I left Xibalba a conqueror, holding my father’s skull in my hand and with Mother following in my wake.
I didn’t look back.
The city opened its gates through the mist and let us walk through its dark doors. The desert surrounding the House of Fright stretched across the horizon, the statues of destroyed totems standing still under the pale gray sky. I’d buried my carrying fra and its contents there.
“Are you well, Father?” I asked him out of concern. He hadn’t said a word since we left the ballcourt behind us.
“I…” The fire in his eyes slightly wavered. “I think so.”
“You do not sound well,” I replied while glaring at Mother. She didn’t even have the decency to look at the husband she sacrificed.
“I’m… rely shaken,” Father replied. He sounded tired, like soone waking from an exhausting nightmare. “It… it could have been worse, Iztac. I wasn’t in there for long, so I… I just need a second to gather my thoughts.”
We ought to consider ourselves lucky then. Very lucky indeed. Father was a strong soul with great willpower, but being absorbed into an embodint of primordial fear would have probably driven him mad from prolonged exposure. As it was, he was only spooked.
I let Father rest for now as I I moved closer to the statues and used the Doll to unearth the carrying fra from underneath the owl totem. Mother observed us without a word, too guilty to speak up or apologize.
That ship had sailed long ago.
I examined the fra to check on its contents. To my astonishnt, the urn I was ant to deliver to Tlaloc and the First Emperor’s Codex inside it remained untouched. I would have expected Mother to steal one or the other while I ventured into Xibalba, but I supposed the city enforced certain rules against thieves. That or the totem indeed protected my belongings.
With Xibalba’s trials completed, I would now ascend to Tlalocan and confront its godly master for his embers; after settling another matter first, of course.
I put the carrying fra on my back and broke the silence. “Where is the way to Mictlan, Ichtaca?”
The fact I called her by her na rather than ‘Mother’ ought to get the point across. It certainly woke her up from her guilty torpor. “The… way?”
“The door I used to enter this layer is one-way only, and I need to return Father to his proper afterlife.” Far away from you, I left unsaid. “Why do you think I spared you back there?”
Father’s eyes glowed in his eye sockets. “I… I have no wish to return to Mictlan, my son.”
That took aback. “Father, I will descend into the Underworld’s third layer soon enough. It will be a dangerous journey and I may not be able to protect you.” My grip on his skull tightened, my eyes glaring at the pitiful woman who once gave birth to . “You cannot hope to stay with this… this traitor.”
“There was… no treachery,” Father replied, his voice a little firr. Speaking seed to help him put his thoughts in order. “I… I knew my fate from the start, my son.”
Mother flinched as if she had been slapped. “From…” Her voice was weak, hardly a whisper. “From the start?”
“When you took to this city… you said I should not take anything that I was willing to lose with ,” Father reminded her with a small, ghostly sigh. How he managed to do so without a body escaped . “I… Well, I assud I was one of those things, my love. You left us once already.”
Mother stood still for a brief instant, then collapsed to her knees, sobbing.
I looked with disgust at this weakling witch who only learned the true value of people after she had discarded them. I felt cautious respect for her once, even harboring the hope that we might nd the bridge separating us, but now only loathing remained. I glanced at Father, expecting to see a similar feeling in his ghostfire eyes, or at least disappointnt.
Instead, he looked at her with compassion.
“Are you pitying her, Father?” His wasted kindness boggled my mind. This selfish wench, who had cast away everyone who ever cared for her, did not deserve his rcy. “After everything she did to you, to us? Why won’t you spit on her?”
“That’s… that’s the thing about unconditional love, my son. It cos without reservations.” Father marked a short pause. “However…”
It was strange how a simple word could carry such weight. Mother looked up at him with genuine fear and worry, her flayed heart faltering at the re hint of her husband condemning her.
“I have seen things… things on which I cannot close my eyes anymore, Ichtaca,” Father said, his voice heavier than stones. “When that… that evil thing made a part of it, I beca one with the terrors of the living… yours included. I beca one with fear itself and learned of so many evil deeds…” Another short silence followed as Father mustered the courage to broach a most cruel matter. “Including our daughter.”
Mother stared down at the ground in guilt and sha. She did not deny it. I would have felt a pang of familial sympathy if she wasn’t the reason Nenetl had found herself caught in the Nightlords’ grasp.
