Lixiu wasn’t saying that Mo Yan didn’t understand; what she didn’t say was that she feared unknowingly investing all her feelings only to fail in achieving a fruitful relationship. How would she cope if it really ca to that?
In her past life, she was too scared to fall in love, and had never been in a relationship, yet she had witnessed the love of others. Take her elder brother, for instance, such a mature and wise man, who even said that even if he encountered love, he would not beco unlike himself, as many do, going to pieces over a lost love and becoming neurotic. However, when he t a girl he admired, he plunged headlong into love without looking back.
That relationship ultimately didn’t work out, and thereafter her brother never spoke of love again. Until her death, her thirty-five-year-old brother remained single. He couldn’t forget that girl and wasn’t willing to just find soone for the sake of it. To numb himself, he threw all his energy into his work and expanded the company’s scale several tis over in just a few years.
However, everyone in the family, including her, knew clearly that the brother was unhappy and not blessed. They even wished he would waste away like many other young people consud by dissipation and luxury, believing it could at least bring him temporary happiness. But the brother remained like a dry well, calm, yet devoid of life.
She knew her own nature; once she fell into the whirlpool of emotions, she feared she would be more helpless than her brother. To seek but not find is a very painful thing; to have and then lose is even more despairing. Just thinking about it made her so uncomfortable she couldn’t catch her breath! She was timid and didn’t dare to accept that person’s feelings, constantly reminding herself not to fall too deeply, simply because she lacked confidence in this relationship. It was better never to have started than to cultivate a fruitless bond.
Yet, while she was afraid of falling into this fruitless relationship and never recovering, she had already, unbeknownst to herself, been smitten with that person, her affections even deeper than she had imagined. If it weren’t for this accident, she wouldn’t have known when she would be able to face her own feelings.
Seeing Mo Yan’s expression changing without speaking, the furrows of her brow becoming deeper, Lixiu, as soone with firsthand experience, quickly understood what she was worried about and sighed, saying, "Yan girl, there’s an old saying, ’It’s all up to us’. Whether it’s love or wanting to obtain sothing, you need to strive for it. Effort might not guarantee success, but without effort, failure is certain. How can you know which it will be without trying? If you strive for it and still fail, at least you won’t have any regrets, right? If you don’t make the effort and let it slip away before your eyes, ask yourself, can you accept that?"
Can you accept that?
Mo Yan looked blankly at the sky to the North and silently asked herself. Of course, she couldn’t! It wasn’t easy to et soone you liked in life, and so might not et that person in their entire lifeti. She was fortunate enough to et him, how could she let it go?
She truly couldn’t bring herself to give up; since that was the case, why not take Aunt Li’s advice and actively pursue it once? Even if the result wasn’t what she hoped for, she wouldn’t have any regrets!
With that thought, Mo Yan’s eyes suddenly brightened, and she made a silent decision in her heart. If this ti, he could return safely... No, she shook her head forcefully, banishing the negative thoughts from her mind. Maomao had already sent the Black Lingzhi, and Little Flower had brought the Spirit Spring Water—he must return safely, certainly!
Lixiu felt her change and a look of relief appeared on her face. One has to comprehend matters of emotion themselves; otherwise, no matter how much others say, it’s useless. She didn’t know if it was good or bad to have consoled Yan girl in this way today. She didn’t want Yan girl to miss out on a good match and end up like her, full of regrets. Fortunately, Yan girl had co to an understanding...
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