(Joseph POV)
The boardroom was full.
Voices overlapped, presentations flickered across the screen, and decisions were made with the efficiency of a machine that had learned how to operate without hesitation. I sat at the head of the table, pen moving steadily across my notebook, nodding at the right monts, interrupting when necessary.
I was doing everything right.
That was the problem.
There had been a ti—recent enough to ache—when the space beside felt occupied even when it wasn’t. Not physically. Sothing subtler than that. A presence that made the room feel calibrated. Balanced.
Now the chair was empty in a way that felt... final.
"Joseph?"
I looked up.
"Yes," I said, imdiately. Too imdiately.
The speaker continued, unfazed, while I forced my attention back to the conversation. Numbers. Projections. Strategy. All the things I had once believed were enough to build a life.
I caught myself glancing toward the door.
It was instinctive—muscle mory left over from a year of working beside her. There had been monts when I would turn to ask for her thoughts without realizing it. Monts when her quiet observation had grounded my decisions, softened my edges.
Now, there was only air.
The eting ended cleanly. Applause, polite and brief. People filtered out with congratulations and schedules and the faint buzz of accomplishnt.
I stayed seated.
The room felt larger when it was empty.
I rubbed a hand over my face and exhaled slowly.
This is what you wanted, I told myself.
This is what you promised her.
Space.
Freedom.
Distance that didn’t pull her backward.
I stood and straightened my jacket, gathering the papers she would have once neatly organized before I had the chance to make a ss of them.
The office lights seed harsher than usual.
Back in my office, I loosened my tie and leaned against the desk, the city stretching endlessly beyond the windows. My phone buzzed once.
I already knew who it was before I looked.
Yvette
Exhausting. But good.
That was all.
Eight words.
They hit harder than any accusation.
I read it once.
Then again.
Exhausting.
But good.
I imagined her day—the unfamiliar kitchen, the heat, the discipline. I imagined the way she would tuck a strand of hair behind her ear when she concentrated, the slight furrow in her brow when sothing challenged her.
I wondered who stood near her while she worked.
Who walked beside her when the day ended.
Who heard her laugh now.
My thumb hovered over the keyboard.
Are you okay?
Did soone give you trouble?
Did you eat?
I typed. Deleted.
Typed again. Deleted again.
I could feel the words pressing against my chest, demanding release.
But I didn’t send them.
Instead, I replied with sothing safe.
:
I’m glad.
Three words.
Neutral.
Contained.
Carefully asured.
I set the phone down face-first on the desk, as if it could still burn through the glass.
This was the line I had drawn.
Not because I didn’t want her.
Because I wanted her too much.
Night fell without asking permission.
I left the office long after the lights on the lower floors had dimd, the elevator ride down too quiet, too reflective. The city outside was alive—cars streaming past, people laughing in clusters, life continuing in all the ways it always had.
I drove aimlessly for a while, the city lights blurring as my thoughts refused to settle.
When I finally parked, it was in front of my apartnt building.
Inside, everything was immaculate.
Too immaculate.
Her absence had a shape here. It lingered in the quiet corners, in the untouched chair by the window, in the way the kitchen no longer slled faintly of coffee and sothing sweet she liked to bake when stress caught up with her.
I poured myself a drink and stood by the window, watching the city breathe below.
I thought about the promise I had made.
To let her walk her own path.
To not pull her back with my needs.
To not anchor her to a version of she had already outgrown once.
The irony wasn’t lost on .
I had spent my life believing that love ant protection. That staying close was the sa as keeping soone safe.
Now I understood how wrong that had been.
Loving her ant standing still while she moved forward.
Even when every instinct in scread to follow.
My phone buzzed again.
Not her.
Work.
I ignored it.
Instead, I closed my eyes and let a mory surface—uninvited and unwelco.
Yvette at sixteen, sitting on the hood of my car, legs swinging as she laughed at sothing I’d said. The sound had been unguarded, free, the kind of laughter that didn’t know it would one day be rationed by heartbreak.