“Did you think I would think less of you if you admitted it?” Father asked softly. This ti, I did detect a hint of disappointnt in his words. “Oh, Ichtaca… I forgave you for abandoning us. I would have done the sa if only you had reached out to her the sa way you did with Iztac. It is your unwillingness to right your past wrongs that I… that I cannot accept anymore.”
He said these words with a strange kind of finality, firm yet gentle. They carried no anger, but no rcy either. Father was the kindest man I had ever t, and I’d rarely heard him set his foot down in the past.
Mother gulped. “Itzili…”
Father did not let her finish. “I cannot enable you anymore, my love. I thought that with ti… I thought that with ti, your better nature would co through… that you would put our son ahead of your selfish desires. I still want to believe there is good buried deep within you, but…” He marked a short pause as he searched for the right words. “It cannot stay buried anymore. This… this has to change. You have to change, do you understand?”
“I’m…” Mother clenched her fists in her weakness. “I’m not sure I can.”
I snorted in disdain. “You certainly won’t if you refuse to take a single step.”
“I have faith in you, Ichtaca… even if you do not believe in yourself,” Father replied kindly. “Are you happy as you are… driving everyone who cares for you away? Hiding and losing everything again and… over again?”
“I only ant well,” Mother protested. “Once we beca gods, I would have made everything right. I would have saved you, saved our daughter. The end would forgive the ans.”
“You are mistaken,” Father replied sadly. “An end… an end is shaped by the ans used to reach it… and what we ant matters less than what we did.”
My jaw tightened slightly. While Father spoke to Mother first and foremost, I sensed a hint of reproach directed at . Knowing him, he hadn’t appreciated my speech to the Lords of Terror.
“Moreover, I… I know what deal you have made with the lords of this place to create your sanctuary,” Father said, his wife flinching at his words. “The souls within it are only safe for a ti. They will experience the illusion of life, but… once you have obtained and recorded all of their knowledge… their protection will be stripped away and the Lords will feed on their fear of their paradise coming to an end.”
I would have loved to say Mother’s deceit surprised , but I only expected the worst from her by now.
“You will return those souls to their proper afterlife in Mictlan above, one way or another,” Father insisted. “They… they all deserve better than a fleeting false hope and an eternity of tornt.”
“But their knowledge…” Mother protested. “They know so much…”
“Nothing that you hope to glean is worth the sacrifice of so many souls, my love. I will not abandon my children to eternal suffering in a vampire’s belly either. You will help us get them out of the Nightlords’ grasp, or…” Father’s bone jaw tightened. “Or this is farewell, my love.”
Mother remained silent for a mont, but then nodded weakly. After nearly losing her husband—the only person in the entire cosmos who still loved her—she was unwilling to risk him again.
This served well. While I detested Mother and distrusted any help she could provide, I still required Astrid to destroy Iztacoatl for good. If she had any sense, she would behave herself from now on. I would not be so rciful as Father.
Nonetheless, a detail caught my ear.
“Help us?” I asked. “Father, I told you I cannot take you any further down.”
“I will not stay in Mictlan praying that you succeed… I refuse to stand on the sidelines while my… my children risk everything,” Father insisted. “There is… there is another way for to remain at your side.”
I stared into the skull’s eyes and imdiately guessed what he ant. “No,” I said. “No way.”
“I have discussed this with the previous emperors,” Father insisted, confirming my suspicions. “I will not say I have much wisdom to offer, but at least… At least this way I can help you shoulder the burden of your quest and provide what little comfort I can.”
“I won’t use the Legion spell on you,” I replied sharply. “Besides the fact your mind would ld with a thousand more, you cannot fathom the suffering my predecessors are going through every waking mont. It is torture.”
“Then I hope my company will alleviate so of their pain… and yours,” Father said, his voice suddenly full of wariness. “Also, I… I think you need an advisor who will help you stay on the right path.”
My jaw clenched at the subtle reproach. “What is that supposed to an?”
“I heard… I heard what you told the First Fear,” Father explained. “I am… concerned, my son.”
“It was a bluff,” I reassured him. “I have no intention to do the Lords’ bidding.”
“But you would have followed through with your threat, had the First Fear denied your request,” Father said, the glow in his eyes flickering. “Do not deny it, Iztac. I saw… I saw the evil in your heart, as did the First Fear. I know what you would have done. What you are… what you are capable of.”
