She knew that Musen would comfort her by saying it was okay, but didn't that just make him suffer even more? It was as if all his hopes were being ground away…
She was very selfish.
Even though she knew it wasn't the conclusion of their story, she just couldn't let go…
Now in this lifeti.
After Mingyue's mories gradually awakened, she had thought that maybe she should just let it be since Musen had been deeply hurt by her in their past life…
After all, he already had another girl by his side, and even without her, his disappointing childhood friend, he could still live well.
But still, she couldn't let go, she wasn't willing to give up, she still wondered if they could… maybe be together for another year or two, or even just a month or a day.
But before she knew it, she had fallen again.
Her tears couldn't help flowing down as she leaned on Musen's shoulder, sobbing, feeling wronged and self-blaming, "I'm just so selfish… I clearly know that you will still be heartbroken later, I clearly know that the best choice for in this life is to disappear, but I still want to be with you… Musen, I'm sorry, but I really like you so much…"
Musen felt his heart painfully breaking as he listened, gently holding her shoulders, let her cry into his chest.
"I know… I know, I don't bla you, on the contrary, we should both feel fortunate. I'm glad that I never truly resolved to forget you, and I'm glad you kept your selfishness."
Musen gently patted her back, inhaling the faint scent of roses from her body, a fragrance that lingered in his mories across two lifetis.
"If you really chose to deceive in this life, to truly miss out on each other, I would still find out about you sooner or later. If I only learned the truth then, that's when I would truly go insane, truly unable to forgive myself."
Musen softly spoke as if they were back at the beginning when both were stubborn, misunderstanding and "resenting" each other.
Musen could have lived well, he would have endless wealth, and a wonderful girl like Nuannuan by his side.
But eventually, the truth couldn't be concealed forever.
If one day, Mingyue didn't make it through this lifeti, Musen would truly go insane.
Because much of Mingyue's sickly character was actually his responsibility…
As a childhood friend, as a husband, he also failed to guess the real worries in Mingyue's heart.
Even using the topic of children to push her at that ti, had undoubtedly shattered her last psychological defenses…
Musen looked down at Mingyue, bit his lip, and eventually whispered in her ear, "Mingyue, let's not have children then, let's just be together happily, okay?"
Mingyue raised her head, her eyes swollen from tears, and after a long while, she shook her head, "I know, you like children, and I will like anything you like… This is a regret, and also my choice this ti."
"The arrival of a child should be the crystal overflow of love, not the burden that empties soone. You should have told sooner, then I would never have said those words in our past life…"
Musen's words were left unfinished as Mingyue gently covered his lips.
"I just knew you would say sothing like this..." Mingyue sniffled, her eyes sparkling, "You have always been used to sacrificing yourself to pamper , but the more you do it, the less peace I feel in my heart."
"What's there to feel uneasy about? I'm happy to spoil you, and people envy having such a chance..."
Musen wiped the tears from the corner of her eyes, willingly devoted, especially because their feelings were mutual.
Mingyue gazed deeply into his eyes, holding his face in her hand, "Musen… I know what you want to say, but I've really made my decision this ti. I want to try again, and this ti I have the experience, my chances of success are already fifty percent. I feel like my luck might be better this ti, and if all else fails...maybe we could have another life together?"
Yao Mingyue spoke in a light tone, but the tears constantly stread from the corners of her eyes.
Who could guarantee there would be another lifeti?
Who could ensure that even if there was another lifeti, it would result in a favorable outco?
"Mingyue, what I said is also true, having you well and happy with is enough..."
"I know, I know, you fool, there's no hardship you can't endure for , but now I don't want to see you suffer anymore..."
Seeing Xu Musen's anxious gaze, Yao Mingyue's pale cheeks revealed a tearful smile, "And now, you're not just responsible for , there's another girl who needs you.
In fact, hearing what you said to today made very happy, and I've truly understood what Nuannuan told . Loving soone truly ans giving, making the other feel joy, only then can you say it's genuine love. Nuannuan is really amazing... although I hate to admit it, she is truly wonderful."
Xu Musen was silent for a long ti,
waiting as the light snow slowly covered their heads, as if whitening their hair strands.
Yao Mingyue's skin appeared even whiter against the backdrop, her hands grew gradually colder, every breath she took made her heart feel stuffy, yet her eyes were incredibly determined and fiery.
"Brother Musen, let choose again in this life, I don't believe I'll still be so unlucky, and... I'm still that selfish girl. If I bet right this ti, I'll still compete with Nuannuan.
After all, we are childhood sweethearts, past-life spouses, we've been together for a long ti, but just lacked that ending of growing old together. This ti, let be selfish once more, please, my husband~"
Snowflakes drifted down, at this mont on the shoulders and heads of both, seemingly coated with a layer of white frost.
A 'Brother' and a 'Husband.'
The entanglents of two lives, the decades of past, seed to pass through the long years within these two words.
Black hair turned to white,
as if the two had stepped through a gateway of ti, seemingly gazing at each other from afar yet closely nestled together.
Xu Musen knew he couldn't persuade her.
He held the girl in his arms for a long ti, observing her mix of reluctance and relief, tenderness and defiance, unease and firmness…
Contradictory yet sensible, that was her.
Clumsy was her, Sickly was her.
Xu Musen slowly reached out his hand after a long while, gently brushing the misty snowflakes from her hair, revealing her soft, ink-colored long hair.
"Snowflakes can't dye our black hair, nor can they take away my Sister Mingyue. We will surely see the day we truly grow old together, right? My dear wife."
Xu Musen's voice was just as tender and fiery, as if to lt the chilly winter.
The two silently gazed at each other for a long ti, waiting as the snow began to fall on their heads again, Yao Mingyue's eyes twinkled with tears and smiles.
"Alright..."
So foolish… so good…
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