He looks at full of sorrow. Why I don't want his long thing? If it was soone else who asked that question, I would have broken that person's long thing. Kyo is too innocent for this world. Though I want to preserve this innocence, I can't. I have to explain before it becos painful for him.
Ivor and Deia are asleep. I can hear Mogrok's snores. I was planning to talk about this matter later, but Kyo isn't making it easy.
"Kyo." I smile at him. "Do you know the aning of your words?"
He furrows his brows slightly. "I want to give all of myself to you. I want to see you happy."
It's only him who loves this much in my both lifetis. "Kyo, you are most precious to . You are precious to more than my life.."
I finally see him smile. The sadness is gone from his eyes. "You are the only one who is precious to ."
For now. I stroke his hair. "Kyo, there are many kinds of love. I love you as your sister, friend, guardian... To be honest, even calling it love is an understatent."
"I feel the sa." He tells warmly, "You are everything to ."
How do I explain to him when he is talking like that? "Kyo, there is another kind of love... that is the love between man and woman. When you beco a man, I believe that you will et a woman who will make your heart and mind go crazy. You see, you are only allowed to do those things with her only. Your special woman."
He becos silent and blinks at . I see him trying to understand the aning of my words.
"What things?" He asks gravely.
The most difficult part.
I wipe the sweat on my forehead. If I leave Mogrok to do it, I am afraid that Kyo will turn into a pervert. "Kissing... especially, on lips... t-t-touching special places... "
"What special places?" He frowns deeper.
I clear my throat. "All the places that are covered by clothes must be seen and touched only by special soone. That's why... You can't ever put your hands in my shirt. Your long... thing only belongs to that special woman who will appear in your life in future."
"Special woman?" His smile is gone. "You are my special woman. Then, I can see and touch you too."
Back to square one. "Kyo, I know that I am special to you, but I can't beco special to you like a woman is to a man. That special woman will beco your wife."
"You are my wife, Sister." He sits up and looks at my clothes. "I want to see the covered parts."
I put my arms over my chest. "You can't, Kyo. I am not your special woman. I am not your wife. That wedding was child play. You can't get married like this."
The surrounding becos colder. He looks at darkly. "You were playing with . You are bad, Sister."
I don't know why I feel guilty when he looks at like this. "Kyo, calm down. You can't marry anyone. You and I can never get married. You only marry a special woman. That special woman will beco the mother of your children. You can't marry soone who is already your family. To , you are my precious younger brother. Brother and sister cannot be married."
He puckers his lips and looks at like I have wronged him. He doesn't understand. Why do I feel like a player?
"Sister, I understand." He speaks after a long silence. His voice is heartbreakingly sorrowful. "You are waiting for a special man. You don't see as your special man. You don't see as your husband. You want to give that special place to soone else."
I am at loss for words. I don't know what to say. How did it beco about ? I was only educating about relationships.
His lips tremble and tears run down on his cheeks. "Sister hates being my special woman."
"Kyo, it's not like that." I reach for his hand, but he rejects and steps away. "I don't hate it. You are special to . There won't be anyone as special as you. There will be no other special man. Don't cry."
He doesn't co close to . "Then, do you accept as your special man? I want to have a real marriage with you. I want to have children with you. I want to do all those things that a man do to his special woman."
I pinch my lips together. That's not possible. He doesn't understand the aning of his words. It's my fault. I didn't want him to grow up so soon. So, I kept him inside a cage. I should have encouraged him to make friends at the academy. If I continue to treat him like a child and give in to his demands, he will get hurt. Kyo needs to grow up.
"No." I tell him sternly, "You cannot do those things with . I cannot accept you as my lover. Kyo, you need to understand. I will explain it better when we reach the middle realm. Go to sleep now. It's a long journey."
His expression gives heartache to . I hate myself for saying those words. Perhaps, I should have said them in another way. He turns his back to and says, "If Sister doesn't want as your special man, I will go away."
"Kyo, don't." He doesn't stop when I call him. The space around us warps abnormally. Afraid, I try to grab onto him. With a step, Kyo walks into the darkness and disappears.
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