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I wondered how much he had seen. I wouldn’t put it past the First Fear to show him my worst sins without the context that made them necessary.
“Yes,” I confessed softly. “Yes, I would have burned this whole rotten world if it ant saving or avenging you. You are my father and raised from birth. You thought I would simply surrender you without a fight?”
“Iztac, while part of appreciates the thought…” Father searched for the right words. “I will not beco your excuse.”
His words felt like a slap on my cheek. “You can’t tell you would rather have spent eternity trapped in that cursed city?!”
“That was a price I was willing to pay for your safety,” Father replied, much to my utter consternation. “I took the burden of that sacrifice so that you… so that your and your mother’s hands would remain clean. So that you would live happy lives away from that awful place.”
“I swear to you that I will live free of the Nightlords one day,” I replied. However, I couldn’t make any promises for Mother after what we went through. “And you will spend your afterlife in peace rather than in eternal tornt. We will get the best of both worlds.”
“No, my son.” Father let out a heavy sigh. “Words have power… doubly so when uttered in the House of Fright. Gaining that awful title of Cizin has stained your soul. Your choice will have consequences.”
“Whatever they are, I will bear them,” I replied confidently. I was not afraid of Xibalba and its craven thralls. “I did what was necessary to save you, and I do not regret it.”
Father didn’t agree. “I wish I could be so sure, yet… yet I fear you have begun to commit cris not out of necessity, but out of convenience.”
“Sinful acts are justified in the service of a righteous cause, Father,” I countered, my heart struggling with a rising feeling of frustration. Why couldn’t he see the big picture? “If you were truly one with the First Fear, then you have seen what Nightlords do. Their very existence makes our world a crueler place to live in!”
“That is true,” Father conceded. “And if you continue down your current path… then you will beco an equal scourge on the world.”
“?” I choked in outrage, my grip on my father’s skull strengthening in cold rage. “I haven’t forced a brother and sister to procreate, nor threatened to hunt and rape a child no older than ten, or tried to reorganize the cosmos into a vampiric realm of sulfur and terror!”
“Yet… yet I’ve seen you abuse Necahual and other won to feel more powerful,” Father replied. “I’ve seen you start a war for glory for gains that will remain elusive. I’ve seen you slaughter our village’s survivors and schoolmates for a spell… and to avenge your wounded pride.”
“I did it to save that wench, though she did not deserve it,” I replied, glaring at Ichtaca. “Though I did negotiate with the wind to earn a spell, it had made its demands clear.”
Father remained convinced. “But if you had the will to argue with the Yaotzin for a greater prize… why didn’t you argue for a lesser price instead?”
His question took aback for a mont, though I had a good reason. “I need more spells to destroy the Nightlords.”
“Then why didn’t you negotiate another, lesser price?” Father sounded so sad it hurt to listen. “Don’t you see, my son? Human lives aren’t fruits to be plucked, to be sold and discarded. Don’t you see how awful that mindset is?”
“We cannot win without sacrifices,” I replied, more and more frustrated with his judgnt. “If I have to choose who dies, then I would rather select those who hurt than innocents.”
“My son, I… I understand your resentnt, and I do not fault you for letting it guide your actions, but… did your schoolmates’ mockeries warrant death? It’s not sothing that should be spread so casually.”
I held his gaze. “It is an emperor’s duty to give people’s life and death value.”
Father stared at with deep sorrow. “Do you truly wish to beco what you fight against, Iztac?”
For a brief second, I was no longer facing my Father’s skull. Instead I saw the great face of King Mictlantecuhtli, who had seen the first world’s dawn and would witness the last sunset. My father’s warning was an echo of the god’s, whose truth I had long ago buried deep within my heart.
Beco what I fought against? I waged war against evil itself! Monsters who ruled the world from high above—like I did, a faint voice whispered in my skull—using and discarding humans at their leisure—sa way I brought witches into the fold and plotted to kill those whose usefulness to had run out—while relishing the death and destruction they sowed in their wake—laughing over the flas which I spread and the blood I shed.
I held my head with a hand as wicked thoughts intruded upon my mind and weakened my resolve. Why was Father’s gaze making doubt myself so much? I had done… I had done what needed to be done. I’d tried other ans before and they never helped prevail.
I tried to tell myself these things, and yet Father’s heavy stare wore down on my resolve anyway. I recalled Queen Mictecacihuatl, who had offered her kindness and protection when I was still an innocent soul full of hope. A grim question gnawed at .
