[Ava POV]
“What am I doing?” I mumbled to myself as I sank down onto a bench, “I was just trying to…”
…
What was I trying to do?
Help her? Distract her?
…
Was it just too much?
My mind was brought back to all the tis I had complained at Mom for being too overprotective or worrying about all the little things too much. But that was only for a brief mont; I didn’t have the luxury to sit and reminisce.
I knew that I needed to do sothing, but I didn’t know what that sothing was.
When I saw her running away, I wanted to chase her, but my legs simply refused to move. I didn’t know what I was going to do when I caught up to her… so I didn’t…
“I’m supposed to be helping her, keeping her safe… Isn’t that what I was doing?”
I know that she doesn’t like to talk to people.
I’ve seen what happens when she pushes herself too far, and she had already done so much just to ask Elenia a question… I knew she wouldn’t be able to keep herself together once Cattleya ca into the picture.
So I needed to distract her, to make her forget all about it.
So what did I do wrong?
Did I do sothing wrong?
I just wanted to do sothing she wanted. Since we got here, all I’ve done is drag her around. I know I wouldn’t like that, so all I did was try to fix that.
To give her the choice.
More and more people were starting to stare at as I tried desperately to sort through my thoughts. It was quickly getting to a point where I was uncomfortable, so I just got up and started walking again, going in the sa direction I saw Kierra going, almost hoping to see her waiting for the mont I turned a corner.
What do I do now?
Should I go after her? Should I just give her so ti alone?
But she’s not really alone. She has that necklace.
…
What would I even do once I got to her? Ask her about what she said?
All she said was that she doesn’t know… but do I even know the answer?
Do I really know her? I thought we had gotten closer; I an, we’re sisters, for Gods’ sake. I must know her.
Who else would if not ?
As I was walking, I noticed a dark alley and decided to turn into it in an attempt to avoid anyone else’s gaze. It was hard enough trying to figure this all out as it was; I didn’t need the added pressure of all these random people openly judging as I did it.
They’re the ones who don’t know anything.
They don’t know what she’s like. They don’t know what she’s been through.
But I do.
…
Don’t I?
Right at that mont, soone else stepped into the alley. A hooded person, the sa height as . I knew who it was right away, and I wasn’t in the mood to deal with them.
“Cattleya,” I called out, “Why are you still following u- ? I thought I already made things clear to you.”
“Following? I wasn’t following you,” She responded imdiately as she lifted her hood up, “We just happened to leave in the sa direction. It’s more common than you would think. After all, you either walk up the street or down the street.”
“I really don’t need this right now,” I turned away and started walking further into the alley.
It’s your fault this happened in the first place.
It has to be.
If you just didn’t show up, she’d still be feeling happy over what she managed to achieve today.
Do you even know how hard it is for her to talk to people like that? She even continued to ask small questions as Elenia told us that story.
I’ve never seen her open up to a new person so quickly before, and you ruined it.
“Wait!” Cattleya shouted as she ran towards , “As I was follow- walking by, I noticed that… you might be in need of so help.”
“I already said that this isn’t the ti for this. Just stop following !”
“…”
I turned away again, but just before I could start walking, Cattleya started talking to again, although that might be a generous way of putting it.
“I have made a decision. You will tell what is happening,” She commanded, “I want to know exactly what is going on.”
“Why are you even doing this?” I asked as I faced her again.
“Because it’s what I decided to do.”
…
I already have a little fox to worry about. I don’t need this.
You just want so way to get us indebted to you.
…
…
“So, when are you going to explain?” Cattleya asked.
“What’s there to explain?” I ended up giving in a little in hopes that if I just entertained her for a mont, she would lose interest, “I know you saw what happened. I know you were watching us. I know you were listening to us! Why put on this act?!”
“But I need you to explain it?” She said, sounding genuinely confused.
Even I don’t really know what happened there. So what do you want to tell you?!
I just… I…
“I just pushed her a little too hard… maybe… She just wanted so ti alone to cool her head after an eventful day.”
That’s all it was.
She just needed so space.
And I was just a little worked up about it. It’ll be fine.
“She said she didn’t know over and over again. Why did she do that?” She stepped closer, “Is there sothing I can do? I’m sure I have sothing to offer.”
