Aselia’s POV
That one word ablaze the very blood that coursed through my veins, taking along the pain that made every bit of my existence excruciatingly ache.
So not only she took advantage of his innocence, she rap*d him when he was still underage. Why was she still breathing? The clutch I was holding slipped from my hand and cluttered to the floor.
"Seventeen? You are telling you were a kid when she did what she did," I asked with clenched teeth, it was like I could sense his emotions. He was watching with a guarded expression, not trying to reveal more than he had to.
"Aselia, I told you I was innocent like you. The only woman I had known until that ti was my mother and I thought all won were like her, gentle and caring. I had left my house with Rivan and everything was new for . We t Cybile in a club and she instantly took a liking for and I was srized by her beauty. It was fun in the beginning and I did everything she said. But then at tis, it would beco a bit much for to handle, so she started using her powers on ."
My heart scread in pain at his words, if he was saying a bit much that ant it was sothing unfathomable for I had seen him endure pain.
"What did she do to you?" I lanted and he tried to hug instead of answering my question, his beautiful features were pained and I hated seeing him in pain.
"NO, don’t comfort , fu*k this, let feel this pain as you have felt. Just tell what she did," the tumultuous emotions in his eyes told he won’t reveal what she did. There was a raging storm inside as a lone tear escaped my eye, he was quick to wipe it. I kept asking questions:
"Why didn’t you erase her mories? Why did she still rember you? How did you escape her?"
"It took years, but I finally beca strong enough to escape her and tell her I was done, Rivan helped as well but I couldn’t erase her mories, my powers were still no match for her, until now. She can’t harm us anymore, her powers don’t work on now."
He offered a small smile hoping to obliterate the storm which was bubbling inside , I couldn’t help but ask:
"How co you don’t hate won after that horrible experience? How have you been with so many more?"
"She was the only one who treated like that and I am not fully innocent. I kept going back to her, thinking at tis I deserved what happened to , sotis I just enjoyed pain, which helped forget the reality of my wretched life. I thought I didn’t deserve love," my insides writhed in agony his words carried, and my hands began to tremble at the revelations he was making, he paused and took my face in his hands, putting a stray lock behind my ear so gently, before continuing:
"Cybile taught a lot, she helped mold into the man I am today. I learnt from this experience that everyone deserved to have a choice. That’s the reason I always give everyone a choice, even my enemies. I always warn before choosing violence. Every girl who ca into my life did that of her own accord. If anyone wanted to leave, I never stopped them."
The re thought of him considering this to be sothing he deserved made want to scream at him. Tears freely flowed from my eyes and he kept wiping them with his palms.
"But she destroyed that part of my heart that wanted to love soone, that wanted to own soone and make them mine, to open my heart to soone, this was all rely reduced to lust. Of course, fear of my father finding out the person I loved acted as a catalyst as well."
He paused again and smiled at , the tornts in his eyes subsided a fraction as he whispered:
"Until you, I don’t know what you did, when you did, or how you did it. You just took a permanent abode in my heart without knowing it, making it the first ti that I didn’t want soone to leave ."
His words didn’t calm the tempest that was wrecking my insides, they fuelled it for I understood why he kept loving even after everything I did to him. He didn’t deem himself worthy to be loved, his father had broken him, Cybile had broken him and then I ca along and broke him too.
I understood his fears to keep safe for there were so many people who wanted to tear him apart. This broke , how could I ever be cruel to him after everything he has been through I was sure this was only the tip of the iceberg of what he was made to suffer.
"Xiran...." his na got choked in my throat, "I am sorry we all hurt you, it’s us who don’t deserve your love not the other way around. You deserve so much better."
I couldn’t bear to be away from him any longer, moving forward I buried myself in his waiting arms and hid away in his chest. Smudging his coat with my tears and makeup. How was he still so calm after all this?
"Shhhh, it’s ok. Don’t cry, I wanted to keep you away from my ss but seems like my past has no plans of remaining in the past. Now I wish I had made better choices, forgive for my past actions have hurt you," he shifted into his lap and I snuggled close to him, not wanting to speak just wanting to feel him close.
His whole being covered like snowfall enveloping the ground, making it white, pure white. I did not want to ever let go of him, for he was mine and he made whole.
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