Li Lian left her room after breakfast, finding Li Xiao Chen and her hand was raise mid way to call his attention until she saw Violet coming from the other end of the corner and by instruct, she went to slipped between the gap of the two walls.
Li Xiao Chen was subrged in his thought that broke when his eyes t Violet light brown ones. Like how his heels stopped, Violet also stopped walking.
"It has been a long ti," said Li Xiao Chen, rubbing the back of his neck in a little awkwardness as it had been quite a long ti where they could talk to each other privately.
"We always et, Mr. Li," answered Violet, exposing him. "If you don’t have another request, I will leave now."
"Wait!" Li Xiao Chen stopped her before she could fully leave and rubbed the back of his neck. Why was it so awkward? Usually he could co up with so of his goofy remarks, or it would often be the ti where Violet will urge him with her questionable acts and remarks.
Yet Li Xiao Chen could see how Violet didn’t seem to be in the mood to joke or tease him. She appeared silent— so silent that her eyes was distant and empty.
"What can I be a help for you of, Mr. Li?" Her over-polite tone cause him to frown as it feel as if she was putting distance between them.
But why should he be upset? They didn’t do anything, they haven’t committed to anything, thought Li Xiao Chen and his frown deepened.
"Is there anything you feel displeased with?" Violet asked another question upon seeing the frown marring his forehead.
Li Xiao Chen put aside the riling question that stirred his mind to the back of his head. "What happen to you?"
This ti it was Violet who subtly pull a frown, "If you are asking whether I have finished my work, I will reply yes. If you are asking otherwise I am not sure what do you an."
And now Violet was acting, putting a strange upfront. "I think you know what I am asking of," Li Xiao Chen perused Violet’s expression, finding her wall-like and unmoved look. "Why do you suddenly put this distance between us? You are not like this."
"Then how am I like, Mr. Li?" Violet gave a sudden question, snapping even as if she was irritated by his sudden question. She then sighed, her shoulder moving up and down. Last ti they had ended things in a good note but right now, Violet was in a state where her mood was extrely foul. Rembering the source of her anger, her frown knot tighter and her sighed escape her lips.
"We don’t know each other," Violet uttered and she didn’t know how much of her words whacked a deep impact to Li Xiao Chen. "And though we might have closed a little distance between us, we are still stranger. Please excuse ."
It was when islet turn and her hair she parted to cover her right cheek did Li Xiao Chen noticed sothing and stopped her by her wrist. The sudden pull was akin to a trigger that fired off Violet’s piled up emotions.
Violet harshly swatted Li Xiao Chen’s hand, enough for her fingernail to cause a graze on his palm but Violet didn’t notice it as anger flashed on her face.
"I thought most n are the sa, at least I trusted you to be different. But maybe like everyone, you are soone who wish to control , putting a chain to my feet?" Violet snapped and though the question was directed to him, Li Xiao Chen felt that at the sa ti she didn’t direct it toward him but soone else— soone who made her angry.
Li Xiao Chen didn’t want to be harsh but he also felt as though Violet was pushing him away which didn’t settle well in his heart, "When have I did what you said?"
"Now!" Violet also didn’t understand why but upon seeing Li Xiao Chen, she felt like the dam of emotion in her heart which she had always manage to control and repress now shatter the wall, causing flood of emotions to turn like waterfall. "Do you know, Mr. Li? Most n who held a woman’s hand, gripping their wrist instead of palm are n who wish to control woman? Its one gesture that had never been wrong for I have seen all n who fit this theory."
"And is that is also the quality of the man who hurt you?" Li Xiao Chen asked, his voice was restrained but if asked if there were another emotion other than concern it would be bitterness.
Violet frowned deepened, was Li Xiao Chen angry? Her heart was suddenly thrown into a ss that she felt very pathetic for letting her emotion gettin the best of herself.
"Yes," she answered and pulled away her hand. "I don’t know what you think of our relationship, Mr. Li. But I don’t think we match—"
"I don’t think it’s the matter whether we match of not. No matter how perfect a key was made to the keyhole, the door wouldn’t open unless soone put a will to open the door. You, Violet, end things that hasn’t even started."
Li Xiao Chen’s words pierced her heart, "If you do not want to hold your hand, I have no complain but I will explain this to you," he raised his hand to touch her cheeks when he saw Violet’s entire body flinched as if she expected him to slap her.
Violet opened her eyes when she noticed Li Xiao Chen took no action. When their eyes t, she saw a wry smile appeared on Li Xiao Chen’s lips, "No matter how much of a scumbag I turn to be. Whether I sleep with won left or right, I want you to rember this Violet. I will never raise my hand to a woman. Over my dead body," a light and very faint chuckle escape from him, "do you really think I would slap you? Do I look that low to you?"
No, thought Violet and there was a reason why her body shiver or flinch when his hand raised near her head but she felt her lips clamd up; the words she want to say lump on the back of her throat, leaving her speechless while she stared at Li Xiao Chen’s gaze that slowly turn fierce.
"I can tell you do not want to speak with ," Li Xiao Chen then rummage sothing from his pocket, passing it to her hand, "Take this dicine for the wound on your cheek." And he looked at her again before wordlessly turning on his heels, leaving the place when a maid quickly ca to him.
Now left alone, Violet sighed. What was happening with her? She had an extrely terrible day but she wasn’t in the position to lash out on Li Xiao Chen. He didn’t deserve the anger she threw on him, to be on the receiving end. But when she was alone and during the ti their eyes t, all the negative emotions in her heart she had been bottling suddenly surge out. She felt like she needed to scream to him but not with anger which why what had happened earlier confused her. She also felt the impulse to hit, to rebel— to bawl in front of him and whine.
Violet pressed her thumb and rubbed the bridge of her nose. It was clear she had been the one who was wrong earlier and Li Xiao Chen, he had done nothing.
Violet clenched her hand slowly, feeling the vessel where the dicine were kept at for the wound on her cheek. She felt that she needed to do sothing, dispel and apology but after she had pushed him earlier, would he still want to hear her words?
It was getting troubleso but Violet didn’t think she could escape from Li Xiao Chen. If it was troubleso she would have casted the problem aside, but now she feels uneasy to keep the misunderstanding from earlier to linger.
What is wrong with her? What is this feeling?
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