Back then, I had been the reason she smiled.
The realization settled heavily in my chest.
Is soone else the reason now?
The thought was sharp enough to make inhale sharply—but I didn’t push it away.
Jealousy was human.
What mattered was what I did with it.
I finished my drink and set the glass down untouched, resolve hardening where longing had been.
"If you choose ," I murmured into the empty room, "it has to be because you want to."
Not because I reached out.
Not because I reminded you.
Not because I refused to let go.
I stepped away from the window and turned off the lights, the city’s glow still visible through the darkness.
Tomorrow, I would do this again.
Work.
Restraint.
Distance.
And I would carry the weight of loving her quietly—until the day she turned back of her own accord.
Sleep didn’t co easily.
When it did, it betrayed .
I was standing in the old kitchen—the one that no longer existed except in mory. Morning light spilled across the counter, and Yvette stood there barefoot, hair still damp, humming off-key while she tried to follow a recipe she insisted she didn’t need.
"You’re going to burn that," I told her.
She glanced over her shoulder, eyes bright, smiling like she always did when she knew she was being watched.
"Then you’ll save it," she said, as if it were the most natural thing in the world.
I stepped closer, reaching for the pan—
And woke up.
My hand closed around empty air.
The room was dark, silent, unfamiliar in its neatness. My heart hamred against my ribs, breath shallow as the dream’s warmth evaporated, leaving behind only the ache.
I sat up slowly, running a hand through my hair.
You’re not there anymore.
The realization felt sharper in the middle of the night, when defenses were down and mory had free rein.
I checked my phone.
No new ssages.
The silence felt louder than any sound.
The next day blurred into a series of obligations.
Contracts signed.
Calls taken.
Faces nodded at.
I perford my role flawlessly.
Too flawlessly.
By late afternoon, the pressure had coiled tight enough in my chest that it was difficult to breathe without feeling it press back. I locked myself in my office and stared at the wall across from my desk, its neutrality suddenly unbearable.
I thought of calling her.
Just to hear her voice.
Just to know she was okay.
I picked up my phone.
My thumb hovered over her na.
What would I say?
That I missed her?
That the office felt wrong without her?
That the distance I insisted on maintaining was eating alive?
The words crowded my throat—but I didn’t let them out.
I set the phone down with deliberate care, as if it were sothing fragile.
"This is what you chose," I said quietly.
Restraint wasn’t noble.
It was painful.
But it was necessary.
I had seen what happened when love beca possession. When protection turned into suffocation.
I refused to be that man again.
Even if it ant breaking a little in the process.
That evening, I found myself driving again—no destination in mind, just movent to keep the thoughts at bay. The city lights sared across the windshield as rain began to fall, soft at first, then insistent.
I pulled over near the river, killed the engine, and rested my forehead against the steering wheel.
"I still love you," I whispered.
The confession felt heavier without a recipient.
There was no relief in saying it.
Only truth.
I loved her enough to let her go. Enough to stand aside while soone else walked beside her. Enough to believe that if she returned, it would be because she chose —not because I demanded her attention or reminded her of our past.
I straightened slowly, wiping my face with the back of my hand.
"Be happy," I murmured. "Even if it’s not with ."
The words hurt.
But they steadied too.
When I returned ho, the apartnt greeted with the sa quiet indifference as the night before. I changed, poured another drink, then left it untouched on the counter.
Instead, I opened my laptop and worked.
Not as an escape.
As an anchor.
I would build sothing solid enough that when she looked back—if she ever did—she wouldn’t see a man waiting in the shadows.
She would see soone who had grown alongside her, even from afar.
Before turning in, I checked my phone one last ti.
Still nothing.
I smiled faintly.
Tomorrow, I would send her sothing simple. Supportive. Unburdened.
And then I would step back again.
Because loving her ant holding the line—even when the space between us felt unbearable.
I turned off the light and lay back, staring into the darkness.
The space was still there.
But so was my resolve.
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