ZARAH~
I loved the way he looked at , I’ve never said this out loud but I love the way his blue eyes looked at with desire and adoration, whenever I was in his presence I didn’t feel normal, I felt important, I felt like a queen, when I was with him I didn’t feel like the runt whose father betrayed his pack, I just felt like Dina yers and I loved and cherished every mont of that feeling.
I didn’t want to leave his apartnt but I had to, Nala had begun acting up again so leaving was the only way to prevent myself from literally lunging at him and ripping off his clothes, but I couldn’t pin it all on Nala, I also wanted him, I wanted him inside , I wanted to know what it felt like to lay beside him but he was my boss and I couldn’t do anything that would destroy the stability I had created.
I took out my keys from my bag and opened the door, imdiately I was welcod with the sight of Nancy and Elliott watching a movie or more accurately Nancy watching a movie while Elliott lay asleep with his head on her lap.
"Hey," I said quietly, keeping my voice light so I wouldn’t wake him up.
"Hey." She responded with a warm smile, I walked closer to them and sat beside him.
"Thank you," I said as I brushed away a stray strand from his face.
"My pleasure." She replied as she gently raised his head from her lap and onto the couch then stood. up
"I’m gonna go now." She said with a hesitant smile as she picked up her small bag and was about to walk out.
"Wait." I stopped and she turned around "You can stay here if you want...I know you don’t like going ho, I don’t know why but if you wanna stay you can." I said, I didn’t know what she was going through but I knew what it was like to rather be anywhere else but my own ho, when I was younger I wished I had sowhere else I could’ve gone to but unfortunately all I had was the one thing I wanted to run away from, if I could make my ho the place she would feel comfortable then I would. She looked at .
"I don’t want to impose." She said, her eyes filled with an emotion I was all too familiar with.
"You won’t," I assured them as I gently tapped the space she had just left, she smiled and sat back down then she let out a relieved sigh and I knew I made the right decision.
"Do you wanna talk about it?" I asked softly making sure I didn’t co off as intrusive.
"Yeah." She replied warmly "It’s not like I don’t going ho, it’s just— it’s just my parents.", My heart thumped with pain as I rembered my mother.
"Did they abuse you?" I asked softly as I gently held onto her.
"No, God no." She imdiately replied, I breathed out in relief.
"Then what’s wrong?"
"They are getting divorced and neither of them wants to leave the house."
"Why?"
"I don’t know." She said as tears began filling her eyes "All they do is bicker and fight and I’m always in the middle of it and I just— I hate it."
"I’m sorry," I consoled.
"I don’t want them to get divorced." She said, her voice filled with sadness as she spoke.
"I think every child thinks their parents are a perfect match and sotis it can be hard to understand that so people aren’t just ant to be together," I explained.
"I hate them, but I miss them, I miss who they used to be." Nancy said as she wiped away the tears that rolled down her face "I feel like I’m mourning them even if they are still alive."
"It’s easier to forget soone who died than soone who changed, maybe you’re just mourning the mories you had of them."
"It’s hard." She cried, "I hate them but I can’t stop myself from missing them." She sobbed.
"I understand," I said, I understood her completely, even when my father left and my mother treated the way she did I still missed them and I hoped that maybe one day they’d call or reach out to , Her head snapped to face as if she had just rembered sothing.
"What?" I asked.
"I’m sorry about the other day." She apologized, obviously referring to the day Ronda ca.
"It’s ok." I said as I helped her wipe away the tear that remained on her face "I know what it feels like to be in your position, so whenever you need to talk, I’ll always be here." I said with a reassuring smile on my face as I gently squeezed her hand, honestly I was ashad of myself for not seeing how much pain she had been in all this while, No, I saw it but I chose to ignore it and that was worse, but not anymore, I’d help her in any way I could.
"You know I could set up the spare room for you if you ever wanna sleep over," I said with a smile.
"You don’t need to."
"I don’t mind, But you’ll have to move the boxes out yourself," I said with a smile, her eyes watered up.
"Thank you." she said, her voice filled with gratitude "Can I hug you?" She asked, Her words made my heart full as I spread my arms, inviting her into my embrace.
It didn’t take long before she fell asleep in my arms, she breathed gently against my neck as her head laid comfortably on my shoulders, I felt at peace, with Elliott on my lap and her on my shoulder I felt a sense of strength I hadn’t felt in a while like I had more to protect than just myself, a smile crossed my lips and soon I too drifted into sleep.
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