Would she have offered her help had I co to her as I was now? Or would she have looked at with disappointnt, as yet another soul lost to dark ambitions?
It wasn’t the lack of answers that bothered , but the fact I knew them all too well.
“You’re wrong, Father,” I insisted, both to him and myself. I opened my carrying fra and put his skull there next to the urn I was ant to deliver to the great Tlaloc. “You will see.”
“What are you doing?” Father asked in protest. “My son–”
“If you truly wish to co along, then I’ll show you how mistaken you are,” I cut in before closing the carrying fra and trapping my father in darkness. It wouldn’t be the nicest way to transport him to Tlalocan, but it was still better than holding him within my talons. “Just wait.”
The sight of her husband being put into a carrying fra awoke Mother from her self-pitying torpor. “Iztac,” she whispered in protest, though I ignored her. “Iztac, what are you doing?”
“I will go visit Tlalocan and fulfill my destiny,” I replied harshly while using Spiritual Manifestation to take on the shape of a great black owl. “Don’t you dare follow , selfish mother of mine. If you’re wise, you’ll free those poor souls as Father asked of you before I return.”
“Iztac!”
I flew away before she could say another word, leaving only guilt and regrets behind . My great dark wings flapped over the desert surrounding Xibalba, blowing salt and dust across the silent landscape. Hardly a noise disturbed as I ascended upward. The city of evil had let go and I couldn’t hear Father’s muffled words from within the carrying fra.
I was left alone with my doubts.
Beco what I fought against? That was ridiculous. I wouldn’t deny I’d dirtied my hands ti and ti again, but I’d always done so in the service of Yohuachanca’s destruction. Every action that I had taken was only ever ant to free the Nightlords’ grasp on my holand and ensure they would suffer for their cruelty. Even actions committed for my personal gain were ant to increase my power and odds of taking them down.
After all the horrors they had sowed, after they put his children through, how could Father not see that their demise was worth almost any price?
But if I fail, it would have been all for nothing, I thought grimly, my heart-fire wavering. History will rember as just another monster, a mad emperor in a long line of puppet-tyrants.
The thought gnawed at after I escaped Xibalba’s territory and returned to the rest of the Second Layer. Volcanic fus choked the air and the heat suddenly increased. I whipped up a Cloak spell to protect myself by promising I would shower the city of Zachilaa with favor on my way out of the city. A protective wind swirled around , shielding from the flas and ashes raining down from the clouds above.
I looked up at Tlaloc’s blue sun. Its radiance shone upon the world which he had once devastated with fire and brimstone. I knew that his promised land awaited above the clouds; his paradise untouched by the burning and the suffering of his countless victims.
Perhaps it would make a good afterlife for Father, if Tlaloc allowed him to stay there. It would be better than Mictlan, and certainly better than Mother’s false refuge.
A great shadow passed over .
I barely had ti to dodge to the side to avoid a pair of house-sized talons closing on . A monstrous bird passed by with a malevolent shriek of pain and fury, its feathers burned by Tlalocan’s flas and revealing only a skeleton coated in flayed burning flesh. It was huge, many tis bigger than myself, with pitch-black eyes glaring at with seething hatred.
Azcatlapalli.
I had completely forgotten about the mad spirit who had hounded Mother and all the way to Xibalba’s frontier. Had he been waiting outside its borders until I finally escaped its grip, all for the grim pleasure of killing ?
Whatever the case, Azcatlapalli began to chase after across the clouds with relentless aggression. I was smaller and quicker, but it pursued with dogged malice and determination. The spirit had nothing to gain from killing besides the satisfaction of sharing his pain with the living, and that was reason enough to hunt down. Considering the agony from which he suffered since the Third Sun’s final twilight, I could almost sympathize with him.
Almost.
Mother suggested that we avoid a fight with this monster when it first began to stalk us. It would have made a powerful foe once, but I had conquered too many trials to be intimidated and I was too angry for rcy.
This would be a good opportunity to test my newfound strength.
“Fall,” I said, activating the nasake's spell.
The course of gravity changed instantly, from down to sideways. My current version of the Fall could only affect one target, but it proved capable of affecting even sothing as big as Azcatlapalli. The monstrous bird let out a screech as an invisible force pulled him to the left and caused him to lose control of his flight.
I ascended upward to better look down on the wayward spirit.
