Chapter 240: Mind Over Heart
All the questions and disarray kept swirling in my head, my own heart beating loud to the point they ring in my ears, and my body slightly quivering. My eyes still remained on the spot I saw my very mark visible. As an Alpha Female a male bore my mark instead of the other way around, I have half expecting to see one on a naked werelion body, but instead it was on a guy I just had blissful sex with. A Venator...
But this can’t be right... I didn’t sense the mark once since the very day I t him, did he claim it overnight? Or when we had sex? My brain couldn’t process this sudden revelation, all I do was scold myself for how stupid I was not to sense it earlier, maybe it was because his scent was odorless that was why I couldn’t sense it.
Because in a normal case when I notice a male bears my mark their scent changed into sothing only we know of, sothing that gets us constantly aroused and drawn more to each other, just like Emma and Dace. Both are on a full drive on their emotions, the growth and everything that cos in between will intensify into a thousand bolts of electricity, to the point they would be driven mad towards each other.
I admit that I’m attracted to him to the point that sanity was lost to , what happened monts ago was solid proof of that, if he touches
right now I might jump at him like a horny lion. That was how much I coveted him and after this heated session everything was tenfold now... mostly because I have completed my bond with him without even knowing it, this was what made it crazier, sothing like that just happened and now we were bound.
My body was whizzing just by being in the sa room with him, everything about him was sewn into my brain, it took every bit of control I had to just stand there and not mount him again, I was dying for the way he touches and kiss , as well as that endowed cock plumping into
as he set himself loose. I want him, both body and soul to the point it scared
shitless because I knew I created sothing deep and spiritual without him knowing.
Maybe he feels the sa way too, does he?
I watched as he pulled his shirt down before facing . "Look..." he began. "I saw the mark on you yesterday and I panicked, it caught
off guard because how is it possible that we bear the sa mark... it can’t be a coincidence right"
It was not a coincidence, you’re my Male, soone who I would spend eternity with, cherish, love, and desire until I drew my last breath, my future husband and the father to my unborn cubs.
But I can’t bring myself to say it. All my life I have partially dread about getting matched to a werelion. But a Venatores? How the fuck am I supposed to deal with that? I an I know I have already crossed the line by having sex with him and bonding with him, the feelings and emotions just took off over, and then we were doing it. But I understand all those feelings now. My attraction to him, the pull, the untad feeling within
even now, it was all because he’s mine. I want to say it out loud and let him know just how much he’s mine.
"Emilia... talk to , please"
I gulped and folded my arms over my chest, an action I hoped would get my composure back and at least let
think of sothing to say, because I was torn between my head, and it all jamd through . I have Dace to worry about, and now this...
"Is it sothing that has to do with your people?" he asked eagerly like he could sense it through my silence and for so reason the thought scared .
"It’s not!" I answered. That was the opposite of what I’m supposed to say. I didn’t know why I lied... it just ca off
without hesitation. My inner self kept nailing at
to return my words but I couldn’t bring myself to. What exactly will be his action when he finds out he’s forever bound to a werelion? Judging from his nature and his way he will hate it, he will repulse it. He’s a hunter who kills my people for sport. What we had might just have been a fling for him, a ta to his built-up desires, I wasn’t even sure he wanted
after this.
He won’t accept
and I knew it, that was a reality that hit
hard, the spell is broken.
"Are you sure?" he asked once again.
And all I did was nod and then he did sothing that wants
wanna kiss him so badly, he gripped my arms tightly and my body awakened, this was torture for
because I was fighting every cell in my body, why was I going this far, why was I doing this to him? There was a reason for it. Because I can’t bear the rejection, it was way worse than this because the toll will an death itself.
The solemnity of the words I told Dace finally dawned on , how he felt about rejecting Emma, I had no Male then so I didn’t completely understand my actions but now I do, he had every right to lose himself to his beast after what I said to him. I’m a foolish sister.
"Is that the truth? Don’t lie to "
You won’t accept it.
I pulled his hand away, stepping back. "I’m not... it’s just in your head, that mark is nothing compared to mine, I saw it, and it’s not" I die within
saying those words, my heart twisted.
He narrowed his eyes on .
"And what happened between us..." I leveled my gaze because I couldn’t bring myself to look at him when I say this. "It was fun... it was just impulsed"
I heard a scoff from him and my chest tightened to the point I couldn’t breathe.
"Is that what it was to you?"
I forced myself to face him and I lted seeing the hurt in his eyes, loud and clear and I can feel it too.
"Don’t-"
"I’m not lying, Grayson!" I barked at him.
And his mouth closed, and he grounded his gaze. He looked hurt like I had just broken him and all I just wanna do was hug him and pet him until his pain was gone.
But he won’t accept
even if I told him, his philosophy was based on getting rid of my clan and I can’t impose this bond on him, just imagine how crushed he would be when he finds out he’s forever bound to .
"The saying is right then..." he brought his eyes back to
and it was like my own world disappeared, I can’t take back what I said now. "Once a beast always a beast" he mouths before grabbing his jacket and his ’hunting’ weapon and then walking out.
I heard him... his departing footstep not stopping, walking away until it beca faint, and as it did I closed my eyes and drew backward. He was leaving and my body scread at
to call him, and tell him it was all a lie, tell him he was perfect, he was amazing and I will never get tired of him. He’s mine and only mine and no one else can have him.
But all I did was slam my back against the and slide until my butt touched the floor. Running my hands through my hair as the tears threatened to fall.
"You did the right thing..." I said in a mantra hoping to console myself but the more I lied to myself the shakier my voice got and then I just broke... I can’t rember the last ti I cried like this...probably when I was younger when I got lost in the woods after playing with Dace. I thought he abandoned
and I would never see my parents again until he ca and told
he ran too far and he was so sorry. He piggybacked
back to the house because that was what made
happy.
I could still rember his comforting warmth and as he spoke to
constantly so that I wouldn’t cry again. His soothing voice as he listed out all the flowers he passed by, listed the birds too and all I could do was watch him from behind with a smile on my lips.
"Dace" I cried and sobbed and allowed myself to drown.
"Grayson
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