Su Mu fell silent for a long ti because of Wen Han’s words, but Wen Han did not speak again, so Su Mu could only say,
"You’re right, I haven’t forgotten about last ti, and I’ve been thinking about finding ti to have a proper talk with you, especially since even Shaoyuan thinks there’s a problem between us."
Upon hearing this, Wen Han smiled,
"He really is a sensitive child."
"Family factors," Su Mu slowly said. "Children raised in single-parent families tend to be sensitive. Shaoyuan is already doing quite well, and you, along with his grandparents, have been giving him as much love as possible. It’s just that there has been so much going on lately, and he’s been adjusting for so ti. I believe he will get better and better."
Wen Han looked at Su Mu,
"What do you want to talk to about?"
Su Mu t Wen Han’s gaze and began, "You said last ti that it was your fault, that you shouldn’t have said those things to , but the person who should be apologizing the most is actually ."
"Where did you go wrong?"
"I shouldn’t have had more entanglents with Fu Shinian given the kind of relationship I have with you. Although it wasn’t my intention, I can’t deny it. Because of Qiqi and Fu Shinian’s relationship, my contacts with him have also been increasing, to the extent that he probably got the wrong impression and has been intruding into my life more and more. Sotis, I just can’t get away."
Wen Han was silent, not imdiately responding to Su Mu’s words. Just as Su Mu sighed softly, Wen Han spoke:
"Su Mu, I want to ask you a question, and I hope you’ll tell the truth."
Su Mu started to get a bad feeling, but before she could say anything to Wen Han, his voice had already risen, "Do you still like Fu Shinian, or to be precise, do you still love him?"
Many people had asked Su Mu this question after her divorce—Jiang Bei, Wei Shaoqin, even Fu Shinian himself, and sotis even she wondered herself. But her answer had always been the sa: no love, to be precise, she no longer wanted to continue loving that man.
But not wanting to is one thing, and the reality is another.
Now, Su Mu couldn’t quite define her feelings for Fu Shinian, just felt that she couldn’t be completely indifferent to him, that he still held so place in her heart. But how important that place was, Su Mu didn’t dare to think, nor did she want to think.
Su Mu did not speak, but Wen Han seed to understand, and he smiled on his own,
"I’ve said before that I didn’t care whether or not you loved soone else, as long as you were with . But you also said that such persistence would change over ti, that people can beco greedy creatures. I didn’t quite agree with you before, but now I think I understand. As your boyfriend, I seem to be less and less able to bear seeing you spend ti with Fu Shinian. I feel jealous, envious, and sotis even angry."
Wen Han looked at Su Mu,
"I promised you, but I ultimately couldn’t do it. I’ve co to realize that no matter what I do, your feelings for will never be love."
Su Mu also looked at Wen Han, managing a forced smile,
"I don’t quite understand what you an by that."
"I don’t know what I’m trying to say either, but I suddenly understand that if you continue to be with , if you’ll never be able to have feelings for , then it would be a very hard thing for you. In front of , you’ll never be your true self; you’ll always be living with a mask. Perhaps one day, I’ll beco like you, wearing a mask, and in the end, maybe we’ll both forget what we once looked like."
Hearing this, Su Mu finally caught on, looking at Wen Han,
"Do you want to end it?"
"I don’t want to end it, but reality seems to leave no choice. Su Mu, you’ll never love . Perhaps if you left , there might still be a possibility with Fu Shinian. You’ve been suppressing your feelings because of your relationship with . Would you be happier if you left ?"
Su Mu looked at Wen Han for a few seconds before gently turning her gaze away and smiling,
"I don’t know if I’d be happier without you, but it feels like our relationship wouldn’t change much if we broke up. I have no plans to get back with Fu Shinian, nor do I want to. It’s sothing I haven’t considered in three years. If you find being with tiring, if you feel you’re becoming less like your original self, then maybe breaking up is the best choice. After all, when we started, we only agreed to try. If it doesn’t feel right now, it’s normal to split up."
Wen Han didn’t look at Su Mu anymore, his gaze gradually moving to the window opposite. It was deep into the night, but lights were still on in the yard, so it wasn’t pitch black, yet Wen Han seed unable to discern anything, just like he and Su Mu’s future—seeing no way out.
"Let’s talk about it later; we both should think about it."
Su Mu responded without speaking further.
The next day, Su Mu woke up on the couch covered with Wen Han’s coat, and he was standing by the window making a call, speaking softly as if afraid to disturb the two people inside, but Su Mu still heard him; it seed there was so urgent business at the unit that required his quick return.
Due to the nature of Wen Han’s job, it was inevitable that he couldn’t spare much personal ti for his family. No matter what happened at ho, he had to prioritize his work—he was the one carrying the weight. But regarding all that was happening at ho, no one stepped forward to share the burden.
After hanging up, Wen Han turned around and saw that Su Mu was already sitting on the sofa and smiled slightly,
"Did I wake you?"
"No," Su Mu rose, "You need to return to the unit."
"Yes, a case I’m handling has progressed, and I must go check on it," Wen Han looked at Su Mu, "You should head back too, I’ll have Auntie Li co over."
"Auntie Li is at ho watching Shaoyuan, if you have her co over, what about the child?" Su Mu chuckled, "Don’t worry, go ahead. I have nothing urgent; I’ll just be at the hospital with your aunt. Don’t worry too much; I’ll call you when she wakes up."
Wen Han looked intently at Su Mu,
"What about you? I’m worried your body won’t hold up."
"I won’t push myself. When it becos unbearable, I’ll have Auntie Li co over, and I’ll go ho to take care of Shaoyuan."
Perhaps because the matter was truly urgent, Wen Han didn’t persist further with Su Mu and smiled lightly,
"Thank you then, just take care not to tire yourself out. I’ll be back as soon as I can."
Su Mu nodded,
"Be careful."
After saying that, she handed the coat she was holding to Wen Han. He reached out to take it, glanced at Su Mu, and earnestly thanked her. Su Mu could feel the weight behind this ’thank you’, but she didn’t know how to respond.
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