“I am the fear of the gods,” I boasted, knowing he had been a lesser deity himself before Tlaloc stripped him of everything. “I am with you every ti you look at the sun that burns your wings.”
I had hoped to break Azcatlapalli’s spirit and convince him to let go without a fight; but the flas and the pain had long stripped him of his reason. His agony had burned away everything until only hatred remained.
The monster let out a soul-rending screech and blew his wings at . A mighty gust capable of upturning trees and casting down houses hit in the face. I was flung backward into the clouds, my Cloak spell lessening the impact enough to spare my carrying fra from destruction. The thought of losing my father to this creature incensed .
“Fool,” I snarled as Azcatlapalli flew upward towards . “Return to dust!”
I waved a talon and channeled the power of the Slice. A wind born of my victims’ last breaths cut through the sky in the form of a sharp blade of air. If Azcatlapalli had any remaining sanity left, he would have been wise to dodge it; instead, he was so mad that he took it head-on in his desperation to grab with his beak.
My Slice cut off his left wing at the shoulder, causing the spirit to lose control of his flight. I avoided his last-ditch attempt to eat alive with his beak and watched him fall onto the ashen ground below. His bones cracked at the impact, his shrieks echoing across the burned landscape.
“Now burn,” I said.
I opened my mouth and unleashed a flood of fire from my mouth. The Blaze of my soul erupted from the depths of my being to incinerate the fallen god. A purple inferno rained down from the sky to punish my enemy like Tlaloc’s wrath once did.
Azcatlapalli scread.
If I had lips in my owl form, I would have smiled in cruel joy. My flas seared the last of his flayed flesh to reveal the bones underneath. I put the spirit through the sa agony he suffered at Tlaloc’s hands in the fading days of the Third Sun. I roasted the turkey until only a feeble skeleton remained.
I burned him until he lost the strength to scream and could only whimper. Only then did I stop with a cackle of satisfaction.
“You were a fool to defy ,” I warned him. “I am your prey no longer.”
The monster answered with a pitiful cry of agony; one that brought no satisfaction.
I stopped, my heart-fire wavering. The monster below had been reduced to a one-winged, charred skeleton unable to fly. Azcatlapalli limped on the ground with moans of agony and sorrow, the noise echoing from his skeletal gullet akin to sobs.
Beneath the malice, there was only pain.
As I looked down on the miserable creature, I found myself suddenly overco with pity. Yes, he had tried to kill out of malice; but n once worshiped the creature as a god of beauty if my mother was to be believed. It used to be great and kind until Tlaloc’s wrath reduced him to this sorry state. Centuries of tornt had robbed him of his mind. Azcatlapalli should only inspire compassion.
Yet his suffering had filled with cruel joy.
“This…” I struggled to find my words, the seed of guilt overcoming . “This… this is wrong.”
After experiencing weakness for so many years, I’d begun to revel in my hard-won power. I’d laughed at killing priests and the Nightlords’ soldiers, although most were re fools led astray by lying vampires, taken won as slaves for my pleasure, and delighted in sowing chaos.
I’d committed so many of these sins out of necessity, telling myself that they were re chores in the na of a greater cause, but now I realized I was starting to take a perverse kind of joy in them.
I relished in cruelty.
Just like the Nightlords and the Lords of Terror.
My sunlit blood turned to ice in my veins. It was an awful thing to learn about oneself, to find happiness in the pain of others. I told myself that Azcatlapalli deserved this punishnt for attacking , but it sounded like empty justification even to . Agony had stripped away all his rational thought. He wasn’t even aware of right and wrong anymore, no more than a rabid dog could be blad for biting a man’s hand.
I’d enjoyed tornting this animal because it helped make feel strong. Nothing more.
This is wrong, I realized. I was starting to see what bothered my father so much. I’ve grown numb to the pain of others… and sotis, I’ve grown to appreciate it.
But what else could I do? Should I put Azcatlapalli out of his misery? He was already dead. What would it take to reduce his spirit to rciful nothingness? Would grinding his bones to dust free him from his horrifying existence? Or would his consciousness endure even in this form?
I gazed upon that land of death and fire that stretched across the horizon. These ashes of a lost world, filled with Burned n and tornted souls.
I could only think of one option to alleviate their suffering.
I flew upward, leaving Azcatlapalli on the ground for now.
Tlaloc awaited .
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