Yao Mingyue's mind was always filled with many fragnted mories, starting from so unknown ti.
Especially after she jumped into the ice river last ti, those mories gradually beca clear.
In her daze, she saw many things, and understood many things...
She let out a small breath.
The haze of intoxication was no match for the complexity surging in her heart at this mont.
She looked at An Nuannuan, knowing if she talked about past lives and reincarnation, she definitely wouldn't believe it.
Just like what Xu Musen had told her in the beginning...
In fact, even she herself wasn't clear if it was just an incredibly vivid dream.
But she knew she still had to speak up, otherwise she might really never have the chance again.
She looked at An Nuannuan, the figure from her blurry mories stumbling forward seed to slowly overlap with her.
"An Nuannuan, I want to tell you a story..."
An Nuannuan looked at her reddening eyes, nodded gently, and sat beside the bed, just like a pair of close girlfriends would do.
Yao Mingyue took a sip of water, her voice still a bit hoarse.
"An Nuannuan, if I say, I was actually married to Xu Musen in my previous life, the kind where we had a marriage certificate and lived together for many years, would you believe ?"
Yao Mingyue kept watching An Nuannuan's reaction.
Other girls would either get angry or find it laughable if soone told them their boyfriend was their past-life husband.
But An Nuannuan blinked faintly, seemingly without much disturbance: "Then what?"
Then what...
Yao Mingyue was at a loss for words for a mont.
It took a few seconds before she spoke again: "Don't you want to ask why I would say that?"
Although such talk might seem like a ridiculous fantasy to others, there should at least be so ripple of emotion, right?
"Because whatever happened in a past life, it doesn't really matter anymore, I just need to live this life well with him. That's all that matters."
An Nuannuan's voice was soft yet resolute.
Yes, whether or not there was such a thing as a previous life, she was with Xu Musen in this life.
That was sothing no one could take away.
Yao Mingyue fell silent again for a long ti, although she had long since accepted this reality.
But every ti she heard that possessive statent, there was a certain heaviness in her heart.
She took another sip of water.
"What I an is, if it weren't for... certain reasons, we would end up together, from childhood sweethearts to old age, from birth to the end of life. I like him, and he wouldn't really forget ."
Yao Mingyue's words didn't have their usual sharp antagonism, but the weight of her words was still enough to impose a heavy burden.
This was her advantage as his childhood sweetheart, a bond also known as destiny.
"In my past life, I indeed didn't know how to love soone. I was always unable to fill the panic in my heart. I was always afraid he would leave , so I always kept him close by my side, but these things could never fill my own wounds and only made him suffer for so long.
Actually, in the end, I thought that if I could start over, perhaps I would love him in a different way, just like the way he once liked ."
Yao Mingyue spoke slowly, admitting that perhaps the way she had loved him was wrong.
But her affection for Xu Musen had never once strayed.
An Nuannuan didn't speak, just quietly watched Yao Mingyue.
Yao Mingyue, too, gazed back at her, chuckled lightly and said: "I really disliked you at first... from the standpoint of a rival in love, I even hated you.
But then, I slowly realized that it wasn't you I hated, but the weak from the past."
Yao Mingyue chuckled self-deprecatingly, her eyes misty with drunkenness and now also tinged with redness: "I used to curse him secretly, scolding him for how, despite being childhood sweethearts for over a decade, he could be snatched away in less than half a year by soone who appeared out of the blue, such a jerk..."
Yao Mingyue looked at An Nuannuan: "I rember what you said to in the milk tea shop back then.
I don't have to care about whether I can get him, but I want to beco soone he could like.
It wasn't until that day that I suddenly realized, it wasn't him suddenly forsaking over a decade of feelings, but rather, in those ten years, I had never truly given him what he really wanted.
I always thought in terms of what I feel, what I believe, what I need, and I was also afraid, afraid of losing him, afraid I couldn't keep him, yet I had never considered what type of security I should provide for him.
I always felt that I could make it up to him later, but I ignored that what one desires at eighteen doesn't resonate the sa way when one reaches twenty-eight."
The corners of Yao Mingyue's eyes shimred with tears as she looked at An Nuannuan: "So, I hate you, but perhaps I should thank you more for making realize what it truly feels like to like soone deeply."
An Nuannuan looked up at her, Yao Mingyue's tear-streaked face prompting her to fall silent for a mont.
Only after a few seconds did she take a wet cloth and gently wiped at Yao Mingyue's eyes while saying: "I also find you a bit annoying…"
Yao Mingyue was taken aback, but after all, they were love rivals, so it was to be expected she would be disliked.
But after An Nuannuan finished wiping her eyes she said: "The reason I find you annoying is that you wasted so many chances for him to like you. What was once easily within your grasp may have been sothing soone else longed for over a very long ti. You're not wrong, of course, anyone who likes soone would try all sorts of ways to win them over.
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