole room seed to stop breathing.

"You think I am cruel," the First Author went on, very quietly. "You stood in that arena and told ten million people I murder the good and call it rcy. And you weren’t wrong. But you don’t know what it is to be the one who has to do it." Her eyes were ancient and dry and devastated. "Su Yue was the brightest, kindest soul this world has ever produced. They were my— " she stopped, and chose a smaller word than the one she ant "—they were the person I loved most in all of existence. And they grew too bright. And the Editor began to wake — the way it is waking now, because of you — and soone had to put out the brightest light in the sky before the dark opened its eyes and swallowed everything, every na, every story, every soul, forever." Her voice did not waver, and that steadiness was the most terrible thing about it. "And the only one with the power to do it was . So I unwrote the person I loved most in the world, thread by thread, with my own hand, while they looked at and understood and forgave , which was worse than if they’d hated . I have written every na in the sky for a thousand years, little clerk. And the only na I ever truly wanted to keep is the one I had to erase myself, to save all the rest. That is what you’re playing with."

I had no words. None of us did. The Scroll was weeping openly now — the two beings who had loved Su Yue most, the tool who couldn’t save them and the god who had to kill them, finally in the sa room after a thousand years of separate grief.

"So you understand my position," the First Author said, gathering herself, the ocean-weight settling back over her. "You want to bring Su Yue ho. I want it more than you can possibly imagine — there is nothing in all of existence I want more. But the mont that light returns to the sky, the Editor wakes fully, and everything ends. I did not erase the person I loved to have a clever clerk in stolen pants undo it and doom us all out of sentint." Her gaze hardened, and the air itself seed to thin. "I let you live after the tournant because you showed sothing new — a na that cannot be erased. I have spent a thousand years wishing such a thing were possible, because it would an I would never have to do again what I did to Su Yue. But you have it backwards. An unerasable na doesn’t save us from the Editor. It summons it. And I cannot allow the two most dangerous things in existence — an unerasable light, and the return of the brightest na there ever was — to happen at the sa ti. It would be the end of the world. So I am here to stop you. With sorrow. But completely."

"What if there’s another way?" I said, and my voice shook, but I said it. "You’ve spent a thousand years with only two options — let the light grow and wake the Editor, or erase the light and break your own heart. Holding action forever. But you said it yourself — you’ve never solved it. You’ve just delayed it, and lost everyone you loved doing it." I stepped forward, past Bai Qing’s frozen hand, toward the ocean-weight of her, my whole body screaming to run and my feet refusing. "I’m the first unerasable na. Maybe that’s not a bomb. Maybe it’s a door. Maybe a light that can’t be put out is the only thing that’s ever been able to face the dark instead of just hiding from it. You’ve never had that weapon before. Neither did Su Yue. What if bringing them back isn’t the thing that ends the world — what if it’s the thing that finally lets us win it? Two unerasable lights, instead of one. Wouldn’t you rather try than spend another thousand years erasing the good and calling it rcy?"

The First Author went very still.

For just a mont — one mont — I saw the thousand-year wall in her crack. I saw the desperate, grieving, exhausted person under the god. The one who had wanted, more than anything in existence, for there to be another way, for one thousand years, and had never let herself believe there could be.

"No one," she said, very softly, "has ever offered a third option before." She looked at the Scroll, weeping on my shoulder — the only other thing in the world that had loved Su Yue — and sothing passed between them, ancient and wordless and shattering. "In a thousand years. No one."

The lamp-flas flickered.

"I will not help you," she said at last, and the weight of the decision was terrible. "Not yet. I have watched too many bright fools doom the world with hope. But I will not stop you tonight, either." Her ancient eyes found mine. "Show , little clerk. Show your door is real and not just another light about to go out. Bring even a fragnt of proof that an unerasable na can face the Editor and live — and I will consider, for the first ti in a thousand years, that I might not have to keep doing this forever." She began to fade, the room beginning to breathe again. "But understand — if you are wrong, if your hope is just sentint, I will erase you, and all of them, and the na Su Yue from your minds, and I will go back to my long terrible holding of the dark alone. Do not be wrong, Lin Bo. The price of your hope is everything."

And she was gone. The lamp-flas leapt back to life, Bai Qing’s hand rembered the sword, and the seven of us stood in the sudden ordinary lamplight, having just bargained with the loneliest god in the world.

"Well," Ji Lan said faintly, after a long mont, pouring herself another very large drink with a slightly unsteady hand. "She’s delightful."

"She loved them too," the Scroll whispered, dazed, wrecked, and — under it all — sothing new, sothing that hadn’t been there in a thousand years of solitary grief. "All this ti. I thought I was the only one. She loved them too." A pause. "Talent. We have to be right. Do you hear ? For her, and for Su Yue, and for everyone — we have to be right."

I looked up at the widening dark at the top of the sky, where the brightest na that ever was waited to co ho, and where, far beyond it, sothing that wanted the end of all stories was slowly opening its eyes.

"Then let’s go prove it," I said quietly, and picked up the noodle pot, because so things you carry no matter how big the war gets. "Let’s go show a thousand-year-old god that hope isn’t always a light going out."

"And how," Yun Shu asked, practical as ever, already reaching for a fresh page, "do we do that?"

I smiled, though my heart was hamring.

"We find the first person the Empire ever erased who isn’t Su Yue," I said. "Soone small. Soone safe. And we bring them back — quietly, carefully, no Editor-waking required — just to prove it can be done at all." I looked around at my impossible family. "We start small. We start with one forgotten nobody, and we light them back into the sky. And then we show the First Author the proof, and we change a thousand years of how this world has worked."

Outside, the gap widened another fraction.

But for the first ti, looking up at it, I didn’t only see a threat.

I saw a door.

And I was going to walk through it, with my family at my back, and bring the light ho.