“No,” I said, taking a step back, “I know this about you and that ship investigation or whatever it was! I already told you that we’re not doing it. Anything where you need to pay soone that much isn’t the place for or my sister. So stop doing this!”
“What do you an? Isn’t more money a good thing? Wait, no, that is not what I’m talking about,” She let out a blatantly fake cough before readjusting her clothes, “I just want to find out if there is sowhere that soone of my… position can help. With no greater reason behind it. Nothing more than a good deed for the sake of a good deed.”
“Then why don’t you go do your good deeds elsewhere?” I asked sarcastically as I turned away again.
“No, I have already made up my mind,” She sohow appeared in front of , “I want to do this. Now, you have to tell .”
“I don’t have to tell you anything.”
“But I told you to tell ?” She tilted her head a little before bringing out her pouch of coins again, “Do I need to pay you to tell ? How much do you want?”
…
I actually chuckled a little at that remark of hers. She cos off as so incredibly confident yet also seems strangely unaware at tis. Unlike Kierra, she’s a hard person to read. If this was in any other circumstance, I might have found talking to her quite entertaining.
“Y’know what?” I knew that what I was about to do probably wasn’t a good idea, but it was better than continuing to do nothing, if only barely, “If you really want to get involved in all this, you can stay here and listen to thinking out loud, but if you get nothing out of it please just leave us alone.”
“So how much?” She asked, shaking the pouch so that the coins clattered together.
“Nothing,” I slumped down against the wall, “Just sit and listen if you really want to. You’ve already made it more than clear that I can’t force you to leave.”
She paused for a mont as if she needed so ti to understand what I had said. However, as soon as she finally seed to register that I didn’t want any money, she put the pouch of coins away and joined in sitting against the wall.
“My sister, she’s… shy,” I started to speak, “She doesn’t really like talking to people, especially those she doesn’t know. But that isn’t a new thing; she’s been that way for as long as I’ve known her.”
But she has gotten much better.
“Sothing kinda similar actually happened about two years ago. The two of us were out shopping on sothing of a sister date. At least… that’s how I rember it, but that’s a little secret,” I let out a faint laugh as I knew that I wouldn’t be able to do so again as I continued with the story, “We got a little unlucky that day, and I ended up bumping into a knight on the street. He wasn’t particularly upset by it, or if he was, I don’t really rember, but what I do rember is that he was big… My sister was… a little shocked by the whole ordeal.”
“Why?” Cattleya asked.
“No questions. You’re just listening to think out loud. It’s not a conversation, just trying to organise my thoughts,” I watched her slink back a bit before continuing to speak, “She didn’t take it too well and started to panic. I took her right ho after that, but she… wanted so ti to herself. I was just worried about that sort of thing happening again after you suddenly showed up in the middle of our lunch and started proclaiming that you knew all these things about us.”
She didn’t respond this ti.
“I just wanted to help her perk up afterwards so she didn’t think about it too much. She tends to overthink these kinds of things, after all. But, well, you saw how that went,” I said, “It’s not that I don’t want to give her her space when she needs it… It’s just that the last ti this happened… after she spent that ti alone, she suddenly tried to-”
The words got stuck in my throat as I realised what I was saying.
She tried to run away.
Wait! Is that what’s happening now?!
But where would she even go?! She doesn’t know this place?!
What if she gets herself into trouble?!
I jumped up in a hurry, “I-I…”
What am I supposed to do?!
I know she roughly went this way, but that’s it!
I don’t know where she is! I can’t let it happen again!
“You!” I looked down at Cattleya, “You said you were following us due to that… that… mana sothing…”
“Mana deficit?”
“Yes, that!” I was already shouting at her, “You said that it was sothing to do with my sister, not ?”
“The kitsune? Yes, it-,” she replied as she stood up.
“Can you find her?!” I interrupted, not needing to hear anything more.
“Maybe, but-”
“No buts,” I grabbed her shoulders, “Just yes or no. Can you find my sister?!”
She seed completely taken aback by what I was doing, but it didn’t matter; this was far more important than anything that could be going through her mind.
“Y-Yes,” She eventually replied.
“Okay, then go,” I spun her around and started to walk her forwards, “Lead the way. I need to find her!”
“A-Alright!” She shouted back.
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