Two things co to my mind while looking at Marcuss hulking form. For a second, my rage is forgotten.
Number one, wasnt I supposed to fight a Foxman? And if Foxn exist, are there Foxwon? Or is Foxman the na of the whole species? Also, how hot are we talking? Like, big fluffy tail plus hot woman body or what? And wasnt I supposed to fight a half-giant too? Are half-giant boobies proportional to their bodies? Look, Im usually relatively uninterested in all this shit, but it would have made it a very interesting experience.
Number two, even if I kill Marcus, arent other [Archmages] still going to kill ? And what am I going to do about Stanimal? He kind of dismissed the fact that I was basically going to fight with a goddamn Dragon, didnt he?
Its weird how clarity hits your ass in these monts. It feels like walking in a dreamscape while awake: everything feels blurred, and the boundaries with reality are blended with the subconscious. In a way, I feel alienated from myself. Its like Im playing myself in a videoga, puppeteering my own life. At so point, you beco aware of yourself, and when so many things hit you, you kind of default to auto-pilot. Its hard to exemplify, but just think of the monts in your life when you are going so fast that you dont act like yourself but like the strings that you move within yourself. You dont have ti to think things through; you just pull the strings you believe you are supposed to pull. To put it more simply, when life speeds up, you just act like you think you are supposed to.
So, while Im about to fucking die, I realize Im not sure Ive been 100% myself these few days. I probably need a holiday, possibly on a tropical island where the average chest size is three tis the Swedish average and yes, before you ask, it is one of the countries that boasts about having the most incredible talent in that field. If I could just put my head between a massive pair of flesh pillows for a couple of days, Im sure that so Freudian super-psyche would finally catch up with .
And while I stare at the humongous body of my enemy, spiky, slimy, ugly, hulking, I cant help but think of Greek mythology. I an, dude, when you are about to die, and you have studied tragedy and myths this is it, you know? This is as tragic and mythological as it gets. A big ugly Dragon that wants to kill you after you have spared the heroines life? Thats Lucinda, I think. Well, its very fatalistic. Your aides are frozen, and no one is throwing themselves in harms way? I an, that hurts, doesnt it? I get it, though. They have to be practical all of them but Stan, really.
It sucks.
I dont know. I kind of wish soone would fucking jump in front of Marcus. Just as a nice gesture, you know? Instead, this is so Human. This is all so very diplomatic, so very political. So real. Wouldnt you expect sothing more heroic? Sothing better? I an, this is a fantasy world. Here is where the magic happens. So, what is wrong with these people?
Dude, this is making so angry. It really doesnt make sense: how can people who can be anything just be so plain? I an, not that Im the one to speak about this. On Earth, I was what I was. But here? Here, Im trying. Im making an effort. Man, if I saw sothing like this happen in front of , Id be fucking running from the battlent to fight! Is there no one with a fucking spine? Is there really nothing that moves these people to act? And look, even if the other [Archmages] or the lord of the fucking nine hells were threatening Stanimal or the others, Id still fucking jump in!
Where is courage? Where is heroism?!
What a piss poor excuse of a magical world. And the problem is that Im not sure Im good enough to show these people how it should be done, how they should act. I an, I can lead by a good example, but I have a gut feeling that Im really going to get my ass served. Its unsettling. Knowing that you are going to die, that is. And Im not being pessimistic, its just I dont know. Im still going to kill this fucking Dragon first. Thats for sure. Then, Ill die.
I dont know whether my personality will one day manifest itself completely, if Im going crazy, if Im good enough to be a hero, a [Hero], or even just a symbol or sothing. But one thing is for sure: Im going out with a bang.
US of A-style, baby.
Lord Juler, at least, is taking over the controller to play the best ga possible and see if we can indeed kill this fucker. Man, Ive been swearing so much lately. Its really true, mom, that I get rougher when you are not around.
and all the bastard Vanedenis!
What? Looking at the smug Dragon, I realize I might have just missed a critical villain monologue. Admittedly, it was probably very clich, but still. I got a bit lost, didnt I?
I start casting my last ace when shit really starts going down.
And when I say down, its not like shits falling on the floor.
Hell no.
We are talking about shit literally hitting Satans horns in the deepest recess of hell.
Do you rember how I talked about Greek tragedies not even a second ago?
Well, whats happening right now has a specific na in tragedy. It is called
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