"Do you still love her?" she asked again.
"Who?"
"Your Ayla", she asked, making massage my forehead.
"Where did this question pop up?" I asked.
"I don’t know where it cos from but I always wondered why you always talk an things to from the very start. At first you put a border line when you signed the contract and made too. I clearly have no idea what is going on in your mind but I kept having this feeling as if I’m losing myself in this chase finding sothing. You know that...."
She said while I again found myself in a dilemma.
"When that prom night solved things which were hard to figure out and I thought now things are ok here you again started acting weird all of sudden bring up my ex."
"Could you please stop ntioning about your ex?" I tried to be calm as I heard her saying sothing I don’t want to hear.
"Why? As I clearly said he is my ex not present", I can’t believe we are still arguing on this.
I took a deep breath while all of sudden my hands grabbed her shoulder with force.
"You know what, let tell you what my problem is with your ex."
"You know the mont I ca to you and you startled it is not you who said that you were scared to see all of sudden but he did which was supposed to be inford by you not so out side I don’t know."
"Having you argue with for him made imagine what would be those days when you both were in a relationship."
"It makes wonder did he hold you just like I do?"
"Did he make love to you the way I do?"
"Did he kiss those lips of yours just like I do?"
"Or do you want to hear more from ?"
"If you don’t stay away from or I don’t know what I will do which will hurt you even more than you can imagine", I said while losing my grip on her.
She didn’t say anything as if I was talking to a wall.
"Ok better you agreed with ", I said and left.
I know this made a huge wall between us but if I wouldn’t do this then it will only tear apart. I know she could have asked about my past relationship but she clearly knew the mont she ca there was nothing else but she only but the mont she asked the question I made changes so as not to let myself get hurt all over again.
"Are you leaving?" Jennifer asked.
"Yeah," I replied.
"What about the breakfast Ayla made for you? Are you going to go just like this?" she asked again.
"Yeah if I stay here any further I can’t guarantee what will be the outco."
"Did sothing happen?" she asked again.
"Maybe there is sothing more than just happened", I smiled scratching my head just like a shy teenager.
"Oh ok I won’t ask", she replied.
"Thanks", this was my last word in her place.
I was completely lost in my thoughts after I left her place but so random scenario kept on building inside my head.
"Her way of saying is just the sa, making have hope one more ti", I said.
"Her?" soone spoke out of nowhere.
"You? What are you doing here?" I asked to see Jas outside of her place.
"That is what I need to ask. What are you doing here? Why are you coming out of her place? Where were you last night and why is your phone switched off?" He asked lots of questions at once.
"You don’t need to know where I go and where I spend my night", I tried to leave when I heard another voice.
"He doesn’t but I need to know", it was Galhan.
I turned again with annoyance.
"Are you trying to beco a stalker now?"
"I’m not sure but I’m assigned to whatever I could do in order to have your whereabouts even if it ans to be a stalker I will accept it."
Why
Why
Why
Why is everyone chewing my freaking head?
"I don’t know what the hell is wrong with you two and why the hell are you roaming around like you guys are my tail but cant I have my fucking personal life? Can’t I have fun on my own? If I can just leave alone.
I’m literally getting tired of this. I can’t do this anymore unless I cut both of you out of my own freaking life."
This isn’t not even 10 but I’m bursting as if I have been keeping my anger the entire day.
"What the fucking issue here?
And why do you both know my place as if you two put so tracker on to track down. It’s like I’m going to die and you two are trying to stop it."
My throat started feeling itchy.
"I’m sorry for all the trouble but you need to stop roaming around with that girl. It is risky for your fa", I can’t believe Galhan said this.
Did I hear sothing incorrect?
I don’t know but it really doesn’t make any sense to .
"Ok if it is your work right now I will talk to grandpa again."
I let out my phone when I ca to my senses that I don’t have charge on my phone. I looked up while they were still looking at .
"I don’t have charge now so I will talk to him after I finish charging my phone", I said and left before them.
Now I understand Galhan’s issue but what is wrong with Jas. When did he act like my bodyguard? If I rember correctly then I never saw him act like a tail in front of then why now?
Why does he get angry whenever I ntion Ayla’s na?
Why did he get angry when I asked her whereabouts?
Why does he get angry when I say I’m still searching for her?
Why?
Why?
Why?
Everything is making go crazy.
I’m still in the cab when my eyes closed on their own, making land on my past mory.
"Did you confess to him?" I’m standing far away but still I’m seeing my child self asking Ayla.
I still rember the day.
"Ayla, I’m asking sothing, did you confess to him", I beca forceful holding her shoulder which made feel the sa as I did just a few minutes ago.
I can see her snatching my hand and pushing away.
"Yeah I confessed to ." she shouted.
"Yeah I love him so what?" her voice went louder.
"So what?"
"Why the fuck are you asking if I did or not?"
"Who the hell are you to ask ?"
"Who the hell are you?"
She kept on shouting, making lose my face in front of her until I left her.
Why did I ended up in this mory? Is it because I said sothing like this to Ayla too? Is it because it was too an? Is it because I couldn’t control my anger anymore?
Why? Why? why?
"You should have loved Ayla", I heard my child self mumbling to her but she couldn’t hear.
As my child self walked out of the place I followed him and sat beside him in the bench.
"What should I do to make her love ?"
"She love Jas but why can’t it be ?"
"Is it because he always behaves kindly when he is horrible inside or does she like that kind of nature?"
"Still why it is always him but I’m not?"
"Whyyy?"
I wanted to pat myself but I wasn’t able to grasp him.
"Sir"
"Sir"
"Sir"
"Ah, yeah", I woke up from my dream.
"We have reached", as he said I ca out of the cab and went inside but I see sothing which I never expected.
"Grandpa?"
"What are you doing here?" I asked and went closer to him.
"I had to co because of your childish behaviour", he said, throwing a file in front of just like Galhan did one day before.
"What is it?" I asked.
"Your insolent behaviour", he said while I picked up the file finding more photos of and Agla from yesterday’s night.
"If it’s insolent behaviour then what are you doing grandfather?" I asked him instead of putting the file in front of him.
"Aaron!!!" he shouted.
"No grandfather you are forgetting that Aaron is no longer my na but it’s Xenon, Xenon Carter."
"How dare you talk back to your grandfather?" he groaned in anger.
"When my grandfather doesn’t know how to respect one’s privacy then why should I bother to have the respect not to talk back to you?"
"Aaron"
He again shouted my na while Jas and Galhan entered through the entrance, reminding of a drama going on here.
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