When she returned to the city again, not to ntion others, even Bai Xin was sowhat surprised.
"Xingxing, why were you gone for so long?"
Bai Xin had always thought that Bai Zhi would only return ho for two days, given that Bai Zhi would surely be worried about Bai Fei, and Wu Wa too, but she wasn’t.
"I felt like there was nothing for back here, so I just went ho. I still prefer life there, peaceful and comfortable."
Bai Zhi also didn’t plan to live in her aunt’s house anymore; she intended to live on her own.
Bai Zhi started looking for an apartnt, and just like in the beginning, she did everything herself.
She found a two-bedroom apartnt a street away from the city high school. It was just right for one person, one bedroom for herself and a guest room for Grandpa.
Bai Zhi also went and bought a lot of stuff to make her new ho look very nice.
As for her money, she gave it to Moh Li to help her buy a quadrangle dwelling in Imperial City.
Maybe she could still afford one now, but in the future, she would never be able to.
After all, her patents were worth a lot of money.
Bai Zhi realized that it was quite important to make herself happy. For example, she seed to have found a renewed passion for life.
When Bai Xin learned that Bai Zhi wanted to move out, her first reaction was to refuse. "Xingxing, why don’t you just stay with ? Your aunt’s ho is your ho."
"Aunt, I think it’s quite nice for to live on my own. It’s close to school and convenient. Besides, isn’t it nice for you and Uncle to have your own world?"
Before, Bai Zhi was too embarrassed to say what she really wanted. But now, she no longer thought only of others, no longer accommodating them.
"Xingxing, I don’t need a world of just the two of us, I’m worried about you living alone. If you live with us, I can take care of you, cook for you, I just don’t feel at ease with you living by yourself."
Bai Xin felt sowhat helpless, even a sense of powerlessness. She indeed was not at ease. Finally, Xingxing wasn’t living in the dorms, so she should be living at ho.
"But Aunt, I want to live by myself," Bai Zhi looked seriously at Bai Xin, her eyes full of unprecedented determination. "I want to live on my own, I want to train myself, Aunt."
Bai Xin was startled, as if she saw the Xingxing who once supported all her decisions.
"Aunt, these past two years I’ve beco less and less like myself. I even started to forget what it was I really wanted. I’m always considering others’ thoughts, forgetting what I initially wanted."
These years she had been with Bai Xin, Bai Fei, and Wu Wa. In fact, at the beginning, she just wanted to work hard on her own, to earn lots and lots of small money. Suddenly, she seed to have matured to a certain height, and she couldn’t co back down again.
Now, she didn’t want to be like that anymore, didn’t want to be so considerate of others, didn’t want to be a giver personality type.
"Okay, I understand."
At this mont, Bai Xin suddenly realized that Xingxing really wanted to live by herself. It seed like she had changed sowhere, yet it seed like she hadn’t changed at all.
"How has Wu Wa been lately?"
Even though she said that, she was still concerned about Wu Wa.
"Wu Wa’s been doing well. She’s keeping Bai Xiang company in the hospital. But she cos back to rest every afternoon."
After finishing, Bai Xin slowly spoke. "Also, Bai Fei’s recovery is going well. Following your suggestion to use traditional dicine for treatnt, she’s beco much more stable.
And before, Li Sisi ca to visit once, crying with snot and tears. What’s the use of regrets now?"
Before being detained, Li Sisi had requested to see Bai Fei one last ti. The mont she saw Bai Fei, she couldn’t stop crying. Her daughter, whom she had always complained was too fat, was now nothing but skin and bones.
As for what they talked about, naturally, Bai Xin wouldn’t know. It was probably about how she regretted everything.
Sadly, regrets are quite pointless because everything had already happened. The pain and hurt were there, unable to be erased.
"I understand. I will go visit them in a while."
Bai Zhi nodded, tidied up her little nest, and then bought so fruit and headed for the hospital.
Returning to the hospital, Bai Zhi’s feelings had changed. Previously, she had been thinking about how to care for Bai Fei’s emotions and make arrangents, but now she was simply there to see Bai Fei.
Seeing Bai Zhi, Wu Wa ran over and took her hand, full of happiness.
"Ah Zhi, you’re back. I missed you so much."
Wu Wa had always missed Bai Zhi, but she knew Ah Zhi was upset and needed to cool off, so she behaved and didn’t bother her.
"Mm, I’ll go see Bai Fei and then co out to talk to you."
Bai Zhi, carrying the items, walked in. Bai Guang was there, keeping watch over Bai Fei.
When they saw Bai Zhi, both Bai Guang and Bai Fei were startled, even feeling as if it had been ages since they last saw her.
"Xingxing, you’re back."
Bai Guang had been on vigil at the hospital for half a month, not daring to leave for a mont, and had co to realize just how much the once-called Bai Zhi had given.
That should have been his duty as a father, and yet, he had left it all to his niece.
"Uncle, how is cousin’s recovery going? I ca to check on her."
Bai Zhi smiled, looked over at Bai Fei, and also offered a polite smile.
Bai Fei looked a bit troubled; they hadn’t been like this before, never so formal. But why had it co to this? Bai Fei’s eyes reddened slightly.
"Xingxing, can we ever go back, just because of a ’senior’?"
Bai Fei had thought a lot recently. The matter with the ’senior’ indeed had nothing to do with Bai Zhi; it was her own attitude that was the problem.
Ever since these events, she felt as though everyone was laughing at her, certainly thinking she got what she deserved; she saw absolutely nothing right in anyone.
She began to fantasize that she was liked by soone, and that soone was the ’senior’ she imagined.
Before Bai Zhi could speak, Bai Guang blew up.
"What ’senior’? Explain yourself. Bai Fei, you’re still so young, and it’s about a ’senior’ now?"
Bai Zhi couldn’t help but laugh at that; her uncle was still so full of energy.
"Shut up! Can you leave when I’m speaking to Bai Zhi? Don’t you know to avoid suspicion?"
Bai Fei directly confronted Bai Guang. Now that Bai Fei’s health was gradually improving, her state of mind was also slowly returning to normal.
Indeed, when soone is in a low mood, negative thoughts always seem to prevail, which is natural.
Negative emotions amplify infinitely, leading to the most hurtful words being spoken.
Bai Guang watched as his daughter shifted from her previous dim state to now being able to yell at him.
"Alright, alright, I’ll leave. But don’t think this is over. You still have to clear things up with ," he insisted.
Don’t think he would let it slide so easily; that was not going to happen.
Having said his piece, Bai Guang left the room before Bai Fei could erupt, and thoughtfully closed the door behind him.
"Xingxing, I apologize to you. I was too harsh before, never considering your situation, and during our argunt, I was only thinking of myself."
Bai Fei looked at Bai Zhi earnestly. It took half a month of serious self-reflection for her to realize just how selfish she had been.
"In the end, I just assud you wouldn’t get angry, that you would indulge and let get away with anything."
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